Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Update With The Date -- Sort Of.

Took the subway and bus to Upper East Side to meet a gentleman that I became friends with. When I arrived at his apartment building, I was bit set back by the fact that it is luxury apartment. He lives on 34th floor with the stunning view of Midtown. Truly breathtaking.

Apparently, this person has friends in high places. We chatted about a lot of things and he cooked the dinner for both of us. Very delicious. He was very cordial, sweet and average guy.

I joked that I'd love to have an apartment like this. He said that he could check with his friends about it. I was bit flabbergasted and said that he does not have to. He smiled and shrugged me off.

We talked about this, that and there. He said he will check with his friends about getting me a job with better pay. That is one shitty thing about New York -- you have to have friends in high places to survive. You have to balance who you are as Deaf person and work with ... them out there.

But I was humbled when he said he wanted the best for me. He did not have to do that, but he wanted to. Truly nice man. After 3 hours of chatting and bullshitting, I departed.

I'm telling you guys, the luxury apartment where he lives makes me feel so inferior. Standing next to a dog in the elevator is something I'm not used to. Was afraid that it'd go berserk and bite me. Or piss on me.

I'd love to live in that building. If you throw a stone, it'll land in Central Park, figuratively.

Yes, I'd give anything to have an apartment like that.

Cheers,

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A Date For Tonight -- Sort of.

Wish me luck.

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Last Night

Went with Jenny to The Iguana Restaurant -- there I get to socialize with CMK, CK, Regan and the visitor in Frazier. CMK organized the last-minute gathering which was very nice. Had several coldaches after drinking frozen Marguaritas (I can't spell the worth shit on that term!), ouch.

After that, I parted from them and headed out to The Cock. I like Mondays at The Cock Bar. I guess it is my comfort zone on Mondays.

I bumped into one very attractive guy whom I will not identify his name for the time being because I really think he's worth the energy to get to know more. Gee, thanks to Corey, I was bit out of it last night. There were not many cute guys there except for that one whom I met. We had four things that kinda ... pushed us in the same direction -- which is very odd or coincidence. But I'm not betting high hopes on this, mainly because it is not good to have high hopes.

Saw a certain person and asked him about the next "Triple XXX" Party -- he smiled and said, "I'll need some help, you want to pitch out the next time around? But not very soon because we have to lay low -- the cops are on us these days."

Uh-oh.

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Jeers to Arthur Finkelstein

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Monday, April 11, 2005

A Message from A Certain Person In Afterlife

Oooo. The Xians are in deep shit.

Check this message.

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Billy Will Kill Me But His Kids Will Love This

I was cleaning my wallet while watching the SuperVolcano on Discovery Channel today and I found a laminated picture of my nephew and niece by Junior, my older brother. The ones in my wallet are the latest pictures of my ever-growing nephew and niece, but the one I am posting up is an old picture of two years, I believe. Jordon is now 8 1/2 years old, I believe.

I know Junior will lecture me with blistering tone while Tanya rants with some crazy notions that someone is going after her kids when I posted up the old picture of Jordon with Becca on my blog

Jordon is not his first name. So is Becca. I'm quite protective of my nephews and nieces. I have four. Zach, Becca, Jordon and Yamka. I love 'em dearly -- so when I saw the pictures, I smiled and sighed a little.

I am protective of them, but again, I do not like children. One time, Jordon wanted a hug and a kiss from me when he was 3 or 4, I shrugged mainly because I do not feel comfortable being around with kids. Junior pointed his finger at me and said, "Give him that!" I was bit startled and started to snicker a little.

Looking back at that, Junior is right -- in order to make his children sensitive and care for others, one has to share the affection in return. It was bit unusual for me to handle it since I rarely deal with kids. I always made fun of children from distance but when one says, "Hey, RT, hold this!", I simply freak out and held their foot in the air and say, "What do I do next?" If the kids were getting on my nerves, I'd mutter to my Mom, "Can you throw them in the trash can?!"

But hey, Jordon, don't worry, I'll always make these insane comments but I'll never throw you in the trash can or anything like that. After all, you guys are mine. Permanently.

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Jordon and Becca

Oh, yeah, much to the chagrin of some readers who feared that I'd wage the genocide on all hearing persons -- Jordon, Becca, Yamka and Zach are all hearing. I will move the worlds to ensure that they will not be treated badly as many did to me.

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Kyle & Breyer

I love Greg Fox's Kyle Bed & Breakfast comic strip. I occasionally got in touch with Greg and talked about the character I always felt for -- Kyle. Kyle is a sweet guy who operated the bed & breakfast inn in Long Island (a dream of mine to build one in Pennsylvania) -- I was enamored that Kyle finally found his match in Breyer.

This happened right after Kyle told Breyer that his dick size does not matter (apparently, before that, people looked at Breyer as a big guy and expected a big dick -- Breyer avoided Kyle for a while after dating him, but Kyle finally caught Breyer and learned of this problem) -- and Breyer was thrilled when Kyle said his dick size does not matter at all. I told Greg Fox that this particular panel is my favorite because it is easy to love Kyle -- enjoy!

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Thanks, Greg, for entertaining me with your imagination.

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Sunday, April 10, 2005

A Quick Comment about SuperVolcano

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So Much For McCock's Valiant Forest Firefighter!


Was amused when Dr. Richard Lieberman showed the computer graphics to the Director of FEMA about how big the Yellowstone could erupt -- it included Virginia.

Happy, WildStarrySkies?

It mentioned that the volcanic ash is not just any ash. It mentioned that if you inhale the volcanic ash into your lungs, it can liquidify into the cement and essentially drown you in the process. Not a pretty sight.

Not only that, these volcanic ash could get in the electricity system and crash our access to blogs (!), internet (!), TV (!) and probably radio (who cares?). Har har.

At least, there is no sight that Jesus Christ will intervene. Sorry, could NOT resist this.

Update: The SuperVolcano on Discovery Channel was great. It was informative and entertaining. It also mentioned that if the Yellowstone exploded with the full brunt of its power, it will bury 80 percent of the United States, making 20% virtually uninhabitable including Salt Lake City and Boise. It also mentioned that it is high likely that the government of Mexico would turn its back on the United States by closing the border as well, doomed us to our own blighting.

Not only that, if the full brunt of Yellowstone erupted, it will happen with more than 5 vents -- which means there will be FIVE volcanoes erupting in different spots in Yellowstone National Park all at the same time. If it last more than seven consecutive days, it will affect the whole globe. It will plummet the world temperature by 20 degrees (so much for Global Warming!) and send the rest of Europe into the brief Ice Age.

Rayni and Jeff, much to their chagrin, will not be able to bronze their skins for few years. Even with the equatorial circle, it will be very cool. Billions of economic losses probably will derail the United States as the global power of the world. Just like the Roman Times.

So if it does happen in my lifetime, the fact will remain the same that the majority of Republicans, X-ians and Conservatives will be taken care of with swift death -- effectively. Like it or not, they will be.

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Weekend of Thoughts

Why is that gay bloggers so obsessed with dogs? There are bloggers that devoted to talk about their best friends on the blog. I can tolerate dogs but big, hairy dogs made me allergic. Killing my eyes which is the heartbeat of my life, is not good way to be in love with these pets. I preferred the cats.

Never mind McCock's planned rebuttals on his blogsite to argue my intentions. Better that Tsunami than Yellowstone, though. But as always, you can see McCock continues to read my blogsie, like Dale does. I'm flattered. One guy told me that he is not fond of me but cannot stop reading my blogsite because he is "afraid" of what I might say the next time around. So that's why he sticks around in order to know what I plan to utter.

Tom, Perlis' cat, is staring at me right now. He's annoyed that I refused to pet him. He wanted the full attention -- I try to give it 25%, this way he will always come back and beg for more. Very cute guy.

I saw Jeff Gannon and Mike Rogers on C-SPAN yesterday morning. Damn the captions, it fizzled out when Jeff Gannon and Ann Marie Cox of Wonkette.com had some shouting matches. I'm not sure what had transpired. I asked around -- nobody wanted to share. Typical hearie pigs. Then I saw Mike Rogers shouting or berating Jeff. That was not good move on Rogers' part. Even I would not do that.

One funny moment about Jeff Gannon, he is full of himself. On his blogsite, he wrote:
Unfortunately, at the conclusion of the event, an activist created such a spectacle that I left the room immediately with security.

That was a lie. I saw him walking out by HIMSELF on the C-SPAN. He did not walk out of the room with security. He must have some kind of imaginary friends provided by White House's Secret Service. Once a liar, always a liar, Jeff Gannon.

There is an article in Des Moines Registrar that discussed about the conspiracy theory amongst the bloggers regarding Jeff Gannon is Johnny Gosch, a kidnapped boy from Des Moines, Iowa who were indoctrinated as a part of child pedophilia organized by the CIA to target the high-profile politicians. Weird, though. But one high profile confidante of the government said that it won't be surprising to see things like that in Washington.

Tonight is Desperate Housewives and Supervolcano! Time to mellow down my irritations created by many people across the world.

I have a newspaper clipping of Virginia Women's Basketball team in '91-'92, there was a great picture of the team walking onto the court after a timeout, the first person that on the left side was Tammi Reiss, trying to tell her teammates what to do, the 2nd person standing behind Tammi was Melanee Wagener, she was cheerful and optimistic. In the center of the picture was Dawn Staley, my favorite player who tends to be very stoic on the court but incredibly talented. Behind Dawn Staley was Tonya Cardoza who patted on Dawn's back as to tell her to move along. And last, right behind Tonya was Heather Burge, who was tucking her jersey shirt into her shorts. When I get to scan the picture -- you'll see why I am like Dawn Staley at times. I am surrounded by crazies but yet, I try to maintain some kind of stoicism in my life. And I like it.

Confidential to Rico of The Netherlands: Enjoy your new gift from New York by Silas, eh? No, we did not lube it -- it is brand-new, just reserved for you. Enjoy it when you are home alone. But don't let your Momma see it. She may take it for herself.

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Why Do I Make Fun of X-ians?

One avid reader of mine asked me why I was harsh on Republicans, Conservatives and Christians -- especially the Christians. I explained my reasons. I also told her that I'd do that on my blog to clear up some misconceptions.

As you can see the trend of last two decades, many Conservatives, Republicans and Christians has demonized the words in "Democrats", "Liberals" -- to a point where if one says, "Damn the dirty Liberal" to the other person who disputed, that "other person" became defensive and did not like the insult. The question begets, is this appropriate? No.

The Republicans, Conservatives and Christians has been doing this for years. I felt that they needed the medicine of their own -- that is to put it back where it belonged -- in their mouths, that they are dirty, filthy and pig. Many Christians are full of crap. They claimed to be able to cure just because they are (gasp!) born-again Christian! They claimed that homosexuality is wrong just because the old book said so! They claimed that they disavowed wars, but history proved again, again, and again that they wage wars to proselytize their religious beliefs.

Some Christians argued that they are not "religious" -- others are, they are just Christians. Hogwash. That is to exonerate their responsibility for inflicting the pain on others.

Christians argued that gays are a threat to the society -- it is hogwash. Gays has been part of this world from day one, like it or not. What you do not know, you fear!

I have close friends who are believers of Jesus Christ -- that is fine with me, they also know that preaching the sins to me won't make me un-gay. They still accept me and even asked me if I got a boyfriend or my conquests. Delanne, Todd, Dyan, Kevin, Kathy, Kim and few others are prime examples of good Christians. I accepted them because they befriend me for who I am, not for what I am. They are good people.

But millions of X-ians are not good people. They claimed to be good people, they are not. People like ThePrecinctChair said that I was not denied "the right to marry any willing single woman of your choice."

C'mon, let's be serious for a minute -- my friends who knew me for years, do I truly want to wed a woman that has vagina? Do I see a hand raising over there? No? I rest my case, TPC.

As you can see, there are many Christians who claimed that they are "tolerant", but they are not. They do not tolerate -- always used the excuses that they "have gay friends back home who agreed with them" -- a pure hogwash.

My point is that ... I have many friends who are good Christians, but there are millions of dumbfuck X-ians that I rejected completely. Why? They attempted to force me to do things that I do not want to be part of, so in turn I retaliate by making fun of them until they back off from doing this to me and others.

Many GLBTs do not bother you if you want to believe in a fairy tale about Jesus Christ, in fact, we *allow* you to do so because we believe that you have the right to believe in Tooth Fairy! But no, most of X-ians insist that they "understand" us but we are still wrong.

Remove the 'but' first, then I'll stop making fun of your hocus pocus beliefs. Until the day, people learned to respect others of their differences without resorting to use the inflammatory words like "dirty liberals", "damn liberals", "filthy fags" -- my insistence to call Republicans, Conservatives and Xians with offensive names shall remain.

Here is the classic example of how Conservatives, Republicans and Christians do to Liberals, Gays, Democrats and others -- tell me if it is appropriate thing to do. This was taken from OurShirts.com which supported the Conservatives pigs like Instapundit, Gook Malkin et al.

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As you can see, these are not funny. These are offensive means to ridicule the others for disagreeing with their views. If they can do it, why can't I?

So I adopted the means to ridicule and make fun of them as well. An eye for an eye, like it or not.

If you feel a pinch of pain in your heart when someone said that you're "Christian pig", remember how you did that to others who declined to believe in your beliefs.

Don't whine about it since many of others did it first.

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

Funny Observations

Had a good friend whom I will not identify for now without his permission. He left Gallaudet two years ago and went to another state to work, bum and all that. Why? Because he flunked some courses and he was about 3 courses short of graduation. He had some bills to pay first before completing the courses. So for two years, he was BA (or BS)-less and had a rough time living on his own. Such is a life without a college degree.

When he paid the bills at Gallaudet, he sought for an appointment with his Academic Advisor about completing few courses to graduate. He was able to have an appointment last Tuesday to discuss about coming back to school to complete the requirements. I was interested because I was there all along when he had a period of rough times. I asked Silas about the meeting, "Is he going back to school? How many courses must he complete?"

Silas chuckled and chortled the message to me on the subway train. I nearly choked and said, "What?! Are you fucking kidding?" Silas grinned and shook his head, "I'm not kidding. I'm coming back to the East Coast again in May."

Apparently, the Academic Advisor told my friend that he *already* completed the requirements to graduate two years ago and was supposed to graduate in 2003. So my dear friend is going to pick up his college degree this coming May -- two years late. Well, better late than never. Jesus Christ. Congratulations, my dear friend.

Odd Quote? Last Monday night at The Cock Bar, my friends and I hung out and had a good time until the bar closed at 4 AM. One hearing guy insisted that we joined him to his home to continue partying but as soon as we stepped outside, this guy vanished. Then I needed to piss so bad. So I went around the block to piss while Silas and Keith waited. One guy who dressed very well with shaved head approached one of my friends and flirted a little, my friend scoffed him off. Suddenly, this shaved head guy wrote on a notepad which baffled my friend and showed it to me. I smiled and chuckled, "Why did he says it?" My friend does not know why this hearing guy wrote that. It reads: "Don't demonize me because I'm rich!"

Honey, we will never demonize you if you're rich -- we will demonize you if you're poor or have shitty attitude! Guess what? You're cute, nice and sweet guy. We liked you but we were also tired. You're fine the way you are.

FagOrbit Is Coward: I noticed something interesting on his blogsite. Michael Demmonds of GayOrbit is bashing on Mike Rogers incessantly for what he did to Bruce Carroll who abruptly left GayPatriot.org after Mike made phone calls to Bruce's workplace. Tasteless, right?

I personally disliked Bruce because he totally lied and distorted the information about me. When he got silenced by Mike Rogers, I was glad. But one thing led to another, GayOrbit and I got in an argument which I lambasted him for making fun of a guy who wrote him an email with bad spellings and grammar. Maybe it was my fault for not being clear with what I attempted to say, I told him that he shouldn't have done that because he does not know this gentleman's background -- maybe he is dyslexic, deaf or hispanic -- suddenly, GayOrbit and I turned the battle turf into deaf vs. hearing which was amusing and ridiculous. I turned him into FagOrbit.

Perhaps I was frustrated with the fact that many hearing bloggers were muted when others made fun of my not-so-great English skills, but when I scolded others for doing things inappropriately, they all attacked me. Crazy, is it? Anyway, Michael Demmonds accused Mike Rogers of being a coward because he used the anonymous name to respond to his comments on his blogsite. I thought it was absurd.

Know why? Michael Demmonds is coward, too. He deleted my comments routinely. Including the one I said to him that what he is doing to Rogers is no better than what Rogers did to others. It is interesting to note that he thinks he is all that but he cannot take criticisms from others. He attacked others but when I told him the same thing, he muted me. Even he commented on my blogsite, I did not delete it. Who is coward? You decide.

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Windsor Castle

Today, two-timer Prince Charles married Camilla Parker Bowles in Windsor, United Kingdom. Never mind that they can marry twice or fifteen times, I cannot marry in this country -- go figure.

However, when they mentioned that the couple got married in Town Hall not far from Windsor Castle, it brought a memory of my trip to Windsor. I was riding in the car with a group heading to Windsor Castle. I heard about the castle as a place where Queen Elizabeth used to stay for weekends or summer retreats once before when there was a fire that consumed one wing that billed more than 4 billion of pounds. Correct me if I'm wrong but I cannot remember the exact amount but I know it is absurd expensive.

The driver of the van pointed to the Windsor Castle which sits off the highway right outside of London. I was stunned by its massive size. It is the largest occupied castle in the world. It sits on a hill, sprawling itself like a city. When I got to Windsor, I was in awe. Windsor has 1,400 rooms. The fire that damaged was confined to very small part of the castle -- even with how small it was, it still costs billions of pounds to fix it!

The van dropped us off at the bottom of the hill, you'd have to walk up the hill AROUND the Castle, it will take you through the town of Windsor where Town Hall sits ... at the top of the hill, you'll enter the Castle.

Windsor Castle is absolutely stunning, much more than Buckingham Palace.

If you're in London, take the time out and head out to Windsor. You won't be surprised like I was with Buckingham Palace. For more information on Windsor Castle, check this out.

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X-ians Are Nuts

You gotta love the folks who claimed to be "born-again X-ians". They claimed that they, their church and their devotion to Jesus Christ and God will cure you of your deafness.

I wrote an entry a LONG time ago where I mentioned that one woman tried to cure my brother's deafness by grabbing ahold of his head and prayed. I grabbed her wrist and violently took it off and gave him the dead stare that could make the lady shiver with fear. I swear she'd think I was Lucifer Morningstar.

The same thing happened to Jeff Carlson. Poor him. But that was so funny entry. Ahh, he privatized his blogsite so I asked him for his permission, here it is!

OH, JESUS! Last night, I was at Kinko helping Dork with his court case. A lady there saw us signing, she slipped us a note saying, "Believe in Jesus. He will cure you. You will be hearing again. Hallelujah!" She also wrote down something about 12:6 in the bible.

I am always amused every time it happens. Why not? I get to play game with their mind. Really, those people needs to pray to God and ask Him to grow their brains. They are all morons.

Few months ago, I went to the bookstore with someone. A guy saw me signing, he came by with a note saying to seek God for His help and go to his church. Then he left. "Hello there?" I wonder. I just want to talk.

Other time, I was talking to someone and a lady wrote a note and handed to me saying, "God is good" and blah, blah, blah. At the end of the note, she said I should go to her church and God would help me with my deafness." I told her that God wouldn't help me at all. She told me to put my faith in Him and it is all a test. I told her, "No, listen... I've been bad. I've fornicated, cussed, called people names, made fun of them, gambled, and used the Lord's name in vain." She said, "Well, you can ask Him for His forgiveness." I told her, "I don't want to do that. I love every sinful things I did. It's fun. I want to try sodomy at some point." That lady left the building before I could finish the sentence.

Another X-ian nut on the loose. This time it is in Rochester. Felt bad for my friends in Rochester -- Poor Jason and Aarie.

As you can see in the last week of melodrama by X-ian nuts. We also have an All-American X-ian Terrorist in Eric Rudolph, who bombed a gay nightclub, two abortion clinics and at the 2000 Olympics, pleading guilty to all charges to avoid the death penalty. What do you call it? A coward, of course.

It is easy to scream at Muslims or others for being the Terrorists. But when you have one under your wings, you hide them and cheer them. Like Senator John Cornyn (R-Texas) who said that he would not be surprised to see the killings of judges to accelerate nor blamed the "domestic" terrorists for taking things on their own -- did you see any uproar about Senator John Cornyn's slur? Nothing.

It is OK to be a Terrorist as long as it is against abortion, gays, race, women, Muslims et al as long as it is not against X-ian's ideological beliefs.

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Arthur Finkelstein Gets To Marry!

This is supposed to be funny. But it is not. This smacked hypocrisy, selfish and greed on Arthur Finkelstein's part. Arthur Finkelstein is 59 years old Republican Political Consultant for Senator Jesse Helms (R-NC) for many years.

As you may know who Senator Jesse Helms is -- he is incredibly homophobe. He railed against the rights of gays and lesbians from day one. He even ranted that AIDS is a punishment sent to gays from God. Blah, blah, blah.

Arthur Finkelstein is Rohemosexual. Arthur worked closely with Jesse Helms for many years and even thought the Massachusetts Courts should not decide whether if gays can marry or not. And Arthur took his partner of 40 years to Massachusetts to marry so that he can be entitled to his rights and benefits, just like any heterosexual couples.

Apparently, he felt that he is entitled to that right but not everyone else. Only him and his partner, that is an exception. But not me or anyone else. Arthur does NOT give a damn if you or me gets to have the same rights and benefits, but he will take advantage of it for himself.

How dare of he to impose the roadblocks that gays has worked hard for years to break and suddenly, he basked himself with the right to marry whom we fought hard to get it for people like Arthur?!

Do I smell the stench of hypocrisy within the Republican Party? Of course.

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Thursday, April 07, 2005

Trying To Shoot Pope Down?

I saw the footage of Pope John Paul II's funeral. It mentioned that the Vatican is now enforcing the 24 or 48 hours of restricted airspace.

The Vatican requested the Italian Authorities to enforce the policy. The Italian Authorities agreed by dispatching several anti-aircraft batteries and a warship.

Who wanted to crash into the building that contains the corpse?

Or do they mean they wanted to shoot the Pope down should he ascend like Jesus?

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An Episode of Desperate Housewives

Because of Silas & Keith's insistence to get out of the apartment, I was unable to watch the episode of Desperate Housewives with Marlee Matlin guest starred as Alisa. Thank God for kaybee, she taped it.

I watched it tonight with Sarah. It presented the exact concerns that I always have with hearing persons. I'm glad that Desperate Housewives exploited the dark truth about how hearing peers often exploited deaf people's inability to hear things by talking offensive things about them in front of them. Even with Lynette lambasting Dennis for badmouthing his wife Alisa in front of others, it is *rare* that anyone else would have done that the way Lynette did.

I heard plenty of horror stories where the deaf-hearing relationships ended, Deaf people would be informed by hearing folks that they used to endure hearing their partners about how shitty s/he is but they never lambasted the "hearing partner" for badmouthing.

This always made me wonder about having a relationship with a hearing man? Would I be oblivious to these delicate, embarassing and degrading situations? The answer is obvious yes.

I already saw that in deaf/hearing relationships, especially with gays. Many hearing people thought it was "easy" to maintain a relationship with Deaf person because it is easy to deceive -- with the attitude that can go, "If he does not know about it, then do not bother to tell him -- what he does not know will not harm him at all."

To me, that is very audistic mentality. I find it very degrading, offensive and all that.

This reminded me of a tale that Helmuth once told me when he attended his friend's deaf friend's civil ceremony with his hearing partner who is a lawyer in San Francisco. This particular lawyer is a scumbag because he had the gall to pull his partner who was with his deaf friends during the reception and told him to start cleaning the kitchen while the hearie lawyer continued to mingle with his kind all night long. Helmuth and his deaf friends were enraged and nearly destroyed the reception. I would if I was there. Hell, I'm sure Beth, Rayni and I would probably firebomb the reception to smithereens, though.

However, I was disturbed when Alisa pulled her daughter to interpret for her as she lambasted Lynette for intruding in her marriage. Funny as it is, but it is ... unfortunately very common in Deaf Communities when things became desperate, Deaf people would go for desperate measures to use their hearing children to relay the messages to the appropriate persons. Hell, I did it several times with my hearing brother in order to get my message across to the hearing ones.

Loved the scene where the kid said, "She said ..." when Alisa said, "Bitch!" That was hysterical.

But the general idea of what happened on the show, especially with the interaction of deaf-hearing relationships, is often the cold reality of our lives when we attempted to forge a relationship with a hearing person.

Say, if I have DowntownLad all to myself, I'd still feel cautious and wary about it ... unless he assured me that he's all for me ... trillion of times. Maybe I'll believe it.

I know DowntownLad is going to roll his eyes at this comment above, though.

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Wanna Ride With Me?

After few hectic days of stress, frustration and irritation, I was bit relieved that I was left alone for some 48 hours. I felt much better.

Sarah offered me to come over and hang out at her home in Hell's Kitchen. I took her offer and alerted her that I'd be there shortly.

Little did I know that I'd have an interesting tale to tell.

When I got off from the subway at 50 Street and Broadway, I strolled onto 51 Street heading westward to 11 Avenue. When I reached 8th Avenue, I saw the horse carriage rolling onto 51 Street which is normal because there is a stable on 52 Street and West Side Highway. These horse carriages tend to take the passengers around Midtown and when they're done, they roll down to their stables for the night.

I did not smile, frown or anything like that -- just stoic. Remember, being stoic is bliss.

I saw the horse pulling up a little at the red light. The hispanic guy waved and smiled at me, I did not reciprocate. He then tried to shout something. I cordially told him that I do not hear.

He immediately, "You deaf? My brother deaf. I know signs."

I smiled a little and nodded as in "o-kay, what next?"

He motioned me to join the carriage. I shook my head and said, "No cash on me." He shrugged and said, "C'mon and we talk."

I attempted to hop in the back of the carriage, he waved me to move in front so we can talk. He's nice fellow. He asked me if I wanted him to take me around few blocks. I nodded.

We did just that. He dropped me off on 51 Street and 11 Avenue on his way to the stables as I headed off to Sarah's place for the night. The fellow, Miguel, is cool.

Only in New York, my children, only in New York!

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Hurry, Yellowstone, hurry!!

640,000 years ago, Yellowstone erupted and the rocks landed as far as St. Louis. I visited Yellowstone National Park in the summer of 1997. It was beautiful park. I enjoyed staying at West Yellowstone, Montana and Jackson Hole, Wyoming.

It is slated to erupt again. Yellowstone is not a simply place to have a hot bath -- it is a massive, dormant volcano -- even bigger than Mt. Rainier! There are posters and pictures posted by the boardwalk, warning people NOT to step in the boiling geysers because the skins will fall off.

When I drove eastward to Cody from Yellowstone, the drive down the massive mountain was absolutely stunning. I even stopped by the gas station to fill the tank. I turned my back to gaze upon the road that I drove few minutes earlier. I was astonished by its massive size. Yellowstone National Park sits on the top of the mountain. It is a sleeping giant waiting to erupt once again.

And when it does, it shall overwhelm Montana, Wyoming, Idaho, Utah, Nevada, Texas, Nebraska, South Dakota, North Dakota, Kansas, Arizona, New Mexico, Oklahoma, Colorado and the parts of Missouri, Iowa, Arkansas and Minnesota -- the hotbed of Republicans, Conservatives and X-ians. Surely, it will be delicious to witness the death of filthy Republicans, dirty Conservatives and X-ian pigs. Of course, Ann Coulter would still blame the Liberals for causing the dormant volcano to erupt in the first place.

Enjoy the interactive of that website.

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Arclight, Madelyne & Commander Desslok

IN The Uncanny X-Men comic books, one villain by the name of Riptide was stunned to see the X-Men attacking his comrades, the Marauders. He said, "Are they supposed to be croaked a while ago?!"

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ducked low when a sharp object flew few inches above her head, Arclight shot back at her teammate, Riptide: "Big deal, Riptide -- so do you!"

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Another episode in the same book, Madelyne stood before a gravestone. Her face seared with anger. She said in a low voice, "It is your fault, Jean. Why can't you stay dead the whole time?" Madelyne then used her telekinesis to blow the gravestone apart as an elderly couple came in the picture and said, "Jean, are you alive?"

Madelyne then turned on the elderly couple and said, "Curse ye both! I'm not your precious daughter! As for this --"

Madelyne released a scorching fire to overwhelm the elderly couple's body as their skins dissolved as they screamed in pain and anguish -- "this is what you get for bringing the withc in this world. And this is but a foretaste of what I meant to do to her!"

* * *

This was taken on a cartoon while I was a kid. My sister, Lily, had the tapes of Japanimation films. Commander Desslok was returning home to his world, Gamilon. As his massive armanda approached the green world, he smiled because he missed his homeworld. His people watched with glee and excitement of arriving home after a long voyage in the deep space. Suddenly, Commander Desslok saw the faint light and was puzzled by that and ordered his soldiers to see what it is -- it was filled with many ships, equipments and people of unknown origins, trying to claim Desslok's homeworld.

Desslok was bewildered, horrified and upset by the arrogant invasion of Gamilon, as he ordered his ships to set and get ready on his command. Desslok's ships continued to descend into Gamilon at high speed as the ships simultaneously fired thousands of laser rays on the unknown folks.

The war has began without anyone saying a word -- The people in Commander Desslok's ships were unified with Commander Desslok as they overwhelmed the invaders with fast and brutal attack. Unfortunately, Gamilon has been always a weak planet with ancient surface that is sensitive to the damages as many invaders' ships, equipments and stuff were obliterated and crashed on the surface level incessantly.

Suddenly, the whole planet fell apart and blew up.

I always liked Commander Desslok's attitude -- "It is mine by our birthright -- if I can't have it, nobody will!"

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Montel Did It Again

Yesterday, I rolled my eyes when Montel introduced a guy named Dustin who had a cochlear implant. That guy, Dustin, hated his cochlear implant because it is hideous and makes him the target of "frankenstein" at his "regular" school by whom? Hearing peers.

His mother asked Montel for help. Montel enlisted Heather Whitestone, the former Miss Deaf America who often sprayed the saliva on people's face with her attempts to speak.

Heather informed Dustin that he is one of first deaf people to get the "smaller" and "almost un-detectable implant so that he won't be ridiculed by his peers.

His mother sobbed. Dustin was bit lost, and at his age of 11, he just played along with the melodrama.

I cringed.

Montel will *never* have a show that will present us in different light. He is all for the genocide of Deaf people.

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Leave Coach Kim Mulkey-Robertson Alone!

Category: Sports

Baylor women's basketball team won the national championship, they came from behind to shock Louisiana State and dominated Michigan State to complete the season at 33-3.

Baylor's Head Coach Kim Mulkey-Robertson produced 131-38 record while at Baylor in five seasons. Prior to her arrival, Baylor went 7-20. Like I said earlier, she is a fierce competitor. She steered Louisiana Tech to the national championship in '82 as a point guard. And now as the Coach, she is the first woman to win the national championship as a player and a coach.

Kim is not ugly bitch. Kim is stunning, gorgeous and fierce.

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Got Mulk?

I am appalled that many people googled Kim Mulkey-Robertson with words like "nude", "sex", "lesbian", "without clothes" and they came to my blogsite! According to my site meter, in the last 100 touches, 54 has been directed to my blogsite based on Kim Mulkey-Robertson with words like sex, lesbian, tits, nude et al. Hey, grow up, perverts. Totally tasteless.

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Confidential to Kurzetard

Kurzetard, you kept on emailing me asking for information about who is responsible for AntiAmyKurz's blogsite. I repeatedly told you that I am not part of it. I just thought it was funny blogsite and linked to it. You kept on insisting that I am part of it.

Utterly ridiculous. I do not know the authors, I do not know the password to get on the blogsite. Kurzetard, you were keen on pinning this on me, which is fine with me. That is so typical of you.

Yes, you wrote that you got a "mild brain damage" from carbon monoxide poisoning -- since you're now in Tampa area near Pinellas Park, are you sure you are not Terri Schiavo? Sorry, cannot resist that line.

Your attempts to imitate Mike Rogers' antics by getting in touch with the bosses of people whom you hated the most is appalling but again, I laughed at this. Because it does *not* work like that. Which is why I coined the term in the first place: Kurzetard. Because you're definitely a retard to start with.

Quit harassing me via the emails. I care less if you live, die or even maimed by a local alligator!

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Me No Like People

Last night at The Cock with Silas & Keith, I was waiting in the line to piss -- so bad. One guy tried to say something about the poster on the wall which I did not give a fuck. I grimaced and was getting impatient as he started to talk with me using his voice. I gave him the ugly look and shrugged him off as if I'm not interested (he's kinda hot) mainly because I had to urinate so bad.

He noticed that I said something in ASL. He then quickly said, "You deaf?" in ASL. Now I'm piqued with curiosity and full of interests. Hell, my bladder can wait for few seconds, I guess?

Suddenly, the guy that was using the stall came out, indicated that it is my turn. I smiled and told him that he's cute and I got to piss so bad. He said, "You're cute! Find me over there."

Well, I never found him anywhere else afterwards.

Must be one of these phony guys who said, "You're cute!" but the cold reality is that I probably am not.

Ahh. Which brings me to the title above. I just cannot enjoy people these days. Little things that they do pissed me off. Confused me. Irritated me. I have the boundary lines. Lately, I noticed that some people has been antagonizing my limits.

Whether if I am "Deaf Gay Militant Terrorist", people still are entitled with respect and dignity -- it required both sides from A to B *and* B to A. I think, living in New York for the last two years, has enabled me to mature a little and be tolerant of hearing people's quirks at times. I may act like I condemned hearing people, I may sound like I advocate the wild behavior of Deaf men in bars/club settings, but no, the cold reality is that I do not do that.

Lately, I enjoyed being alone because I am tired of defending myself to people who has done nothing good to me. There is a park down the street. I am beginning to notice that I enjoyed sitting on a park bench and watching people go by. Watching birds flying above the Hudson River. At this pace, I feel I am at peace. I do not have to defend myself, judge others and engage in these silly, blistering comments with each other. I do not have to sell, flirt, be funny, be irritated or anything like that at all. Being stoic at times is bliss.

R-

Monday, April 04, 2005

A Mind To Think

1. If you met a guy who did a lot of modelling shoot, it is okay to fuck him by bareback?

A. Yes, he is a Model. He has to be clean, are you that dumb?
B. Well, if he is cute, I'll bareback him one way or other.
C. No, condom or nothing.

2. If you met a guy named Asi in one of the gay.com chatrooms and shortly, you guys liked each other. What's more, he is a Magician! He is hot! They proceed to do the barebacking scene once again, was this smart move?

A. Yes, very smart move! Gay.com chat rooms are conservative place to get a quick, wet, sloppy fuck.
B. Well, it depends on how he talks to me about it.
C. No, condom or nothing else.

3. If you found out that your friend fucked Asi and a model by barebacking, you tell him that it's stupid -- but he told you not to worry because both guys (Asi and the Model) does not like you at all?

A. I should care whether if his friends like me or not.
B. I don't care about their opinions but I care about how you do it.
C. Not my business, let them do it and get it!

This is what happened few nights ago when I got in an argument with a friend of mine who barebacked lately. Totally tasteless of him to claim that Asi and the Model did not like me at all. Totally irrelevant, though. Did I do the right thing to scold this young kid who does this?

R-

P.S. Three of us already got out of the apartment with no problems -- no need to worry that we were stucked all night long. We managed it all right. Eat my shit, please.

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Two Hours Passed

Two hours passed by, we are still stuck inside the apartment -- the lock is damaged. We cannot get it to unlock. Keith is irritating because he is having a bad case of hungover and wants to eat. Silas is ... just Silas.

AS for me, I'm sick of this.

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The Weekend Is Nothing But Crazy

Silas and Keith arrived. We rummaged around the city last night, blitzed Chelsea, West Village and the small portion of East Village before crawling back home at 6:15 AM this morning.

It was good to see them once again. We even went to GYM Sportsbar, a new gay sports bar on 8 Avenue between 18 and 19 Streets. It even has ridiculous posters to advertise themselves as the one and only gay sports bar in New York. While they may claim this as a fact, I think looking at two posters will indicate whether if they try to portray the sports bar as "a serious fan of sports bar" or "a serious fan of cruising spot". Check this and this.

While at that bar, Keith noticed something interesting, "Look around. Tell me what one thing you see that nearly *all* gay guys trying to act like they are 'athletic'? You only have to look at their yellow bracelets!"

He was referring to the Lance Armstrong's yellow thing. I turned to look around -- true biz -- everyone was wearing it. Even worse, we saw one latino guy wearing TWO yellow bracelets, one for each wrist. Let's be serious. That was over the board.

Silas was taking a pee break as Keith and I noticed something funny. We slowly turned to look at each other before we broke out in heavy snickers. There were about 8 or 10 TV sets all over the place. Two sets were focused on the cheerleading competition on ESPN, I believe. Some people were quite serious in watching it. So typical of gay men, eh?

I had a good time, man. We dined at Better Burger and cracked joke after joke all day long. Even at the gay bar, The Urge, they got bowls of fishes suspended in the air by a string and also instill the bulbs to lighten the bar. Silas, being tall, nearly knocked one off the air. It was such a frightening moment but so funny. I swear that this particular fish never had a great ride since that flap.

Now we are home, stuck. How? We got locked in. We are struggling to get out of our apartment but the lock seemed to be damaged and locked us in. It'll take a while for us to break out and head out.

But do not forget to tune in for an episode of Desperate Housewives tonight to see the appearance of Marlee Matlin who will portray a new housewife moving in the Wisteria Lane, I believe.

After that, Keith, Silas and I probably will sneak to The Rambles at The Park. Wish us luck if we can survive another day of drama.

Cheers,

R-

Friday, April 01, 2005

Want Some Pat Salad?

I'm SO glad it happened to Pat Buchanan, a Republican conservative pig.

Pat Buchanan was the one who criticized Gallaudet University students for staging a Deaf President Now Movement in 1988. He once commented, "If they can run the university, then let's put the retard in the charge of retards school" in late 1980s. It was offensive and ignorant of Pat Buchanan.

He wrote an article which I revisited recently in "Gallaudet In The News, Special Protest Issue, March 6-13, 1988". Check page 274, titled "When tantrums prevail" by Patrick Buchanan.

Here are few comments that he balked at Gallaudet students for taking the ownership of the university.

"Is this what 'civil rights' has come to mean? Not equality of opportunity for deaf people to compete, but mandated job quotas and set-asides! If you lose in a fair competition, raise hell until the ruling authorities reverse the results; then, demand amnesty. Is that the message? So it would seem."

From all appearances, Ms. Zinser was a dedicated, qualified educator, who won her post fair and square; yet, for a week she was treated like Bull Conner at Gallaudet; almost no one rose to her defense. Will someone explain why running this woman off campu, and out of town, is a victory for "civil rights"?

"Deaf Community's Sense of Oppression Led to Furor at Gallaudet University," said The Post, in another headline. Oppression? By whom?"

"Neither the interests of Black America nor of deaf people were served by last week's victories. What they learned is that, if you are black or handicapped, you are exempt from standards applied to other people. If you are black or deaf in the academic community, you can be sheltered from the consequences of your own misconduct. The moral timidity of the academic community that so turned Middle America against it in the 60s, was on display, once again, last week. Like the Bourbons of old, they appear to have learned nothing in 20 years."


And today, he went to Western Michigan University to give a speech. Boom! Pat, you deserved it, ignorant prick.

Got Paged By Silas

He missed the flight. That is so him, is it?

Update: Silas responded with a resoundingly "PFFFT" when I told him that I blogged he missed the flight. Then I dared him to page me by his pager over the sky towards to New York like I did when I flew from DC to Tucson in 2001-2002. I heard that it is illegal to use pagers while the planes are in the sky? True or false?

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This Gives A New Meaning To Religious Nuts

First, we endured the drama of Terri Schiavo. Now, she is done killed for. I thought we are at peace. No, we have to endure with the live reports of impotent, un-fuckable being in Pope John Paul II. Just drop dead already. If I walked across the street and a car hits me dead. Would I have the whole world's attention? No, that is not fair. I'm more important than that girl who gurgled "nnnnnnhhhh" all the time.

Now on other subject, eliminating deaf people who are not "deaf enough" is justified at times considering the fact that there are people who do this as well. Remember Heather Whitestone who sprayed on people's face with her speaking skills, "I A M Y O U R F R I E N D !", when she won the crown at Miss America Pageant -- people descended to Gallaudet (I was there) and asked the students what they thought of Heather? People said, "Oh, who is she? She's not deaf enough." Suddenly, all hell broke loose. The media came to Gallaudet. Heather immediately visited Gallaudet. I stood few feet away from Heather who can sign fairly well. I am certain sure she is very nice woman, but I think I'd make a better queen than her, though. Hell, many of my Washingtonian friends joked that I am the Empress, not a cheap queen wannabe.

Anyway enjoy the article -- if they can do this, so can we. We reserve the right to say that s/he/it is not deaf enough. In fact, I did it many times. Because I have the right to decide whether if you are Deaf or not.

Few hours to pick up my Deaf friends. Nice, nice.

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Silas & Keith

Tonight, I will travel to JFK Airport to meet and integrate Silas into the world's greatest city. On the way to my place, we will stop by Chinatown to pick Keith up.

I'm thrilled -- it is about time that I get to be stimulated by my peers. I'm kinda tired of dealing with hearies, deaf women and many unintelligent deaf gays here in the city.

New York is the greatest when it comes to entertainment. There is always something to do. But does it has a great community for deaf gays? Definitely not. Many of them are ... how do I explain it? Suffice to say, I *know* Silas and Keith will snicker and grimace at the sight of these folks at times.

Thank God it's Friday.

Oh, by the way, it'd be funny if Pope John Paul II died on Fools' Day.

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I Hate Lance Armstrong

I may be the only person in this country that wanted Lance Armstrong to lose the Tour de France. I absolutely find him to be disgusting, condescending and arrogant prick. He claimed that it was a "miracle" that he survived Testicular Cancer. It was offensive to Jake Temby, a friend of mine who died of Testicular Cancer three years ago. Lance had the money to get the best care, Jake did not. Case closed. In this country, money is the option to get the best care for yourself. If you do not, good riddance.

When Lance has that thing "yellow bracelet" that goes out to fundraise for "the research on Testicular Cancer", I refused to do a thing with it. I'm sure the monies funnelled its way to Lance's accounts. Too bad, there are many people who thought he was American hero.

He is not. He is just a Texan prick.

I always suspected that he was on steroids. Then the rumors in Europe began to circulate that Lance, indeed, does the steroids. He denied with a passion. He was lucky to be American because the rumor originated in France where there are lots of anti-French folks in America who disregarded the French as crybabies.

Now with this out, this time, the American is *claiming*, not French, that yes, Lance does it. I'm not surprised.

I hope Lance dies poor.

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Tucker Carlson

Tucker Carlson has a face that I could date. But his opinions, at times, are ludicrous. It makes my sex drive go down so fast.

I heard that PBS hired Tucker Carlson as a way to appease the conservatives who bashed on PBS for years. I checked his stuff on PBS.org.

When I read some of his comments on various things, well ... it is 5 AM now. I'm too tired to spew opinions about them. I fell asleep at 9 PM and woke up about 30 minutes ago.

Share your opinion after reading Tucker Carlson's comments.

What do I think of it? That is so Tucker.

Speaking of Tucker, I'm stunned that he once wrote stuff for Arkansas Democrat-Gazette -- how can Chlms tolerate this prick? And he even has -- get this -- *four* kids!

America is going down the toilet -- faster than I expected, I'm telling you.

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Thursday, March 31, 2005

Hail To The Friar Ridor!

Your patience paid off. Here it is. Fire away with the humiliating comments, readers.

Take your best shot at me.

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Miserable One

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Yeah, yeah, I do have that spot!


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The best defense is the killer offense!


Friar R-

WTF?

Am I the only one who thinks this is silly?

Update: They had a countdown with a funny image of ASL saying "Wow" -- turns out that the CSD was announcing something. Screw 'em.

R-

This Is Too Delicious To Pass

Thanks to the American Civil Liberties Union for defending this boy.

Wonder if McCock, TPC, Kurzetard, Republicans, Conservatives and X-ians has to say about this?

They probably will say, "These filthy ACLU has no place in school! The kid should be spanked!"

These same pricks always blamed the ACLU in almost everything else. But the purpose of the ACLU is to uphold the rule of law, whether if you LIKE it or not.

Thanks to Mr. Hell's Kitchen for the information.

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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Who's Rooting For Baylor Bears?

Category: Sports

Baylor Bears made it! Can you believe this?! A baptist school in Waco, Texas made it to the Final Four! No, I'm not talking about Men's Basketball team -- they are ... pigs.

Coach Kim Mulkey-Robertson did an outstanding job in a short tenure at Baylor, taking Baylor from the bottom of Big 12 Conference into the Nation's Prestigious Final Four in Indianapolis!

Kim Mulkey-Robertson was a 5'3 point guard for Louisiana Tech, I never saw her play but I saw the old tapes. She is fiercely competitive person. When Louisiana Tech's Head Coach Leon Barmore retired, Louisiana Tech wanted Kim Mulkey-Robertson -- but due to some negotiations, Kim went to Baylor.

Last year, her team was robbed by Tennessee Lady Volunteers on bad call with 0.2 second left that enabled UT to hit two free throws to win the game in the Sweet Sixteen appearance.

Now this year, Baylor marched straight to the Final Four and is going to play Louisiana State Tigers. I'm bit torn about it. I want Pokey to win. I want Kim to win. But either of them *must* beat Tennessee in the Finals. It would be sweet to see Baylor playing Tennessee in the National Championship Game and rob Tennessee of its trophy to serve the vengeance for last year's abysmal end.

Virginia Cavaliers had few problems in the past to a point where some players transferred out. Two former UVA players are now in the Final Four -- Chelsea Whitaker, the starting point guard for Baylor Bears and Alisa Wulff for Michigan State. Of course, I'm happy for the players, sad for my team. But Virginia Cavaliers will be back to the national spotlight.

But for now, I'm rooting for Baylor, Michigan State and Louisiana State to win it -- do not allow Tennessee to win at all. I'm so glad that Connecticut bowed out. Next is Tennessee. This weekend should be full of soap opera in Indianapolis.

R-

Gas Up People!

Guestblogger: McFly

WHERE TO BUY YOUR GAS,
THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT TO KNOW.


READ ON--

Why didn't George W. think of this?

Gas rationing in the 80's worked even though we grumbled about it.

It might even be good for us!

The Saudis are boycotting American goods.

We should return the favor.

An interesting thought it to boycott their GAS.

Every time you fill up the car, you can avoid putting more money into the coffers of Saudi Arabia. Just buy from gas companies that don't import their oil from the Saudis.

Nothing is more frustrating than the feeling that every time I fill-up the tank, I am sending my money to people who are trying to kill me, my family, and my friends.

I thought it might be interesting for you to know which oil companies are the best to buy gas from and which major companies import Middle Eastern oil:


Shell............................. 205,742,000 barrels
Chevron/Texaco.................... 144,332,000 barrels
Exxon /Mobil...................... 130,082,000 barrels
Marathon/Speedway................. 117,740,000 barrels
Amoco.............................. 62,231,000 barrels

If you do the math at $30/barrel, these imports amount to over $18 BILLION!

Here are some large companies that do not import Middle Eastern oil:

Citgo.......................0 barrels
Sunoco......................0 barrels
Conoco......................0 barrels
Sinclair....................0 barrels
BP/Phillips.................0 barrels
Hess........................0 barrels
ARC0........................0 barrels

All of this information is available from the Department of Energy and each is required to state where they get their oil and how much they are importing.

But to have an impact, we need to reach literally millions of gas buyers.

It's really simple, though. Spread the words.

Me No No Like Hypocrites, You Know That?

Hypocrisy is much worse than neutrality, in my opinion.

When the Boy Scouts of America (BSA) won the right to ban gays from participating in the scouting activities. Many X-ians and Conservatives defended them. When the legal magazine wrote an article criticizing the BSA of discrimination, Douglas Smith defended the BSA's policy of excluding gays and atheists.

Douglas Smith was the BSA's National Program Director prior to the arrest. Why was he arrested? Soliciting for child pornography. Which worse is it? Excluding gays and atheists? Keeping pedophiles? Apparently, to the BSA, X-ians and Conservatives, better to keep pedophiles in the loop. At least, they can play around.

Bet you a dollar or two that the X-ians, conservatives and the folks at the BSA will scramble around to insist that Douglas fell from the Grace.

When I was 13, I was excited to join the BSA. I joined for few months. Then quitted. I hated it. I thought it was one of the most tackiest things to do. Don't frown on the quitters, my friends. There are advertisements in the subway trains that says, "We love the quitters!"

You know who John McCusker is? He was the 31 years old dude who was denied of funeral at San Diego's Catholic Churches. The autopsy indicated that he died of ... get this ... asphyxiation, heart failure and drug overdose. I wonder where did he die? IN bed? Lots of people said that he is a good man. But asphyxiation and drug overdose indicated something bad -- it was mentioned that he used oxycodone and amphetamines. Sigh.

More and more cases are being reported about HIV 2.0 in New York, Connecticut and California. Thanks a lot, fags. All the more reasons for me not to donate a cent to the organizations. If they want it, go ahead. Get it. I'll stick with the pediatric ones, that is, when I have some money left.

I hate hypocrites. But again, I'm a hypocrite. I am supposed to hate hearies but I still kiss, hug and fuck them occasionally. Oh, well. C'est la vie. Me do do nothing. Know the slogan, "Can't live with them, can't live without them."

Go figure.

R-

A Delay for Friar Ridor

kaybee came to my place last night and her first comments on seeing my hairdo was: "Man, you are Friar Ridor!"

I grimaced. We dined a little, then talked. She took the pictures of my headshot -- tomorrow (Thursday), she will return to my place with USB Cord and show the world of my fucked-up hairdo.

Perlis, kaybee and S already saw it. It is matter of time before everyone else on the planet know it.

Happy, guys?

Maybe a fucked-up hairdo makes me bitter, like someone else said.

R-

P.S. The struggles against the idiots (i.e. Michael Demmons, ND30 et al) made me remember of an entry I wrote last year in March. I found the link. It makes me smile -- I know many Deafies and DowntownLad will chuckle at this -- but it probably will make the hearies frown as Hell.

Things That Makes You Sigh, Grimace and Snicker!

Cochran Is Dead! According to CNN, Johnnie Cochran is dead at 67 in a hospice due to the neurological problems. I was not aware that he was in a hospice? Either way, Cochran may be the nation's famous African-American lawyer. It is easy to recognize him anywhere. I think he is bold in what he does, not many old boys' groups liked him.

Another Hearie Dead: And they say that I'm bitter. Check this out.

From DowntownLad: DowntownLad, a charming fella in Manhattan pointed me to this particular blog which led me to ... Terri Schiavo's blog! Priceless! Hysterical! Now I know the Golden Doors in Heavens are permanently closed on me. Which is fine 'cuz do you think I want to be hearie up there?

Update: I found this community which is devoted to the killing of Terri Schiavo. Hysterical.

Billy is now Cliff: Billy of now-defunct Wet Dreaming is now Cliff Rhodes. That is a major turnoff. I used to enjoy his blogsite because he seemed to have a lot of experiences -- owned a home, used to run a gay bar, has a long-term relationship, was married and also had a child. He is in his 40s, has a beautiful daughter and has a great relationship. Or so I thought. He is now a porn star. Some people cheered him on. I saw the gallery pics. It is pretty hot ... and tacky. I mean, I really feel sorry for his daughter when she grew up and found out that her pop is a gay porn star. What kind of father is he? I do not know. Don't ask me, I'm pretty clueless -- it won't surprise me that some hearie gay elitistic bloggers will holler and cheer him on -- sometimes I wonder if being gay revolves around sex all the time? Back to his role as Papa, that is if he has a daughter which he claimed to ...

It reminds me of an article in The Onion where the teenager was going to jerk off until he realized that the couch is familiar -- and suddenly, it was filmed in his home -- and he realized that the fucker and fuckee are his parents. one day, it probably will happen to his daughter ... that is if he has one.

R-

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

What Do I Mean By Hearie Fag Elitists?

When I cringe at the problems in different sections of life, I try to keep an open mind that there is more to life than just that.

It is interesting to note that there is a clique among the hearie gay elitists in every community -- including the blogosphere. Many would deny that it is true. In fact, it is true.

When Michael Demmons of FagOrbit copied and pasted the email from a guy who cannot spell very well and taunted this guy of his misspellings, he also attacked Mike Rogers of blogACTIVE.com for crushing FagPatriot's voice. Well, you know the quote: People who lives in glass house should not throw stones. One person should not ridicule at an unfortunate person who cannot spell and advocate FagPatriot.

When I blasted him for that, his defense was that I'm a moron and that he knew some "sign language" -- yeah, right, like my ass knew how to sign! Did you notice that many hearies always claim that they knew a sign but when they do it, we rolled our eyes. One word sets off in our minds but we do not say it in front of 'em: Pathetic.

When I read BoiFromTroy's entry a LONG time ago, he hinted that he made a move on a teenager. Many of his friends hollered and cheered him on. I was the only person who told him that he is a molester. He is 29, according to his site, for the last two years. Nobody defended me. In fact, I was largely ignored or blasted. Later, BoiFromTroy altered his entry that he did not go "over the line". And he was never ostracized by his peers, eh? He is one of these folks who thinks they are God's gift to the society.

When I objected to FagPatriot's lies, folks either insulted me, ignored me and cheered on FagPatriot to continue his lies. It is appalling. FagPatriot also attacked others but hide behind the pseudo-name -- which I just learned is Bruce Carroll of Alexandria, Virginia -- when I pointed out that he shouldn't attack others while he remains silent about what the Bush Administration did, I was largely ostracized! Elitism.

Outside of the blogosphere, it is very common that hearing gay men tends to flirt deaf gay men on a superficial level in order to get what they wanted -- but when they are done, they tend to dump the other side and clamor with their group. It is very normal and common, but do I have to tolerate that? Fuck, no. I can make fun of 'em if I want to.

Look at ChristianGrantham.com -- it is a blog, right? And he called it an "OutletRadio.com" -- why a radio? To me, it is just my feelings, it sends a message that it is for hearing people only. Deaf people need not apply. That is the attitude of theirs. Elitism.

People out there thought they were cordial until I told them that it was offensive, they reacted that I was offensive, that they have deaf friends who never complained (yeah, right!) and that they knew sign language (yeah, right!). These excuses are very common among the hearies gay elitists who tried to shield each other and deny that they are racists, audists and offensive at times.

North Dallas Thirty, Lloydletta, ChristianGrantham, and FagOrbit are still on the FagPatriot/Rogers subject, they need to get a life. It is amusing that they claimed that I'm bitter because I'm Deaf. They said it because they wanted to feel superior above the bitter people. IN fact, they are the ones who are bitter queens. They are still whining and crying about FagPatriot's sudden crush. I embrace Deaf identity, I always am willing to hang out with hearing friends but there are at times that I *must* stand up for my dignity and respect. Nobody will trample on it and get away with it!

R-

Queen vs. Queen

Guestblogger: McFly

Got this from gawker.com:

Boy George is still going after Elton John for his duet with Eminem. “He said doing it was a big political gesture. It wasn't,” George told the London Mirror. “I said it was just a desperate bid to be trendy. And that’s why he is so [bleeped] off. His boyfriend chased me into the toilets, hammered on the door and started yelling about all the good things Elton does for the gay community. Yeah, I said, well, that wasn't one of them, was it?”

Some Thoughts

Remember Paul Hatcher, the Head Coach at Robert E. Lee High School not far from my alma mater that won 2nd consecutive state AA Championship in Boys Basketball? Well, there is an article about Paul Hatcher and VSDB!

Speaking of VSDB's Athletic Director, Wayne Hite is an intriguing character. He used to referee for our girls and boys basketball teams for more than 30 years. He also played for Lee High against VSDB when he was in high school, I believe.

However, when the Athletic Director at VSDB became available. No Deaf person wanted to apply for this, considering the fact that vSDB's future is shaky, thanks to the Republicans, X-ians and Conservatives' manipulations of Virginia budgets for years.

Wayne Hite could not bear to see VSDB's sports to fall through so he volunteered to be the Athletic Director. And ever since, he managed to do very well. He scheduled stronger teams to prepare for VSDB and it helped as VSDB Boys Basketball to win 2nd place last year in Mason-Dixon Tournament, Girls Volleyball winning the Championship last year in Mason-Dixon Tournament and this year, the Girls Basketball team finished 6th Place, the best output in a long time.

I vividly remembered my first turnover as a basketball player when I got distracted by my coach waving at me and another teammate pushed me, I stepped and travelled! Wayne Hite whistled me for travelling during the basketball game in front of friends, teachers and fans at Llewellyn Gym. I was traumatized with the fact that I only entered the game then about 15 seconds later, I committed my first turnover. Sometimes in my dreams, when I get embarrassed, the dreams immediately go back to the travelling violation! Thanks a lot, Wayne.

On another subject, there is so much commotion on gay bloggers about FagPatriot's "silence" by Mike Rogers who threatened to retaliate for branding Mikie Rogers as "Gay Terrorists" along with John Aravosis. Apparently, FagPatriot wrote something to an extent, encouraging people to do "something" about them. That's why Mike felt threatened by that. Fatal mistake, FagPatriot.

I'm amused by the whole scenario because it is much ado about nothing. I also found out that FagPatriot's real name is none other than Bruce Carroll. Saw his picture. He's gross. There is no way in Heavens or Hell that I want to stalk him -- he's so ... ew! Yeah, he once commented on a blogsite that he got a restraining order against me considering the fact that I never knew his real name and he does not know mine. A typical pathological liar -- which is very common among the Roehmosexuals.

As I read Christian Grantham, GayOrbit, NorthDallasThirty, FagPatriot, Mike Rogers and few others ended up fighting against each other. All are hearing queens to start with. It prompted me to search for a comic book of more than 12 years ago.

Mordru, as you know, is my favorite character, comic book or not, of all times. He is bad-ass character. IN one issue, he was sitting on the throne, listening to the battles that he waged against the heroes. He commented, "Yes, yes, yes! Such a joy it is to hear their desperation! How sweet the sound of once arrogant voices turned to anguish."

Indeed.

R-

Monday, March 28, 2005

Rainy Days Make You Ponder About Life

It is true. When it rained all day, it gives me the opportunity to stare and wonder about things in life. You cannot change things in the past, so better to use it in the present or future.

Among few things to utter today:

Burger King: Hadn't seen one in New York. Don't know where they are, do not care much for it. But I know there is one just off from Gallaudet in the District. I saw the commercial this morning that they just unveiled the whoopiest breakfast sandwich -- 730 calories with 47 grams of fat! It has rectangular sandwich with sesame seeds on it, along with three scrambled eggs, 6 bacons, two sausage patties and two slices of cheese. EW! Maybe Gallaudet students will gain this time around. But again, not all Gallaudet students are morning persons!

Smurfs? This morning, I watched The Smurfs, remember the tiny blue people. They lived in a community that has one or two female smurfs and the rest are males. Does it sounds like Chelsea? The way they decorated their community, they sounded so ... gay.

Gang signs: Yesterday, on the way back home from Chelsea, I walked past a group of young boys who were saying good byes to each other, they attempted to do the gang sign to bid them farewell. It was hysterical to see how they tried to sign. I wish I could tape it. I could not help but grimace until I passed them by and when I'm far away from them, I snickered so loudly. People around me may think I was insane.

Ever Seen 'Em? Living in New York means that you will have to contend with pigeons frequently, right? One guy on the local news commented that we never saw the baby pigeons, do we? Indeed. Where are they?

Speaking of birds: Ever seen a bird having a heart attack in the mid-air and fall down on the ground. Never did. Why?

Life is mysterious. It's fun that way.

Oh, by the way, kaybee will come over tomorrow to take a picture of my head. I'm taking a risk of losing a cute guy like DowntownLad, really.

Cheers,

R-

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Think About It

You know the volatile issue with almost everyone else when President Clinton attempted to issue an executive order to overturn the ban on gays and lesbians from serving in the military during the first 60 days of his first term, I believe. Republicans, Conservatives, Pentagon officials and X-ians objected loudly for days.

Many said they cannot stand gays, they do not want to shower with gays. Blah, blah and blah. Clinton was pretty much cornered by this and Democrats told him that his decision to rush the change damaged his relationship with the Pentagon officials. How to solve? By having a compromise called, "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" policy that was adopted by Pentagon.

My good friend, Helmuth Boy, had a boyfriend in the US Marines. He was pretty open. I was horrified when he kissed Helmuth in front of his Marine buddies. But they kept his secret. Helmuth Boy said that he played with his boyfriend at the Marine barracks, always verging on a risk. It was funny, though.

Basically, the main reason President Clinton did attempt to issue an executive order was to fulfill his promises he made during the campaigns to stop discrimination on gays and lesbians who served well for the US Armed Forces. Many were dishonorable discharge which means they cannot get a decent job with the government. Don't tell me that they can find a decent job somewhere else. I know because my brother was dishonorable discharged from the Navy, not because of this policy but because he KO'ed the drill sargeant who berated him. He had a hard time to get a job for a long time before he finally got one, like 4 or 5 years later. Was it right? Of course not.

Anyway, it was much melodramatic in Washington (I know because I was there!) that Clinton had to make a compromise to appease both sides.

Now, many gay Republicans and gay conservatives taunted Clinton for starting it. It is ridiculous. They completely exonerated Republicans and conservatives who objected to this and held Clinton responsible for the DADT policy.

Tonight, I watched the rerun of famous show called M*A*S*H which ran from 1970 to 1981, won many acclaimed awards and was very popular with the viewers. In fact, when it aired its last show, the nielsen confirmed that it was the highest rating ever in the history of television. It even beat Super Bowl games, Seinfeld, et al.

But many Deafies did not care much for them because they were never captioned until now. Go figure.

But anyway, when I stared at that show, I thought it was ironic that in that show, everyone accepted Maxwell Q. Klinger's sexuality and he did his job. He was a drag queen ... always dressed as woman all the time but nobody cared.

Yet, the right-wing nuts goes bazooka in '92 over Clinton trying to override the ban with an executive order? These folks need to watch the reruns of M*A*S*H all over again.

R-

Females Oppressing Females

Guestblogger: McFly

There is a strange phenomenon that has eluded from our microscope, female oppression of other females. Despite the women’s civil rights movement, women have not made strides in the encouragement and advancement of each other. Especially Deaf women-the worse lot. If anything, it is a well hidden and subtle form of abuse. Oppression begets oppression.

As long as this continues not to be dissected and discussed out in the open, each and every one of us is capable of this kind of abuse on our female counterparts. Females are raised in this society and unconsciously taught to nurture and care for men, thus neglecting the nurture of the same gender. Our media, role models and daily sublimal messages are bombarded with automatically honoring the male gender first and foremost.

Female bosses *tend* to impose a tougher standard on their female subordinates. What are the signs and behavior? What does it look like? For an example, during staff meetings the female manager has more eye contact with the males. Female managers practice a different set of behavior norms/rules and standards for females subordinates compared to male subordinates. Female managers verbally abusing female subordinates more than the male subordinates. My favorite bosses/managers over the years were the male ones. Sad to say, my most hated ones were the females. Female Deaf managers have many moons to go before improvement is made to end this cycle of abuse.

New York Has Gay Sports Bar -- Or Is It Really A Sports Bar?

After meeting a friend to discuss few things, I wanted to check a new gay bar on 8 Avenue between 18 and 19 Street, it is not even named -- some said Jim's Sports Bar. Yes, you read this.

I learned from DowntownLad who mentioned about it. Being the football and basketball fan who also enjoyed the camarederie and atmosphere of casual sports bar, I wanted to stop by this particular bar to check it out.

Yes, they have the typical huge TV screens for sports. But it is so gay. Who drinks martini drinks in a sports bar?! Who wears the turtleneck sweaters in a sports bar? Who wears the gucci pants in the sports bar? Suffice to say, I was not impressed. It was more intimidating -- too modernistic to be the casual sports bar to begin with. I cringed at the numbers of men, they were not there to socialize and cheer their teams, they were there to cruise each other and probably mutter who's who is wearing the latest trend of fashion crap.

I stayed for about 15 to 20 minutes, I could not bear the sight of gay men in a sports bar. This is so wrong. So tasteless of gay men to dress "chic" clothes in a sports bar. That is so ... like Carson Kreesley trying to spit his mucus out.

Next time, I will return -- but with few friends. To make sure that this bar will not turn out to be like G Lounge or XL. There are enough bars for that kind. Let the Sports Bar be the casual sports bar, not the place to cruise each other.

Why did I complain? Because I am a fan of sports, I am an Irish/Scottish origins, I guess -- a part of me likes to be ... casual and honest. Bit rowdy but honest. This bar, I'm not sure it will turn out like a casual sports bar since I already saw guys wearing fancy clothes, turtleneck clothes and drinking martini drinks?

Can you imagine a gay guy trying to balance his martini drink and cheer on for Yankees? What a nightmare.

I thought it was a mistake to set up one in Chelsea. The fitting place is in East Village. Since they already set up in Chelsea not far from G Lounge (!!) and SBNY, they need to bring some lesbians in the mix to make sure that the theme of the bar remains sports.

For now, the bar -- I graded it C-.

R-

Ridor's Bitch Session III

I'm sick of ur political grandstanding. Leave the poor girl and her family out of it. Culture of Life, my ass. I can't even watch the damned news anymore.

Kurzetard- Your bashing comments on certain individuals are full of ****!!! In other words, you are a LIAR! Oh, to the readers, want to know the true version about roach-egg hoax in mass email? It will be on other blog SOON!

For those who brownosing on my spring break!
Don't u hate it when people act like they are a good buddy of yours on spring break but when it comes to Gallaudet Campus they totally ignore u or give some dirty look on ur face, I don't like u on both sides AND at least I'm real, so buzz off!

Sean Virnig- You still suck! You were despised during college and your employees hate you. You think you're all that but you're still what you've always been-a dolt.

Yo L, stop being a FUCKING baby and grow up. No one wants to deal with your temper trantrums of a 37 year old wannabe actor who cheats out his deaf roommates their rent $$ and never admits he does anything wrong!

To my friend whom I am concerned, Lee T. Stop drinking and taking so much drugs -- We all DO care!

When are you going to pick up your damn tv stand?
Ridor Responds: When I get a car. I ain't take the damned TV stand into a subway for the world to see!

123...ABC... Forever!

A Marine Asked To Divorce A Deaf Woman -- were you shocked by that? Only naive people do.

I hate St. Patrick's Day. St. Patrick came from England to help Ireland. What's the big deal with St. Patrick's Day?

RT, Why are you in "The Incredibles" as the Syndrome?

McFly is Elise Kilholm-Whitworth? Someone must be high on Crystal Meth.

Keith and Silas are coming! Act busy, New Yorkers!

Laurent looks nice place to live but with 1,000 people in the town, is it wise to have several buildings that has four stories high? I'm very skeptical. Let's start with small buildings, not big ones.

Boo hoo, Terri's parents cannot do a thing. Some X-ians whined about the lack of parental rights. About time they finally get to taste what many gay people were denied of medical rights when they cannot see their loved ones when they were sick or dying. An eye for an eye.

Bush helped to stir the democracy in Middle East? Wake up. Do you truly think the folks in Middle East never contemplated about democracy until Bush came in? It is all about timing. Bush has nothing to do with it.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

To West Virginia Men's Basketball Team

Category: Sports

You guys rock!

Patrick Beilein, you rock! Jon Herber, you rock! Mike Gansey, you rock! All of you guys did a great job. Damn Pitino and his Louisville for staging a wild comeback. Even if I'm not a fan of West Virginia University, but you guys are awesome. John Beilein is an outstanding coach. Rick Pitino is lucky to pull this out.

I'm still down about the game. 20-point lead! A barrage of 3-pointers that sets the school record. Absolutely amazing!

And the best of all, nearly all guys on the team are hot! I'd be in "Wild and Wonderful" if they grope me!

On a serious note, I always liked John Beilein. He coached Richmond Spiders for 4 or 5 seasons, he did a great job for a school in mid-major conference in terms of coaching, recruiting and community service. John is cool guy, he often wore the sneakers with a tie and khaki pants during the games. That was bit odd but he manages to get his players to believe in his system and the result is what you already saw their performance in the last 23 games, they came out of each game with an attitude that they are not "skilled" but they can beat you because they believed in teamwork.

In the first half of Elite Eight, you can see how terrified Louisville players were when WVU bombed them with many 3-pointers. If not for Rick Pitino, Louisville Cardinals would fall apart and WVU Mountaineers would be in Final Four.

Sigh. Damn it.

You know, you can make a sign that can resemble the geography of West Virginia?

1. You only need to use one hand.
2. Close your hand to make a fist.
3. Make sure that your thumb is on by the right side. Then stick the thumb out.
4. Extend your middle finger out.

Now, look at your hand, it resembled the geography of West Virginia. Cool?

R-

Tried This, Never Will Try Again

Today, I decided that I needed a haircut since the thick hair on the back of my skull made it difficult for me to sleep well. So after talking with Perlis about having a haircut, I decided to risk myself to a local barber shop which I can see that it is full of hispanic folks. Perlis said they're not "that" bad, but it's alright.

I thought that it'd be a good experience to get a haircut from different places. So I went around the block to a local barber shop. When I entered the premise, the folks who worked there seemed to be stunned that a caucasian with thick hair is in their shop. One taller African American barber asked me by voice, I gestured that I'm Deaf. He gestured, "Cut?" I nodded, he smiled and was bit puzzled but told me to sit.

This is obviously a Dominican Republic-style barber shop -- everyone practically shouted at each other. Even the workers' kids run rampant around the shop. That was OK with me. I wrote down on the paper pad, asking the barber that I'd like my sides to be trimmed as much as a half-inch and that the top of my head has to remain more than 1 or 2 inch long.

Gave it to the same African American barber, he is big -- kinda intimidating but you can tell that he is bit goofy and jolly. He reads it and nodded. Shortly, he ordered me to sit down.

I felt something is wrong with it as he buzzed the cutter machine (Don't know how to spell it, though!) against the skin of my right side. I was stunned when he pulled off, it is not half-inch, it is practically hairless! I panicked and told him to give me the paper pad and pointed to the instruction -- he wrote one word: Mushroom!

Oh, fuck. Then he threw the paper pad over on the counter and gestured me to be quiet. I grimaced. He totally buzzed all sides. I could not believe it -- I growled, he pulled off and said in very condescending tone with a gesture to silence me and implied that he knew his job and for me to be quiet.

After 25 minutes of destroying my hair, I was speechless. I looked like 4 years old kid, Hairless on all sides, but 1 1/2 inch on the top -- practically making me a "mushroom" guy. I paid him for his service, no tip. Fuck him. I walked back home, people were staring at me. I felt so stupid.

Perlis saw it and was horrified and said, "I don't like this -- you have to do it again tomorrow!"

I intend to. I may end up looking a jarhead by the end of Easter Sunday, anyway! Sempfer Fi!

R-