Tyrone Giordano

I am sorry, Ty. I kinda forgot to mention the special friend of mine whose I knew from college days. Ty and I seemed to have a good relationship throughout our college years -- there is no reason for me to be annoyed by his presence. He was charming, smart, funny and easy to talk with about anything else.

For many, Tyrone seemed to be "hot". I knew many people drooled after him, I thought he was charming but not my type. I guess he probably felt relieved by that! However, when we graduated from Gallaudet, he was talking about what to do with his life -- I vividly remembered telling him that I read an advertisement about a role to perform in DeafWest Theatre. He said he heard about it -- I told him that he'd fit in easier than committing a sin.

Big River
Little did I know that his performance in Big River eventually brought him to Broadway in New York and since then, his acting career went up and up and up ... I am extremely proud of him and happy for him. I occasionally saw him in New York when he was in town, he looked good as ever.

He mentioned that he is involved with two films. Wow. I'm so happy for him. Tyrone deserved all of this successes.

He can be seen in movie theaters where Ashton Kutchner played, "A Lot Like Love" -- Tyrone played as the deaf brother of Ashton's character. Heard from friends that it was good! That it did not look down on Deafies' tendencies. One said that he was stunned that Tyrone not played small but pretty large role throughout the film.

He will be in another film with Diane Keaton called "The Family Stone" which I do not know when it will release.

Ty the Charismatic Dude
Ty, you rock. You're going where not many Deaf men did -- for that, we thank you for being a role model. Love you lots, Ty.

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Gallaudet & Manor House

Gallaudet Football: A certain reader informed me by AIM recently that Gallaudet Athletic Department has shifted some budget changes that permitted itself to hire a full-time Head Coach for Gallaudet Football team which is not affilitated with any divisions in the NCAA -- only club-status. Why?

Because many deaf schools are tight with the budgets trimmed by their states, their athletic departments, unlike the public schools, abandoned the use of weightlifting programs, abandoned from sending the athletic kids to summer camps to polish their skills -- when they graduated from high school, many of them went to Gallaudet and ended up being pretty much disadvantage when it comes to compete against the hearing peers.

Which is why you see the years of losing seasons at Gallaudet football teams. I personally believed that it is all right to dismantle the football team. Gallaudet will be fine without it. Look at George Washington University, it is doing just fine without having the football team.

Here is the another rumor to the whole football thing at Gallaudet, they are offering SIX FIGURE SALARY for Andy Bonheyo to coach the football team. I was told by someone else that at Maryland School for the Deaf in Frederick, Maryland -- the school absolved three positions to make an offer that lured Andy to Frederick from Austin, Texas. I do not know if it is true.

I think Andy would do well at Gallaudet but in the long run, Gallaudet football team will still crash and burn no matter what.

Manor House on PBS: I watched the Manor House on PBS today. It is a reality show about the servants that lived during the Edwardian Era (1900s) that was very common in the United Kingdom. I found it to be very fascinating -- they hired persons with the knowledge that they will work for long hours, live in the House and deal with the issues within the 1900s laws which is pretty nonexistant for the high and low servants. I thought it was one of the best reality-based shows so far.

If you can, check it out!

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Future Advertisements?

Surdus made this and I was amused -- what do you guys think of this?





Cheers,

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Remember This?

Remember the dude who ran CNN and said that he thinks the journalists were targeted by the military sometimes in countries like Iraq and Afghanistan? There was outcry that prompted this guy, I think his name is James Eaton or something, to resign from his job at CNN.

Then few weeks later, the Italian journalist was rescued by Italians and was attacked by the US Military. The US Military claimed that it was a mistake because of bad communication. One Italian was killed, the journalist was injured. The journalist also mentioned that the people who held her told her that she will be killed by the US Military "anyway when she is free". She couldn't believe it when it actually happened right after she was rescued.

Now there is an article that the US troops were cleared in Italian agent's death. Is it me or that it is frequent that the US troops are being cleared of many wrongdoings?

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Happiest & Depressed Cities In USA

This is bit odd. I just saw this on MSN's Health & Fitness:

The Happiest Cities in the USA are:

1. Laredo, TX
2. El Paso, TX
3. Jersey City, NJ
4. Corpus Christi, TX
5. Baton Rouge, LA
6. Honolulu, HI
7. Fresno, CA
8. San Jose, CA
9. Lincoln, NE
10. Bakersfield, CA
11. Buffalo, NY
12. Anchorage, AK
13. Stockton, CA
14. Shreveport, LA
15. (3-way tie) Madison, WI
Montgomery, AL
and Des Moines, IA
18. Wichita, KS
19. (tie) Sacramento, CA and
Omaha, NE

The Most Depressed Cities are:

1. Philadelphia, PA
2. Detroit, MI
3. St. Petersburg, FL
4. St. Louis, MO
5. Tampa, FL
6. Indianapolis, IN
7. (3-way tie) Mesa, AZ
Phoenix, AZ
and Scottsdale, AZ
10. Cleveland, OH
11. New York, NY
12. Salt Lake City, UT
13. Atlanta, GA
14. (3-way tie) Yonkers, NY
Pittsburgh, PA
and Kansas City, MO
17. (3-way tie) Long Beach, CA
Los Angeles, CA
Nashville, TN
20. Portland, OR

My opinion? Some of 'em are bullshit.

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The Horror Stories of Dorian Yanke

As you may know, I absolutely lacked an iota of respect for Dorian Yanke since the first time I met him when he was a freshman at Gallaudet. He was (and probably still is, since I do not see him these days) abrasive, mean, rude, crude, condescending, offensive, callous, arrogant, jerk, anal retentive, asshole and many more.

As I learned last week, he was going to be the Director of Multicultural Diversity, I was horrified and appalled at the notion ... not because he is going to be the one, but at the notion that Gallaudet would HIRE someone like Dorian!

Then someone else emailed me to bitch at Dorian. Apparently, that person has a beef on him for what he did to the person. I cannot blame him.

Several emailed me, expressed the shock and anger that Dorian would do such a thing like this.

I think it is fitting that I write this entry to express my experiences in dealing with the hooligan trash. Then people who had horrible experiences with this fucker can express theirs in comment box.

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I was in the RA office, talking with Nanc when I first met Dorian. I never heard of him, he told me that his name is ... Yanke. I told him that I knew of his sister, but not of him. He seemed to be offended that I did not know who he is. He picked up the Hostess Twinkies that he purchased from the vending machine and tossed it at me, "You probably needed it more than I do."

I told him that I don't like this stuff. From that point, he relentlessly called me "Twinkie boy" for years.

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One time, the doorbell flashed at 3 AM, I opened only to have the full water in the trash can flip into my bedroom and drenched the carpet. Dorian did it. Everyone said he took the huge trash can into the shower room and filled it with hot water to make it smell bad and leaned it on my door.

It took weeks to make my bedroom smell better. He totally fucked up my roommate and my routine system.

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He made fun of gays. He nearly attacked Erik in front of me, throwing tons of offensive slurs at Erik in the cafeteria and in the dorm lobby. He wrote offensive comments about me on VAX's Notes Conference where he imagined what it is like to have a guy to fuck me. It was demeaning and offensive.

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There was a fair that was sponsored by Campus Life in the Hanson Plaza -- there was a moonwalk where everyone can enter and jump for fun. I joined with my friends and had a good time. Then I saw Dorian seeing me in that thing, his eyes implied that he wanted to do something on me. I panicked and tried to get out but a friend accidentally knocked me down farther in the corner -- by time, Dorian got in the Moonwalk and pounced me repeatedly to a point where I thought I was going to be injured. I reported it to the Judicial Affairs. Nothing was being done at that time. Dorian apologized later but he did it just because he was worried that he'd be thrown out of school or punished.

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I was waiting for an elevator with Jake, we were talking about the disney film called "Pocahontas" when the elevator opened in Carlin Hall. DOSS Officer was not far from me on the first floor. I did not see who was in the elevator -- suddenly, I was violently pushed so hard that I actually flew across the lobby. I was shocked then saw Dorian arguing with his ex, Cara who was crying hysterically in the elevator. He was not even charged in the Judicial Affairs even with the report submitted by the DOSS at that time. Jake could not believe that I actually flew.

Later, Cara said Dorian did not want to hit Cara so when the elevator opened, he saw me, the opportunity to do this was so great that he decided to push me so hard ... what if I hit that brick wall head-on?

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These stories you just heard is what happened to me when I had to weather the terror of Dorian Yanke during my college years.

All in all, Dorian is one nasty bastard that does not deserve to be forgiven by any means.

I do not have a grudge on him. What do I feel about him? Pity. He does not deserve a chance to do something positive after the way he treated many people. He did it with pride. He enjoyed inflicting pain on people, he enjoyed terrorizing on people, he enjoyed bashing on people. He enjoyed everything that is possible as long as he can run away with it.

I do not hate him. But I will never be friends nor acknowledge his existence. Even if he changed some, I do not think I have the stomach to tolerate his presence. What he did to me was beyond anything else that I can think of.

And when someone said about his dead infant, I cannot help but grin. That's how bad it was for me when I had to endure being terrorized by this pompous fuck.

By all means, feel free to share your experiences about dealing with Dorian in the comment box.

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Few Comments

I was reading NY Blade recently and it mentioned that The Cock Bar will move out of 12 Street & Avenue A to ... The Hole. The Hole will cease to exist, but The Cock Bar will take over its place. Not bad, not bad.

Also, Larry Kramer, the gay rights activist who gave his blistering opinions on different things including gay people who are irresponsible in barebacking -- calling them murderers. He also issued another interesting comments about Human Rights Campaign (HRC).

Blade: Do you think the answer is outing gay people?

Kramer: Oh god yes. Out them all. To show you how out of touch HRC is with the realities of life, they don’t subscribe to that theory.

Blade: What can be done to fix HRC?

Kramer: Nothing. They should close up shop. They don’t do us any good.

And I'm not member of HRC, go figure.

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A Birthday Party for John Cameron Mitchell

Last night, I strolled down to Lower East Side and hits the Happy End Lounge on Broome Street. Little did I know that the night would end up as one of the most interesting evenings of my time in Manhattan.

It was a birthday bash for John Cameron Mitchell, a man of many hats (actor, writer, director, producer et al). Perhaps some of you knew that John Cameron Mitchell is famous for directing and acting in the independent film called "Hedwig and the Angry Inch".

Yes, I met John Cameron Mitchell -- he's shorter than I am but extremely cute. Very nice. Beth is so going to kill me. Beth is bona-fide fan of "Hedwig and the Angry Inch". The folks that went to the Birthday Bash is surreal. Some dressed outrageously, some dressed marvelous. I was the one on the left side in the "dress shitty" category.

Some stuff are not meant to be said in public. I also met a photographer who also do the photo-blog of his own. I was bit annoyed when he kept on flashing around the bar, its flash is extremely powerful. After seeing his photoblogging, I understand why he frequently flashed it all over the bar. Do not expect to find a picture of me in it because I probably did not look attractive last night. The photographer is also tall and sported a familiar facial features that tends to intrigue me and I found out that ... he is Serbian. I know, McFly, I have a thing for Serbs. Don't ask me why. I just never visited the Balkan States but I do have a thing for them. Call it a fetish if you must, McFly! Nikola, your stuff are great! I'm gonna add you to my list.

The photographer does some stuff for gawker.com as well. You can see the picture of John Cameron Mitchell being groped by these 3 nuts which I *vee-vee'ed* all night long. LIke I said, some stuff are not meant to be said in public.

Jessica the Bartender was simply great and charming -- I cannot believe how much she has to put up with gay men last night.

One funniest moment occured when I was waiting in a line for the bathroom (things always fucked up in the bathroom, don't they?), a guy shoved me. I was annoyed. Then he awkwardly leaned in on me which made my drink spill over a little. I turned to look at him and fingerspelled, "YOU ANAL RETENTIVE!"

The dumb hearing guy smiled and slowly mouthed the words, "I don't know what you said, but thanks for trying to talk with me." He leaned in on for a hug.

I nearly choked on my ice.

OH, yeah, Alan Cummings was there. He was literally all over the place. One time, he bumped on my back when he was dancing -- you guys know me, I hate being pushed, shoved or knocked around -- I turned to see him dancing. "Oh, that is him?" was my first thought when I first saw him. No excitement there. Not my thing. He's not hot but being famous helps him to make out with ... stop, stop, RT, stop!

Surdus, Jasper and Dax plainly vanished few hours later while I hung around and flirted different guys. It was fun. When I got home, I realized that I got 3 or 4 email addresses. Not bad, not bad.

Confidential to Chad: Staying in the bathroom with a guy for a long time does not make you attractive.

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Bitch Session IV

Here it is! Remember, anything you send it to me -- I copy and paste -- but I remove the names & email addresses, it is all forgotten. Nobody knew. Nobody will never know who said this, that and there. Yes, some people asked me who said it, and I declined to identify because I wanted to make this 100% confidentiality.

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Jessica vonGarrel! Get over Franco Korpics. Don't be obsessed and possessive about him. He doesn't love you! MOVE ON! He is in love with someone else! I know for sure!! GET A LIFE!!

Why can't you come up with better names while trying to launch veiled attacks online? You guys are scooping ridiculously low. "A Friend" "Anonymous" "Kurzetards" You're all weaklings. Have fun finishing your shriveling down into the dirt while feebling blurting out weak words and dispersing into thin air. Have more class, will you?

Cynthia & Tanya, from day one, people snickered at you both because you're losers. And you still are. Why do you think you guys went home alone last Friday night?

When are you going to get a clue that I do not have any attraction for you? Pick up your drool bucket and move on to the next person.

Desmond, you will never be cute -- you're just vain dude who thinks you're all that. You only had to buy clothes in order to keep up with the trends -- but otherwise, you're truly fucked. IN fact, you cannot compete with anyone else outside of your circle -- that's why you are imprisoned in your own world -- A sign of delusional mind, really. Not only that, fucking your roommate is not exactly the "gay" thing to do!

To the family (cohabiting with college students) where the gal is all over the country doing recruiting for a certain college, and where the guy is doing god-knows-what, do you think the 3-year old daughter is doing well, psychologically and emotionally?

When will we achieve First Contact with Vulcans so we can wipe out the materialism shit?

Jessica vonGarrel ... go back to the man who wants u so badly, Jon Kovacs!

Get a fucking clue that I do not want to see or talk with you at all. No means no. Need help finding a long thick needle to pop that overinflated balloon head of yours?

Fuck you, you cab drivers who think that beautiful deaf women with big boobs would be interested in marrying, let alone dating, you! Get a grip. I'm not helping you get your green card.

Asking me to fill out a lottery ticket (with numbers) for you does not mean that I'll marry you if you win the lottery. See the cop and business woman behind you laughing? That should indicate how silly you sounded when asking me to marry you if you won. Keep the money yourself and enjoy your new rich life if you win. If not, happy drinking that beer you bought alongside your lottery ticket.

I wonder if the dead infant probably makes Dorian Yanke see things in a different light? I hope so. That fucker probably deserved it.

Scott, if I ever see you again, the first thing you'll ever see is my fist.

Lenny, one word that can describe you the best -- retard.

You don't think I smell foreign tuna on your cock? Stop cheating. Or I'll bite.

Furball 2: My Experiences

When I got off from the 14 Street Subway Station, it was raining hard. It poured like Hell. Not a good idea for me, to walk in the GLBT Center where everyone else will see me for the first time -- in very wetty situation.

But I went ahead. I ran like crazy, saw guys that were going to Furball 2 hiding under the covers by the buildings. Then I arrived at the GLBT Center which is a block away on 13 Street -- it was packed. Yes, I was one of few guys who were drenched by the rain.

The first impression of Furball 2 is the ... stench. I'm telling you guys, gay men breathed bad. I gagged a lot. When they saw me and said "Woof" -- their breath hits me, not so attractive. I flinched a little. I am man enough to handle the stench. Basically, the party is great. People are friendly. I kept on getting groped from behind -- kinda pissed me off because I cannot know who did it. Some guys are gorgeous, some guys are bizarre. C'est la vie in the world of Gay Community.

Some leathermen thinks Furball is for them. They came in not-so-subtle clothes that would give few churchgoers heart attacks. Saw a guy who is about 6'0 and 350 lbs, he wore nothing but boxers. I will never be like that. I won't. I will not permit myself -- if so, somebody push me off the Empire State Building!

One charming fellow with a beard -- you could tell that he is kinda Irish. He targeted me, and so do I. He made a move -- we talked and blah. One thing I do not like about gays is that when they like someone, they talk, then they try to kiss before exchanging email addresses. I happen to think the kisses are intimate!

But at this Furball 2, do what the Romans did. I kissed. We exchanged. But again, I'm wary and cautious of hearing men. They are like dogs, you have to be responsible for them, you do not trust them around food. You do not trust them around certain things ... but you cannot live without 'em.

Few deafies were there. Ryan, Surdus, me and about 5 more. Some are dumb enough that I simply refused to acknowledge their names. I just do not care nor have the time to deal with the introductions.

By 1 AM, I had enough of these men at the GLBT Center -- I wanted to pep myself up with some normal guys that I never managed to attain, it is off to GYM SPORTSBAR!

Surdus brought his toy along to meet me at GYM SportsBar, the newest gay sports bar in New York. I noticed something better -- more gays are being normal. They dressed much better as according to the norms of the sports bar. I do not see any Martini drinks which is good news, to say the least. As time progressed, I get heavily buzzed. Surdus and his toy went home as I was greeted by two guys that I met at The Park. In fact, I almost forgot who they were -- they greeted me and had to remind me who they were. Oh, sorry, that is my cliche towards hearing men these days. Meet them, forget them later.

Later before the bar closed, I was approached by the manager who told me that he saw me here before ... twice. And he wondered if I liked the bar. I told him the truth -- I told him that the first time, I thought it was ew! The second time was alright. Now this time, it is much better and resonating with the norms of a typical sports bar. He smiled hard and said he's Kevin the Manager -- very hot one.

It was fun all right, tonight -- the dilemma -- watching Desperate Housewives or going to the well-known actor's birthday party which Surdus was invited and he extends that to me. This or that? I'll go to the party -- it happens only once. Desperate Housewives, well, there is always reruns.

Be patient for the Bitch Session IV is coming up next -- after the Birthday Bash tonight!

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Maria's Birthday Bash and Furball 2

Last night, I went to Nowhere Bar in East Village to celebrate Maria's birthday bash. It was unexpected to see a large crowd of more than 30 Deafies and deaf-wannabes. This, that and there -- the typical birthday party you'll get at any bar, really.

It was good to see some old faces. Including Robert Arnold, the guy who also graduated from my alma mater. We cracked jokes about almost everything in ASL. If you heard some series of howls on 14 Street, it was me and Robert, really.

We also went to Beauty Bar afterwards because of better lightning.

Tonight, I'm heading down to the GLBT Center for "Furball 2" event. I believe it is a dance hall for guys who likes big, hairy and buff guys. Dunno if I'll fit in the whole drama. If there is few funny drama, I will be more than happy to blog about it.

Oh, bitchin' notes is coming nicely. Some are fiercely funny, some are fiercely awful. But either way, you'll laugh out of your mind. Send me some more if you dare. I"ll probably upload it much later in the night or tomorrow.

Cheers,

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Little Rock's Fabled Houston Nutt Senior

Category: Deaf Sports

LITTLE ROCK, Ark. (AP) - Houston Nutt Sr., the father of four college coaches and the only person to play for basketball coaching greats Adolph Rupp at Kentucky and Henry Iba at Oklahoma A&M, died Wednesday at a hospital after a stroke. He was 74.

Nutt was the father of Arkansas football coach Houston Nutt Jr. and Arkansas State basketball coach Dickey Nutt. Another son, Dennis, is the basketball coach at Texas State and son Danny is an assistant football coach at Arkansas.

Nutt Sr. was coach and director of athletics and student life at the Arkansas School for the Deaf. He had a lifetime of hearing problems and spent 32 years in various roles at the Little Rock school before retiring in 1987.

In 1957, Nutt was a member of the American Association for the Deaf team that won a gold medal in international competition in Milan, Italy. He was inducted into the Arkansas Sports Hall of Fame in 2001 and also is a member of the Deaf Hall of Fame.

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Houston Nutt Sr is the revered figure in the state of Arkansas. Even beyond that Nolan Richardson. I heard a lot of great stuff about the father and his legacy on his blood children and his impact on the kids at Arkansas School for the Deaf.

Care to share your comments, Chlms?

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Something To Ponder

Nearing 50,000! The blog is approaching 50,000 visits with already over 80,000 views. Nice, nice. Thanks, guys. Obviously, I did something right. Poor little McWeenie has no life -- picking up only 2,000 visits. Hey, YOU get a life. I already did.

Guess Who Is The Director? This is joke. I just learned this today. Why did Gallaudet choose him as the Director of Multicultural Diversity is beyond me! This guy terrorized every minority possible -- especially women and gays! Guess who is now the Director of MD -- Dorian Yanke! Let's see how sensitive Dorian will be when a closeted gay person comes to him -- I'm willing to bet that this particular sensitive guy will jump off the building right after seeing Dorian.

Disgruntled New Yorker: Read this -- it is hilarious. Sometimes I feel like that. So New York!

What Animals are Gays Similar To? Today, Surdus and I loitered about what kind of animal that gays can be compared with? He said it has to be roaches! When he explained the reasons, I agreed with him completely. Roaches eats anything. So does gays. When roaches are big, people scream. When gay men has big dicks, gay men scream as well. They fucked too much, are dirty and disgusting at times. IMpossible to get rid of. And last, they are fittingly called Cockroaches!

The Incredibles! Saw it today. Great movie for all ages, for all groups. Maybe except for folks in The South since it does not cover incest and biblical stories, really, eh?

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Another Reason Why The South Is Dumb

This happened in Northwest Alabama, the same state that banned gays from marrying, banned anyone from owning the sexual toys. The same state where the State Senator advocated to bury the books that talked about gays.

The same state that created this particular Fucktard -- the same gal who lived in Iowa then moved to Florida.

Enjoy the article, thanks to PikeSpeak!

Certainly not my thing to do. Ugh.

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Reminder for Bitch Session IV

Bitch Session IV:Deadline is this weekend -- so fire me away with your Bitch Sessions. I'm SO ready for this.

Here Is The Proof: The little gnat, McCock claimed that he did not copy my ideas for his blogsite. If you looked at articles, he often reads my blog entries then talk about it. He thinks he's that smart. Bleech. He challenged me to prove it. I chose not to. Well, I talked about the Oklahoma City Bombing. Then he brought it up a day later, I quickly pointed that out. He denied as always. Then I made fun of him. Suddenly, he decided to ban me from commenting anything -- which is fine with me -- he claimed that I repeatedly insulted him -- in fact, I only commented *twice*. First, to point the entry out that he copied my idea -- second, to make fun of his dead, mangled cousin who is rotting six feet under the cold ground. That's it. Waaah, fucktard!

I Guess I Will Die Of Pancreatic Cancer! Some of you guys knew that I love Hot Dogs. Yesterday, before entering Columbia University, I ate two Hot Dogs from the corner stand. Mmmmm! Hot Dogs rock!

Confidential to Adamo: Anyday, honey, anyday!

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The Best and Worst Times of Queen in DC

A couple of pictures from a dear friend of mine in the District -- whom I took the liberty of adding words to the pictures.

Merritt was chosen as the one of the Top Quirky Dressers by a sorority at Gallaudet -- which does not faze me at all -- he has billions of clothes to choose from for any kind of events that you might have in mind, he'll simply shock everyone else in the process.

That's Merritt. Congratulations, Merritt.




Cheers,

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Guess Who's Visiting Gallaudet?

I was informed by a close friend of mine that Princess Mathilde of Belgium has chosen Gallaudet as one of three places she wanted to visit when she is in Washington, DC on Thursday, April 21, 2005.

Princess Mathilde of Belgium

That is nice. Until I found the reason why she chose Gallaudet University -- according to this website, she studied Speech Therapy at the Institute of Marie-Haps, teaching people how to bark with their voices.

Too bad, she'll hear lots of gibberish shouts at Gallaudet tomorrow. That's OK -- entirely a culture shock for her. Good for her.

You know, she is not the only royal ever to visit Gallaudet. After all, Gallaudet has its own hordes of Queens from day one. Look at moi, Merritt, Witch, Litch, Manny, Kitch, Vess, Rayni and many more. Of course, I sit on the top of all, I am The Empress! I have yet to let go of my royal title to the appropriate one. Perhaps I will because I have to, in a short time. And the rest are just ... Queen Bees that I allowed to fight amongst each other.

But it is always cordial to welcome anyone else on the campus -- then let them know that it is us who ruled Gallaudet. ;-)

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More Xian Nuts To Report, Don't I?

Chicago, IL -- Xian Nuts are on the loose and they claimed that they saw the image of Virgin Mary by the highway's underpass! This is hilarious, the End is coming! Be like Lummings and hop off the cliff!

This reminded me of Xian nuts going amok in Clearwater, Florida few years ago after seeing this image on some office window after some cleaners mixed wrong chemicals!

More on the Nazi Pope: South Africa's Anglician Bishop Desmond Tutu said that the new Pope is out of touch with the world's progress. In other words, he was saying that he's old fart. Same thing came from the new Pope's older brother who said he's old fart. Sort of.

Update! I got an email from the guy I liked. We are ... let's say ... talking. I think.

Went to Columbia University today to observe the class where Ratie, Jody and Perlis are attending for their graduate studies. Had a lengthy conversation with different people -- bumped into Maria, the wild girl of New York -- she reminded me to come down to Nowhere Bar on 14 Street on Friday night for her birthday bash party.

Gee, when will it ever end?

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What A Surprise!

I got an email from Jen, the CODA gal whom I worked for at PBS Online when I was at Gallaudet. She said that she googled her name and it got to my blog. Whee. And what's odd ... I tried to google her name as well. I could not find where she found the blogsite.

But that's OK. She's doing great. Still at PBS, bought a home on some Wisteria Lane in some Pleasantville. More power to her, but not for me. Unless I'm married. Or taken. Or whatever.

Ahh, she better try to keep in touch with me from now on. Same with her sistah, Wendy!

Basically, what happened last night is bit bizarre. A guy I bumped into at The Cock Bar, he accused me that I am not Deaf. I tried to convince him that I'm Deaf, he doubted. It took a well-known DJ who knew ASL to intervene and made it clear in a firm voice (or yell?) to that guy that I am indeed Deaf. It was weird to see a DJ defending a deaf person against the hearing guy who insisted that I faked my deafness.

Then shortly, I met another guy ... who knew ASL. He was on my butt all night long. He wanted to interpret for me despite the fact that I told him not to and to leave me alone! I told him that I do not need his help -- so when one guy and I flirted each other, by God, this ASL-wannabe interrupted frequently to a point where one of them suggested that we ... go home together.

Yes, we went home together because this guy I liked insisted that I go with him, but it did not work out well because I don't want this ASL wannabe in on with me and this guy -- it was too awkward to deal with. Somehow, this ASL-wannabe was badmouthing about this guy to me (I suspected he did it so I freak out then he can have him), the other guy cussed at this wannabe -- I still do not know what exactly happened. So ... tempers flared. Later, the wannabe told me that he told the other guy, "You're pompous."

You see, I like this guy. I do not like for anyone who just learned ASL to interfere and want to help me around -- to top it all, I do NOT like for him to follow me around! I do not like for him to make these awkward propositions for us all. I just want two -- me and this guy. I tried to discourage him to get lost -- he was adamant to be with us. Even this guy, initially, was willing to let him join -- I gave the hints that I only wanted two of us.

It was getting brighter and brighter in the morning -- I told 'em that I am leaving, they were still arguing about the insults, I believe.

So basically, the night was ruined, I think. I liked this guy, I knew he does. I can see the excitement in his eyes, but gee, thanks to that fucker ASL-wannabe, I do not think I'll ever hear from him again (he swears that he will email). It is kinda bizarre -- It was my first time to deal with a hearing guy who INSISTED to be around with me all night long because he liked both of us. I do not ... find him attractive, I just wanted him to go away. Even few friends of mine tried to tell him to fuck off, he kept on telling that he knew ASL. I told him to keep his two feet away from me -- he kept on shovhing and rubbing on me or this guy. I had to push him gently to tell him that it's not nice.

God. What a 'tard. I think it was the first time that I could not get rid of someone else in a short time. He literally won the prize in the end, I think. I gave it away to him. I can't handle this, certainly not two guys on my hands. Ugh.

Happy, Michelley?

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One More Picture From DEEP! Club

Thanks to Yingst who snapped this cool picture. I seemed to be in daze, thanks to few cups of Cape Cod. Guys, I know you rolled your eyes! Nothing new with me, always Cape Cod.

IN this picture, CK and I posed up a little -- CK is gorgeous! I'm so inferior when it comes to appearances! As you can see, I seemed to dabble in ... the concept of heterosexuality for few hours for old times' sake. Uh, no -- of course not.

Ridor and CK Having Good Time!

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10 Years Ago

It was 11 AM EST, I was sitting in the cafeteria yakking with the friends from Arkansas -- which is why many people sometimes asked me if I attended Arkansas School for the Deaf. Such an absurd logic, really.

I wanted to get the second serving of whatmacallit food in the cafeteria, so I stood up -- I saw the TV SPECIAL REPORT interrupting the wildly popular show, "Jerry Springer Show". It was the live broadcast of destroyed skyscraper, with debris all over the place. The captions were not on, apparently they seemed to scramble to get the captioners on a while later after the first broadcast. So many Deaf students were left to guess what is going on with the image of destroyed skyscraper with heavy, black smoke billowing rising into the sky and seeing people running around.



I smiled, "Not another Tel Aviv shit."

When I got the second serving on the plate, I went back to the table and was stunned when it mentioned: Oklahoma City. What the fuck?

The reports immediately cried that the Muslim terrorists had to be the one. People were pleading to calm and not to jump the gun. The media went nuts when the Christians claimed that it was Muslims.

Turned out it was us who produced our own American Terrorist who bombed Alfred Murrah Federal Building in Oklahoma City in response to the way they handled the Xian fanatics in Waco, Texas which ended in a huge bonfire for these dumbfucks, good for 'em.

Guys, guys -- Tim McVeigh was not Arab. He was not Muslim. He ws white trash. He was Xian. He was the classic American conservative who believed that the government should not interfere in our lives. He was the conservatives' true Terrorist!

Remember that.

A Time To Examine Ourselves
Oh, yeah, later in the summer of 1995, I drove through Oklahoma City on the way to Los Angeles, Richall and I stopped by and visited the bombing site. We were chatting and hanging out at the clean-up site -- of course, we were bit morbid and cynical about it. The folks at the dry cleaning store right across the street saw us and the owner came to ask me and Richall to join her for lunch in the store and talk about it. We did.

It was nice.

That's how nice Oklahoma City can be, if they wanted to be. Maybe it is a blessing in disguise -- be nice to everyone else or you'll be ka-boomed.

Thanks to the lady for her generosity in Oklahoma City. Never knew her name, though. But will never forget the lunch appointment.

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Pope & Pearl Harbor

Pope Benedict XVI: He looks creepy to me. His eyes seems to glee about something else. The way he acknowledged the audience is corny. Never mind the fact that he was enrolled in Nazi Youth Movement, he is extreme homophobe. This is Cardinal John Ratzinger, he ran the powerful Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith which was responsible for the Spanish Inquisitions.

The new Pope is simply not the God's Right Man. He is a prick who hated gays, advocated out-of-control births (evidence, look at Latin America!) -- basically, this man is not willing to work towards the good solution of all issues. He could be the one that many Xians screamed as "The False Prophet".

It is no secret that many people will be impacted by this fool's decisions, even with many Nuns saying that they loathed him because he does not care enough about people who are in poverty.

The sex-abuse scandals were largely ignored by Cardinal John Ratzinger and will continue to do so. Did you know that he was subponaed to appear in the Court in Texas related to sex abuse? Now being the Pope, he does not have to show up at all. He never will have to address the sex abuse scandals that continues to shake the foundations of the Church.

Plus, the shortage of priests indicated that the Church is crawling to its tomb, which is good thing, I think. Perhaps, that was the way The Fates wanted it to be -- have the worst Pope to seal the death of the Catholic Church.

It is eerie to watch him walking around the Vatican, in the same house that was enriched by pillaging and raping millions of families' estates in the past. And it is eerie to see fools cheering and dancing for this fool.

Oh, well.

It will be a long time before the Catholic Church will atone its sins against the humanity. I thought Pope John Paul II was decent, but this one is bad. Very bad.

It appeared that Pope Benedict XVI was separated at birth from his twin brother, check for the evidence, thanks to Towleroad.

PBS' American Experience: The Massie Affair I stumbled upon a documentary on PBS last night about The Massie Affair which took place in Hawai'i. It talked about how the whites stole Hawai'i from its Hawai'ian natives. Hawai'i was never ceded to the United States legally, it was stolen. IN fact, Queen Lilo'uokalani was forced to surrender her throne at gunpoint by the Provisional Government who were consisted of haoles. Haoles means white folks in Hawai'i. In fact, the Hawai'ians invited and tolerated the Haoles and they still don't feel it is enough so they had to steal it for their own.

It is interesting to note that there was racial harmony in Hawai'i amongst the natives, Chinese, Japanese and Haoles ... until the government of Hawai'i ceded Pearl Harbor to the United States Navy in order to get duty-free sugar trade. Suddenly, the influx of Navy hooligans arrived in Honolulu. Most hooligans are white trash from The South who advocated the segregation -- they were appalled and disgusted at the sight of different colors mixing and socializing with each other.

They nearly caused the racial conflicts at every level of communities in Honolulu, the Navy brass in Pearl Harbor consisted of white trash hooligans which they refused to do businesses with the Natives or other ethnic groups, only Haoles which reinforced the bitter resentment of the Natives on Haoles. Then Thalia Massie came in the picture, such drama to be ensued to a point where the US Navy brass decided to take things into matter and nearly caused the Racial War in Honolulu.

It is interesting to note that Thalia's mother, Grace Fortescue, is the granddaughter of Alexander Graham Bell, the notorious inventor of telephone who wanted to eradicate Deaf people's American Sign Language. Grace, not surprising for a person who is into status quo, killed a Hawai'ian with no remorse. Basically, what happened in Hawai'i by the white trash southerners is travesty.

Perhaps, that is why The Fates approved the destruction of Pearl Harbor on December 7, 1941.

Good Riddance, Pearl Harbor!

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Can't Sleep -- So I Am Sharing Some Thoughts

Ann Coulter Is Dumb Bitch: Today, on the subway train en route to my home after the "fiasco" in East/West Village which will be clarified sooner or later, I was reading the NY POST -- Ann Coulter complained that this picture does not depicit her good enough to a point where her mother said she barely recognized who the lady is.

Of course, is Ann supposed to be Mann Coulter that hir mother knew in the first place?

Matthew McCounaughey Is Smart Dude: In NY POST, he was quoted, "New York has this stigma. People in Texas or California are like, 'No one is that nice in New York.' I'm like "Bullshit, man!" The difference is, people in New York are going somewhere."

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It is 8:26 AM

Got in at 8:10 AM. Long story. What a fucking bizarre night. Dunno if I should share -- some are too ... unbelievable to prove. Just that ... I'm kinda speechless by what has transpired in the last 10 hours. Nothing bad, but God -- sigh. Bedtime for few hours before going to Columbia University.

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San Francisco Earthquake of 1906

Yes, you got it right. 99 years ago, the earthquake struck the town of San Francisco and from there, San Francisco did not fold. It simply altered the way it deals with designs, transportation system and so on.

There is an article about the reunion of survivors from the San Francisco Earthquake of 1906, enjoy the article!

What truly impressed me is this gentleman, Herbert Hamrol, who is 102 years old -- he was 3 when it happened -- he vividly remembered the happenstance but not enough to understand the whole she-bang drama. But why impressed me? He is currently working at a grocery store as shelf-stocker in San Francisco.

Impressive for 102 years old guy!

Since I'm on the subject of San Francisco Earthquake of 1906, I'd like to remind people about Douglas Tilden. He was the sculptor who went to California School for the Deaf and his work on "The Mechanics Monument" which can be found in Downtown San Francisco in the intersection of Market, Bush and Battery Streets.

That monument and "Admission Day Monument" were the only monuments that stood unaffected by the Earthquake of 1906 while everything was destroyed. Coincidence? You decide.

It is kinda annoying that hearing people walk by unaware that this massive monuments were crafted by Deaf person! And for a long time, they claimed that we cannot function in the hearing world. Go figure.

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The Snapshot

Here is the snapshot of three bloggers. Kevin and kaybee looks good, don't they? I look like a hunchback or something -- my eyes seemed to be melancholy like Mordru up on the top corner of my blog, eh? Damn. I need to practice to smile better. One gal, years ago, told me that when I smiled, I scared her. When she said that, it reminded me of The Addams Family's Wednesday who were imprisoned in a cabin, forcing to watch the Disney movies. Then she came out to face the counselors and campers, then she smiled. One camper asked the counselor, "Make her stop to smile, she's scaring me!"

Three Bloggers

Cheers,

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Vee-TV

Gabe Leung mentioned that Ahmed works for SEE HEAR, a TV program. That was incorrect information. Ahmed corrected me that he is a presenter for VEE-TV (Y E S !! There is a television program called VEE!!)and Lydia works as a researcher for the VEE-TV production.

I checked the VEE-TV website -- I absolutely liked it!

You can see Ahmed's background in this profile. Great picture! Charming man, I can see why Melly goes flip over him.

You can see Lydia's profile as well -- too bad, the picture does not tell you that she is tall, about a foot taller than I am. Lydia is so riot. So funny.

After viewing the VEE-TV's website -- its style of format in production is similar to MTV's style. I like it.

I liked the AARRGH video clip, when Aysin made it clear that he does not have to be patient with this hearing person -- it reminded me of me! (Realplayer video only)

And this video clip was portrayed by Lydia as well. You can see how tall she is. And last Thursday night, Lydia signed a cool sign that caught my eye and I asked her what it is -- she explained that it is a new fad sign among the Deaf UK. It means, "C'mon!" I used it last night when Lydia cracked a joke and I said, "C'mon" in that sign. Lydia nearly choked on her drink. Oh, well -- at least, I tried!

I think I am going to try this with VEE-TV in London in matter of months.

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Oh! Party at DEEP

Well, so many things to say. So many persons to say "hi", so many to loiter. So many are heterosexuals. So expensive drinks!

You know, when I entered the club, I paid $4 for the damned coatcheck, the 5'10 caucasian with thick brown hair and goatee stared at me and smiled his shiny teeth. When he took my coat, he winked at me. I thought that was ... so cute.

I met Kevin McCaul. Here is the shocker, he is a foot tall than I am. God, I feel like this couple. Har har. Kevin is nice fella.

As much as I enjoyed the camaraderie, I'm not the fan of SO MANY PEOPLE -- mainly because it is difficult to maintain the conversation under the limited times with different persons. It became too distracting and stressful for me. Soon, I shall have some kind of one-on-one conversation with some faces that I met.

Regan and Kaybee looks da bomb! Same with Yingst, CMK and CK! The Deaf UKs arrived -- Melly got drunk so bad that she lagged on to tell me to inform Veronica that she loves her and wants me to mwah her as well.

I was turned off by three Deaf guys who walked up to Lydia, one of Deaf UK women who stood at 6'0 or so, and told her to kiss this guy. He did not ask, he TOLD her to. Thank God Lydia gave him the ugly look and said, "No thanks" in ASL while I say, "NO NO NO NO" in BSL.

Lydia and Ahmed talked about their production team in London -- I am mesmerized by that -- it may change my career in the making in a short future. Ahmed and Lydia urged me to come over in London -- Sarah, also of UK, signed clearly in BSL that she knew many gay bars/clubs and will lead me around ... with a wicked grin and wink. That is incredibly tempting.

Who knows, you may see Ridor leaving this continent for Europe, much to Berna and Rico's delight!

OH, yeah, Sarah, Tate's wife, looks glamarous as ever! That lady has something to tell me last night and I was pretty enamored by her stern comments about my blogsite, Tate looked good as ever. In fact, he's a hottie like before, probably marriage life suits him very well at this point! We all promised that we'd have a dinner together in a short time.

Oh, yeah, there were pictures taken -- in a short time, I'll get it from others and demonstrate it to the world how straight I can be -- not! But the odd thing is ... one hearing guy walked to me and one guy from Staten Island -- snapped a picture then walked away. We had NO idea who nor why he did that! At least, we look good to him, eh?

Oh, yeah, I was relieved to hear from some folks who said they read my blog and it brought them to smile often. That is the whole purpose of this blog, to make it entertaining for others to laugh, smile and roll their eyes at times. Or even a quick sign "FINISH" at your computer monitor is a great statement upon itself.

One odd statement by Ridloff, when I was ready to leave the club, he asked me whether if I enjoyed myself at the club -- I told him that I did. He said, "You lost some pounds, I noticed that -- try to do more, will you? I want to see you walking around when you are 90."

Well, I do not want to live that long. I rather to die by 75 if my body is starting to whine ... I mean, I do not want to live in a nursing home where someone has to wipe my bottoms and me drooling after 6th stroke. Or even with some disease like Alzheimers. If I am normal at 90, fine. Sure. But if I'm having problems by 75, forget it. I will whine like my Drandpa who kept on saying he wanted to die now, now, now for years until he was 92.
Basically, I had a good time at DEEP! Club last night. It was so nice that I finally left the club at 3 AM and went to G Lounge to refresh myself with gay men -- just to feel back to normal.

Oh, yeah, when I left the club, I picked up the coat from the same guy -- that guy did it again. He smiled and winked -- and not only that, when I grabbed my coat, he quickly touched my left hand and rubbed it so fast before letting me go. I was taken back by that.

Oh, gawd. Why the cute guy in wrong place?

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This Reminded Me ...

After reading this, I do not feel safe driving in Seoul, South Korea. At least, I do not live there. Not my problem.

But this reminded me of Korian "Koko" Thomas who is legally blind, he flashed his driver's license which he got it in his homestate, Texas. I was horrified because this guy really has very, I mean, very limited eyesight. He always bumped into guys (Is it because they are guys?) in the dorms and cafeteria. Even he was let go from Gallaudet football team because of his deteriorating eyesight.

I am always amused by Koko's theatrics at times but when he flashed his driver's license -- what was the state of Texas thinking about?! If he hits a pedestrian without seeing the pedestrian at all, and the cop pulled him over and asked him if he was "aware" that he hits a pedestrian -- Koko will say that he is NOT aware because he did not see him at *all*. Legally, he would be have to prosecuted with something if he knew or saw.

IN a way, he can get away with a murder on his hands. O-boy!

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Hearing People Wants To Be Deaf

When I was 10, my sister, Hedy, had a best friend who is hearing. I'll never forget her name. Her name is Sharon. Sharon learned ASL in matter of weeks, I'm not kidding. Sharon was totally into it. True biz, in 3 months, she could pass as Deaf person. Her facial expression was on the same par with Deaf children's rapid use of facial expression.

Sharon was upset that Hedy had to go to deaf school and stay in the dormitory for weeks, just like me. Sharon asked her parents if she could transfer to VSDB from the public school. Her parents said, "Only if you are deaf."

Hedy panicked and told me that Sharon had been trying to make herself deaf by trying to do stuff to her ears for days. Hedy just found out about it.

At that time, I was bewildered and thought it was crazy. An isolated incident, perhaps. But Sharon told me in ASL that she really wanted to be Deaf, she does not want to be hearing. She wants to be Deaf, honest! Mom thought she was nuts. I found it amusing. So does my Drandma.

Years later, the Internet came. We are able to exchange lots of information about practically everything, really. I stumbled upon a yahoogroup called "Deaf Wannabe" -- I was intrigued and joined the list. I became a lurker, I did not attack. It is not my position to do so -- but there are some Deaf persons that comes in and attack, they got banned so fast.

On that group, there are lots of information exchanging with each other on how to get hearing aids, on how to act like Deaf, on how to destroy your sounds ... but what really made me set back is that the majority of correspondents are from the United Kingdom!

I wonder why. I'm so glad that the BBC's See Hear is tackling this topic this week. I wish we have See Hear here in the United States.

Since the United Kingdom is not capitalistic society, it has a huge advantage -- it requires the equal broadcast for everyone else -- including Deaf people in the United Kingdom. So they set up the newsmagazine program every week called "See Hear", it is an equivalent to NBC's Dateline.

See Hear was not the original program by the BBC, in fact, it evolved from the first one that was broadcasted in 1950s. This, there and that -- See Hear became the permanent weekly newsmagazine on BBC since 1981. That is 24 years in the making. The majority of BBC's See Hear production team consists of Deaf persons. I know because I was there. Will ABC, CBS, NBC and FOX follow that pattern? Never in a million years.

For more information on See Hear, you may go to this website. You might learn how to fingerspell in British Sign Language for "SEE HEAR". Enjoy.

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Eric Berndt II

Thanks to Dolphin's website for broadcasting Eric Berndt's letter to NYU students.

Eric was the one who asked Supreme Court Justice Antonin Scalia if he sodomized his wife?

What Eric wrote made me a lifelong fan of his daring to challenge the impotent homophobe's antics.

Read the letter:

Fellow Classmates,

As the student who asked Justice Scalia about his sexual conduct, I am responding to your posts to explain why I believe I had a right to confront Justice Scalia in the manner I did Tuesday, why any gay or sympathetic person has that same right. It should be clear that I intended to be offensive, obnoxious, and inflammatory. There is a time to discuss and there are times when acts and opposition are necessary. Debate is useless when one participant denies the full dignity of the other. How am I to docilely engage a man who sarcastically rants about the "beauty of homosexual relationships" (at the Q&A) and believes that gay school teachers will try to convert children to a homosexual lifestyle (at oral argument for Lawrence)?

Although I my question was legally relevant, as I explain below, an independent motivation for my speech-act was to simply subject a homophobic government official to the same indignity to which he would subject millions of gay Americans. It was partially a naked act of resistance and a refusal to be silenced. I wanted to make him and everyone in the room aware of the dehumanizing effect of trivializing such an important relationship. Justice Scalia has no pity for the millions of gay Americans on whom sodomy laws and official homophobia have such an effect, so it is difficult to sympathize with his brief moment of "humiliation," as some have called it. The fact that I am a law student and Scalia is a Supreme Court Justice does not require me to circumscribe my justified opposition and outrage within the bounds of jurisprudential discourse.

Law school and the law profession do not negate my identity as a member of an oppressed minority confronting injustice. Even so, I did have a legal point: Justice Kennedy's majority opinion in Lawrence asked whether criminalizing homosexual conduct advanced a state interest "which could justify the intrusion into the personal and private life of the individual." Scalia did not answer this question in his dissent because he believed the state need only assert a legitimate interest to defeat non-fundamental liberties. I basically asked him this question again - it is now the law of the land. He said he did not know whether the interest was significant enough. I then asked him if he sodomizes his wife to subject his intimate relations to the scrutiny he cavalierly would allow others - by force, if necessary. Everyone knew at that moment how significant the interest is. Beyond exerting official power against homosexuals, Scalia is an outspoken and high-profile homophobe. After the aforementioned sarcastic remarks about gay people's relationships, can anyone doubt how little respect he has for LGBT Americans? Even if no case touching gay rights ever came before him, his comments from the bench (that employment non-discrimination is some kind of "homosexual agenda," etc.) and within our very walls are unacceptable to any self-respecting gay person or principled opponent of discrimination. The idea that I should have treated a man with such repugnant views with deference because he is a high government official evinces either a dangerously un-American acceptance of authority or insensitivity to the gay community's grievances. Friends have forwarded me emails complaining of the "liberal" student who asked "the question." That some of my classmates are shallow and insensitive enough to conceptualize my complaint as mere partisan politics is disheartening. Though I should not have to, I will share with everyone that I am neither a Democrat nor Republican and do not consider myself a "liberal" except in the classical sense. I hope that we can separate a simple demand for equality under the law and outrage over being denied it from so much dogmatic ideological baggage. LGBT Americans are still a persecuted minority and our struggle for equal rights is still vital. 4 out of 5 LGBT kids are harassed in school - tell them to debate their harassers. Suicide rates for them are much higher than for others. We still cannot serve in the military, have little protection from employment and other forms of discrimination, and are denied the 1000+ benefits that accrue from official recognition of marriage. I know some who support gay rights oppose my question and our protest. Do not presume to tell me when and with how much urgency to stand up for our rights.

I am 17 months out of a lifelong closet and have lost too much time to heterosexist hegemony to tolerate those who say, as Dr. King put it, "just wait." If you cannot stomach a breach of decorum when justified outrage erupts then your support is nearly worthless anyway. At least do not allow yourselves to become complicit in discrimination by demanding obedience from its victims. Many of our classmates chose NYU over higher-ranked schools because of our reputation as a "private university in the public service" and our commitment to certain values. We were the first law school to require that employers pledge not to discriminate on the basis of sexual orientation. Of Scalia's law schools that have "signed on to the homosexual agenda," our signature stands out like John Hancock's. We won a federal injunction in the FAIR litigation as an "expressive association" that counts acceptance of sexual orientation as a core value. Those who worry about our school's prestige should remember how we got here and consider whether flattering those who mock what we believe and are otherwise willing to fight for appears prestigious or pathetic. We protestors did not embarrass NYU, Scalia embarrassed NYU. We stood up to a bigot for the values that make NYU more than a great place to learn the law. I repeat my willingess to discuss this issue calmly with anyone who respects my identity as a gay man. I have had many productive talks with classmates since Tuesday and I hope that will continue.

Respectfully,
Eric Berndt

For Who Is Wondering About The State of Mind I Am In

My state of mind is akin to the lady in this picture.

I am free. I am me, take it or leave it.

Amethyst In Its Final Glory

Of course, I'm not going to die. Just that I'm free.

Tonight, I'm on a date with kaybee to that party hosted by Ridloff on 24 Street and 5 Avenue. Should be interesting to VEE-VEE at folks including the potential first-timer in meeting a blogger, Key Lime Pie Lover, and to practice on my BSL skills with these great folks from the United Kingdom.

God Save The Queen!

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For Trekkies ... !

A certain blogger that I enjoyed reading from time to time, John Aravosis of AMERICAblog met an actor of Star Trek: Enterprise -- he said that the cancelleation of Start Trek: Enterprise was not because of its "popularity", it is politics. After all, it was 2nd rated show on UPN.

Check the picture of John fawning over Dominic.

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Mission Accomplished -- American Dollar Plummets

With the wars going on in different parts of the world, Bush's incessant promotion of global war on terrorism and in the process, alienated many countries as well.

The economy has gone pretty steady downhill. Even in New York, we try to keep the economy going and going. But sometimes, it is silly. The inflation is low, but it could jerk itself -- I'm not good with economics, though.

With the news reports coming out about Wall Street, it is certainly not surprising.

Drilling in Alaska will not solve the oil prices. The oil prices will continue to rise as predicted. Not even you or me can stop it. GW Bush and his administration does not care about it at all. Because the common people does not matter to him.

I will not preach more about the woes of American economy, but I will provide a good example of what Melly told me yesterday at the bar, she squealed with excitement and said, "I love America! Its Dollar keeps going down against the Pound! I can bring 500 Pounds into New York and convert into roughly $950 and shop these clothes down in Soho -- America can be so dumb!"

I smiled and nodded, "I agreed -- but New Yorkers did not do this -- the idiots in Midwest and in the South did."

Melly laughed and nodded -- Melly's boyfriend, Ahmed asked her to translate what we talked about. Ahmed shoved on my left arm and said, "Yes! Easy to buy here! Me rich here!"

So much for our American Dollar. It plainly sucked, my American idiots. If you travel to Europe or the United Kingdom, you'll be broke in a short time.

Go figure.

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Married Men Do Cheat

After the DIRC Meeting, I thought of getting a drink at PIECES Bar which is neighborhood bar in Greenwich Village. The bartender and I occasionally chatted, mainly because he is cool. He can sign a little. Anyway, he told me that he cannot understand why some younger men are into older men. I did not understand why he mentioned it, he pointed to the couple behind me -- I turned to see a younger hispanic guy making out with a guy in his 60s.

I smiled sheepishly and said, "Amazing, is it?"

The bartender nodded and said in ASL, "Old man married, look at his ring."

I turned to see his gold ring. And grinned ... and asked him how did he know if he's married or not?

The bartender laughed and said, "They are regular here. I know 'em. They told me."

Oh.

Prior to the visit at the PIECES Bar, I was at DIRC with Sarah, kaybee and few familiar faces. It was interesting and fun. I did not realize that a certain person who had an interest in me for a long time was pretty upset or disappointed that I did not make an effort in reaching out to him in order to ... whatever it means.

The way he expressed his frustrations with me about my lack of efforts to do stuff with him indicated that he has/had a genuine thing for me. I'm not sure whether if I'm ready to do this. With him. Or with anyone else.

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Few Thoughts

Few things to say before I head off to the DIRC thing with Sarah.

Amityville Horror: When I was a kid, I was terrified of that white house. And now there is a remake of the film about it. I'd like to see it. I am sucker for these ghost stuff. In my opinion, when I was a child, I thought its Amityville Horror's poster advertisement was the best for horror films.

A-Rod Saves A Kid: This is cool. Multimillionaire baseball star in Alex Rodriguez, often the subject of Boston Red Sox's taunts, saved the boy's life in Boston when the truck sped by and Alex plucked the boy aside. Apparently, this particular boy was stunned that it was none other than his favorite player in the whole wide world. Very cute.

And I'm sick of hearing people like Eva Young for behaving like they are much better than the rest. Shame on him. I expected him to be better than that. Guess I was wrong this time around. Dan of FagPatriotWest is stupid prick. Know why? He muted about Arthur Finkelstein's antics, but cried about Clinton's remarks on Finkelstein's self-loathing Roehmosexual. Perhaps, Dan is Roehmosexual as well. Same with ND30 and Eva Young.

I'm off to the DIRC thing where I can enjoy VEE-VEE'ing at the folks who shared their CODAs experiences. Something that McCock and ThePC cannot relate to. Speaking of that nut, McCock, he still denied that he copied my topics for his blogsite. That boy knew how to lie -- but remember this, married men knew how to lie a lot.

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Lesbian Fired Just For Being Lesbian -- Only In Texas!

There is an article in The New York Times about a successful coach who led the high school in a small town to the area, district and regional championships and barely missed the state championship game by one game.

It was evident that Coach Stephens is an excellent in what she does but it does not matter to a town named Bloomburg. She is a lesbian, period. The abandoned town of Bloomburg did not demonstrate their appreciation for Coach Stephens who worked hard to bring the local high school girls basketball team out of its obscurity.

All because it goes against their morals and their Christian beliefs despite the fact that this same town celebrated the County Fair to commerate the townsfolk's murder of an infamous outlaw which they poisoned the whiskey, shot him dead and dragged him across the town. Apparently, they think barbarism is to be celebrated, and to fire a coach for being lesbian is good for the town of Bloomburg!

Only in Texas, folks.

Deaf World Too Small

Sarah warned that she did not cook very well which she blatantly lied. It was delicious, enough to knock me, her and kaybee out for an hour of nap at their place! Whee! Thanks for the din-din!

Then we went to McAller's Pub by 80 Street to meet the Deaf folks from the United Kingdom. When we entered the pub, I saw few familiar faces -- greeted some. But somehow, I was introduced to one of eight Deaf Britons -- Oliver.

Oliver is fucking sexy as Hell! But he is straight as things goes. It was quite difficult to talk in British Sign Language -- I knew very little but tried my best to communicate using both the BSL and ASL. I knew some BSL signs mainly because I went to London and had few friends from London, though. Then Oliver introduced me to the birthday boy, Ahmed.

Apparently, turning 30, Ahmed's friends decided to take a trek to New York to celebrate his birthday. Which is very cool. Ahmed, then introduced me to his girlfriend, Melly. As she asked me for my name, I responded with full name and sign name.

She said, "You are RT?!"

I nodded, got puzzled a little.

"I heard a lot about you! From Veronica!"

I chuckled. Veronica is one of my close friends from the college days, we used to live right next to each other in that shitty apartment. So much memories! So much drama! So much ...

"I stayed with Veronica in Los Angeles for three months -- you know Brezinski?" She asked.

I nodded.

"Rachella?!"

I nodded and said, "You knew everything about me and I do not know you!"

Melly laughed and said, "Deaf World Too Small!" Ahmed nodded in agreement. I asked Melly where she originally came from? She said, "Melbourne, Australia."

I asked her if she knew Drew? She flashed his sign name, I exclaimed with a vigorous "Y-E-S !!"

Melly laughed and said, "He and I am good friends!"

Melly asked me why I brought his name up, I smiled and explained about my impressions of Drew. Drew was travelling around the United States a year before the 9/11 occurred. In fact, when he arrived at Gallaudet, there was a murder on the campus -- he was not permitted to stay in the dormitories. I was the Resident Advisor, I sneaked him in my bedroom. He was straight but very open-minded and sweet guy. Very god-damned flirtatious.

One time in the cafeteria, the group of us were yakking about things related to the murders and how sick we were to hear about it on a daily basis. Drew decided to change the subject and asked me, "Ever kissed an Australian?"

I shook my head and said, "Not yet, I never did -- but someday, I hope I do!"

Drew leaned and landed a sweet kiss right on the lips, stunned me and others on the table -- he went back to the chair and said, "Now I'm your first Aussie!"

I grinned and was flabbergasted. I was mighty impressed with his carefree attitude and easygoing, laid-back attitude.

Melly smiled and said, "That is so Drew. That is his character, always enjoy life -- he is in school not far from Melbourne -- still volunteers for a firefighter in that town."

The whole night was absolutely wonderful -- I was able to converse and learn some BSL signs. Oliver and Ahmed conversed in BSL with grace. I got lost so fast when I attempted to read what they said. Later, they said they were talking about the KKK and Jew images on the cigarette pack of Marlboro. Then they showed it to me why it has the images -- it was absurd -- I'm not going to explain to the readers unless one begged me to.

Overall, it was good to see Veronica's friend, Melly and to know that Drew is still doing great in Australia.

One funny moment occurred when nearly all Americans left except for me and Gabe, one hearing person approached one Briton and tried to fingerspell in ASL to her. She turned to look at me because she could not understand ASL, I chuckled and stayed out of it. Gabe was able to let the person know that they are Deaf but they converse in different form of fingerspelling.

Happy birthday, Ahmed. Thanks, Gabe, for extending the invitation for me to meet these great folks. Melly, you rock!

And the rest, enjoy your stay in New York.

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TPC's Phony Reporting

ThePrecinctChair claimed that it is 18-0 which many states voted in favor of gay marriage bans across the nation. 18-0?

I doubt so. California already defeated the bill. So does Massachusetts. So does Minnesota. And I believe Oregon, too. But that does not matter to TPC as long as it goes in his favor to skim a white lie on the information.

Ahh.

On another hand, I'm heading out for the day with S, then will head up to meet some deaf folks from the United Kingdom -- should be interesting evening. Of course, I secretly am hoping to bump into this woman or anyone that might know this woman.



Cheers,

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Todd & I

In a comic book, The Uncanny X-Men, where Storm met Jean Grey for the first time in more than 20 years (Storm thought Jean Grey died during the Jamaica Bay Disaster but she was never dead), Jean Grey was in a group called X-Factor as they squared off against the members of The Uncanny X-Men who thought X-Factor was a hunting group to imprison mutants. Jean Grey was fighting Rogue when a strong hurricane wind blew Jean into the sky to face Storm. Storm calmly asked, "Is it you?"

Jean Grey said, "The only 'me' that ever was."

Storm responded, "I saw you go to your death."

Jean shot back, "I saw you die in Dallas. I guess that makes us even. Question is, does that make us 'us'?"

Storm slowly smiled, "It is good to ... see you alive, Jean. I missed you so."

Storm and Jean embraced as Jean muttered, "Yeah. I know, Ororo. Me, too."

* * *

Yes, it is no secret that my first love was Todd who is (was?) hearing person.

ON another hand, there is another Todd that I loved as well, this time -- he is Deaf. My affection for Todd Newman is simply platonic. When I first met Todd Newman, Todd happened to live across from my dormitory bedroom in college days. We always played NBA Live '## all the time, sometimes resulted in bitter fights between us. At times, when I lost a game to Todd, I would try to avoid looking at Todd because he would smirk in a discrete manner to taunt me, if I saw it, I lost the temper. Same thing goes for him with me but I was more abrasive, I think as I mocked him in his face, trying to make him lose his tempers. It is not easy to make him lose a temper but very few times, I managed to make him lose.

Todd's girlfriend but now currently his wife moaned when we got in silly fights, "My god, you guys have to be brothers or something!"

Todd and I became close friends over the years. Never had a thing for him, many gay guys think he is hot. I do not think he is, though. I love him like a brother -- Todd is just a great guy to hang out, talk and do nothing. Great person to be friends with for a lifetime. Dyan, too. I loved their kids -- Tayla and Thor. For the last 11 years, I still treasure and cherish the special friendship with Todd & Dyan.

Todd's parents are charming fellas. Todd's sister, Tammy is great, too. I was humbled when Tammy surprised me with the complete set of The Atlantis Chronicles. I absolutely loved the Newmans family, no question about it.

I hadn't seen Todd in almost two years, I probably will feel like Storm when I see Todd once again in the short future. It is no secret that I certainly miss Todd very much.

I was enamored when I learned of Tammy's xanga which contained the picture of Todd and Dyan. Todd, you look good as ever. Dyan, you look gorgeous as ever.

Gorgeous Dyan and Hunk Todd

Smooch you both, Todd & Dyan. And Tammy!

* * *

One of my favorite stories happens to be about Dyan and his father. Todd and I was in Georgia for his wedding.

I remarked that Dyan's father is the only male figure in her family household -- Dyan has mother, two sisters and a father -- that is 3:1 ratio. In addition, Dyan's older sister has a daughter and at that time, Dyan has Tayla -- that made 5 to 1 in the whole household. It was interesting ratio so I mentioned it to Dyan's father in front of Angie and Todd.

Dyan's father responded eloquently, "I know, I'm blessed to be surrounded by beautiful women."

Todd and I snickered loudly as Angie goes, "Awww, Dad!"

Truer words were never spoken, old man.

R-

Hail To Eric Berndt

Eric Berndt, the law student at New York University, is great! I do not know who he is but I absolutely thought he was great! Know why? He asked the bold question to the conservative Supreme Court Justice Antonin Scalia in front of the closed-door Q&A session with NYU law students.

Eric shocked the audience with a question which Antonin Scalia refused to answer, "Do you sodomize your wife?"

Utterly brilliant!

If he refused to answer, it means that the question is purely private between two consenting persons -- thus making Justice Antonin Scalia's dissent that the Supreme Court should not overturn the Lawrence v. Texas look ridiculous as ever!

Way to go, Eric!

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Back to St. Paul, Minnesota

Republican State Senator Michele Bachmann tried to endorse the state amendment to ban the gay marriage in Minnesota which was defeated.

There was a rally in the State Capitol. One blogger took pictures of pro-gay rally around the grounds, one state capitol staff approached the blogger and asked him, "Wanna really piss someone off?"

The staff told the blogger that Michele Bachmann was hiding behind the bushes at the far end of the rally, watching the whole thing. Of course, the pictures were snapped.

Find She-Waldo in this!

Enjoy the pictures by Matt of Minneapolis!

Cheers,

R-

The Kitchen

I visited this forum and I believed that I shall return frequently as possible.

Why is it called The Kitchen? Probably because of the kitchen table along with better light for Deafies to chat and mellow -- it is much easier to dine, play games and debate under bright light.

The website is http://thekitchen.forumer.com -- only for Deaf QLBTIQ and what next?

Great job, Clitch and Litch!

R-

Be Nosey With My Life

I did not include Europe, Australia, Africa and Asia -- Mexico and Canada, too.

Perhaps next time, when I feel like it.

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Minnesota Republican Is Gay

Once again, Mike Rogers drove Minnesota Republican Paul Koering out of the closet. Again, he is Republican conservative who consistently voted against the gay rights. Such a self-loathing fella, is it?

I'm sick of people like Paul who said that being gay does not have to do with the public, it is personal. It is NOT. Being deaf is my identity, I cannot hide it. I try to make it personal but it is not. Same thing goes for African Americans, they will not say that it is personal thing. It has much to do with how they viewed things in life.

Obviously, Paul Koering hated himself so much that he is willing to discriminate others for what he is.

It was nice of Mike Rogers to make Paul Koering see the way it is in the real world, Mike actually helped him out in the process.

And when I read his comments about his frustrations, I admitted that I chuckled. Is it bit funny when he said this line, “There were nights that I would finish milking and I would go to bed and I would cramp up – I would almost cry myself to sleep,” -- this sounds so gay.

Sorry -- am curious to see Clyde, Sonny, Lisa and Kathy's reactions on their homestate's state senator being gay.

R-

Edna & Jake

Looking back on my old high school days in VSDB -- I affectionately remembered the fun times in Darden Hall. This building was the mischevious boy's paradise -- it has plenty of secret places to hide. I'll leave this to your imagination.

Too bad, the building as of now is currently closed and neglected by the state of Virginia. (Psst! Who runs the state? Hearies, of course!)

However, I remembered the times where lots of high school boys used to yell all the time around the hearing houseparents. One time, I remembered Jerod telling Kenneth Hall to scream right behind the sweet houseparent, Ms. Edna Kiracofe.

Poor Edna -- she was going to die at the spot. She actually *jumped*, considering the fact that she is in her 70s!

Then us the deaf boys would roar with heavy fits of laughters. We'd shout at each other about almost everything -- even we'd try to imitate a bomb by screaming it out -- kinda corny if you think. My brother, Gary, is famous for being so fucking animated with gunfire. He is capable of making gunfire sounds, and how it hits a person -- how the victim reacted when the bullets pierced the body -- Gary is capable of imitating it in very realistic manner -- not even an interpreter can explain it to a cop if Gary tried to imitate something.

I thought of Edna and wondered whatever happened to her these days? Kevin Akens, ask Kim? Kathy? You know, Edna was the "liasion" between me and Todd, my first love in high school days -- I would tell Edna to call Todd to pick me up -- or just to talk with Todd. Edna always do it. It is impossible to hate Edna -- she is hearing. God forbid that I do like a hearing person! ;-)

Ahh. Now about Jake -- you know, Jake has been dead for more than two years, time flew so fast. I love Jake's cynical sense of humor -- we'd spend hours observing people, making fun of situations. Imitated things in life. We even created the super-heroes names associated with pornography like "Masturbator! Cummer! Orgasmic!" Ben & Dylan, care to add more to that? It was so hilarious. I sometimes missed Jake's company.

One time, Jake read something on the internet in a computer lab where I worked at Gallaudet, he kept on grimacing and laughing out loud -- his face red, his eyes with puffy tears. I was piqued with curiosity -- he said, "RT, I'm straight as they come but this one is so funny."

And when I read it, I could not contain my laughter -- it is still one of the best stuff I ever had seen in years. Each time, I thought of Jake, I thought of this article which was published by The Onion. Enjoy.

Cheers,

R-

No Solution for Deaf West Virginians 'Cuz They Ain't Important

For years, the needs of Deaf persons in West Virginia has been somewhat neglected. The deaf school in Romney has been declining. The quality of deaf education for the children at WVSDB is pretty dismal in comparison with Maryland School for the Deaf in Frederick.

When I was at VSDB, we often joked about how dumb the WVSDBers can be.

One classic story that was told to us during the high school years by Mr. Byears. He said that one time, VSDB played the football game against WVSDB. VSDB was winning by more than 40 points ... Mr. Byears used to be a student at VSDB and played on the football team back then before getting the job as a houseparent at boys' dormitory.

Mr. Byears swore that during the huddle, the VSDB players agreed to tell WVSDB players what our next play would be (but they did not tell the truth) -- and WVSDB players fell for it and when it was time for a play, WVSDB ran the wrong defense and VSDB broke loose for a touchdown. The way Mr. Byears described the situation was hysterical. You could see and feel the roar of animalistic laughters out of boys in the dormitory when Mr. Byears animatedly made fun of WVSDB.

But was it their fault? Not really. It was hearing people who made the decisions FOR them. They sticked with the philosophy of Total Communication which is absurd idea to apply for Deaf Education. Total Communication, for years, had failed Deaf people in West Virginia.

The Total Communication policy means that each student has the right to get education through any means of communication. Do you truly think a teacher is capable of educating 10 deaf children who are oralists, ASL users, SEE users, SimCom et al at the same time? Impossible, right?

Today, the numbers of students at WVSDB is less than 100, I believe. The majority of deaf students are mainstreamed, lost in the system, thanks to the decisions by hearing people in the best interests of deaf students.

I knew of a person who worked with the state commission for deaf in West Virginia -- after two years, she left. Why? She said that the state is not interested in making changes, to make improvements in the quality of education and opportunities for deaf people in that state. The state is only interested in keeping her as a visible figure for others to see, "Oh, West Virginia has the commission! Wonderful!", but she never made a great deal of progess in harnessing the needs of Deaf persons in West Virginia.

And when I read the article by KipEsquire regarding the official language that West Virginia has pushed through -- they already made English the official language of the state, which means, the students at WVSDB will be marginalized for a long time. By endorsing English as the official language, it made sure that American Sign Language cannot be used as an educational tool to educate the students -- only English.

I know -- are we that surprised when it comes to West Virginia? Of course not.

R-

Ulf Returns To The Spotlight

This time, the article mentioned that he is Deaf.

Ulf Hedberg

Another article can be found at TheWBALChannel.com, thanks to DowntownLad.

You know what we should do? Chase down the ex and 005 at her for putting Ulf through Hell.

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Another Reason To Bash Conservatives, Republicans & Xians

Few tidbits today:

House Majority Leader Tom DeLay (Republican-Texas) is Conservative pig who attempted to pressure the Congress to do something to keep Terri Schiavo alive. Now the reports are coming out that there may be ethics violations by DeLay. He was already admonished by the House Ethics Committee three times in the past. Apparently, the House Ethics Committee is too weak to do a thing about DeLay.

Another Senator Rick Santorum (Republican-Pennsylvania) who is Conservative and Christian, he urged DeLay to come forward and be clean with the press about his ethics. Well, a new report is coming out that Rick Santorum used Terri Schiavo's struggles to raise $250,000 for his future campaigns. He used the politics associated with Terri Schiavo to enrich himself in the process.

Well, when Senator Santorum did this, he did the exact thing that the GOP Memo which the staff of Senator Mel Martinez (Republican-Florida) urged the Republicans and Conservatives to use Terri Schiavo as a political wedge against the Democrats which was exposed to the press. Senator Mel Martinez quietly fired his staffer who wrote the Terri Schiavo Memo.

In Columbus, Ohio -- the Red State -- a disabled girl was punched and sexually assaulted by high school boys in high school auditorium as dozens of students WATCHED!

In New York, remember the GOP Convention which Mayor Bloomberg proudly boasted that they arrested 1,607 protesters last August? Well, 91% of the charges were dismissed with some stern words for the NYPD's unprofessionalism.

In Las Vegas, the FBI used the Patriot Act to stop lapdancing. Think about this -- did the Patriot Act helps us to catch the Al Qaeda terrorists or thwart the plots? In fact, the answer is *zero*.

In Rohnert Park, Calif: Tim Beuler is the president of "Conservative Club" at Rancho Cotate High School and he organized the anti-gay protest about the Day of Silence -- the whole purpose of the Day of Silence is to raise the awareness that bullying towards anyone else (be it gay or not) is inappropriate. These ridiculous retards decided to set up its own Day of Truth to encourage the bullying and bashings. Fine with me. AT least, it makes them look bad. Too bad, Tim Beuler is cute homophobic to start with. No, make it an ignorant bigot.

And last, this Xian nut thinks women should not have the right to *vote*.

See? All the more reasons to bash them.

R-

Brown Bags vs. Plastic Bags

When I was a kid, I remember going to Safeway and A&P grocery store in Hopewell, Mom would order me and my siblings to carry the brown bags filled with groceries to our station wagon. God, it was such a struggle to keep the brown bag from tearing itself out.

Today, the plastic bags replaced the brown bags. You do not see much of brown bags anywhere else in New York unless for delis or so. And during the winter season, the trees became naked without these leaves, especially in New York.

What really annoyed me the most is seeing many plastic bags trapped in these trees. It is hideous. It made me wish that we go back to the brown bags so that we can have some trees without the plastic bags all over the limbs. Ugh.

Any opinion on seeing the plastic bags trapped itself in the limbs of trees?

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