As Predicted, RAD Is The Mother of All Fuck-Ups

RAD Is Full Of Joke: I'd like to know what did they truly accomplish in the last 30 years? Do tell. I challenge Bob Donaldson and Barbara Hathaway to pose a list of accomplishments in the last 30 years. Barbara Hathaway used to attend Gallaudet some years ago -- she was not well-liked person as she tends to manipulate things to her advantages. In general, people who knew her tendencies said that she is pretty much coward. You know the cliche, "Always had been, always has been and always will be."

Where Did The Funds from Deaf Youth Rainbow Go? I was alarmed that the funds of Deaf Youth Rainbow has been virtually emptied by the CMRA 2005 RAD Committee to fund other things that has nothing to do with Deaf Youth Rainbow. Another reason why you do not trust the officers of RAD/CMRA!

Inflate The Numbers! It was reported that 382 registered for RAD 2005 Conference. It included volunteers, deaf/blind interpreters, interpreters and folks who are on the committees. They also forced the presenters who gave the workshops or lectures to register as well. They did not reveal how many people registered for full-combo package. If you subtract the volunteers, committee folks, interpreters and speakers, you'll have about 280. You probably had 160 who registered for full combo package. As large numbers of younger people declined to register for full combo packages in the last two days, opted to select few lines for the RAD Conference.

In comparison with New Orleans, Seattle and Orlando, the RAD 2005 Conference is a colossal failure. Congratulations, Bill Terrell and Ricky Drake. You guys are marvelous in doing such a dismal job.

An Offended Presenter: I had a chat with a presenter who provided the workshop -- he went on to explain that he never had witnessed such a disunity and disorganization on the behalf of RAD's organization -- my friend said that the blame lies with whom? The RAD Board (Most notably with Bob Donaldson and Barbara Hathaway) for trying to control every detail of the conference. My friend said that the rooms were not prepared. The RAD demanded that they give workshops for FREE. When they were done with their presentations, no one from the RAD group(s) gave the gratitude gifts for their willingness to show up at the RAD Conference in order to give the workshops. One presenter said, "I'll never do it again, not after the way I was treated by others."

Exhibits? Film Festival? Art Show? It was verified that only 8 were set up in a huge vacant room. A huge disappointment in comparison with Seattle's 2001 RAD Conference. When I first entered the exhibit, more than 50 booths were set up which I enjoyed tremendously. 8? That says a lot. There were no film festival nor art show at all in this conference. Seattle has it, DC has none.

Someone Who Went to RAD: A friend of mine went to RAD 2005 Conference as an interpreter. The person said that it was their first time ever to be at RAD and it did not impress this particular person to a point where the person thought it is a joke going to the next conference. The person chuckled, "You know, Ricky, I do not see anything special about this conference -- it did not even motivate me at all to go back to the conference."

Interpreters Fear ... Several interpreters confided in me that they strongly suspected that the CMRA will renege on the promise that they pay $25 per hour for them to interpret for deaf/blind interpreters. Know why? No proof of contract between the organization and the interpreters. That is not a good omen.

Ed Martin Is Idiot: This fella, Ed Martin, volunteered as the security officer for RAD 2005 Conference. He was standing next to me -- he was stupid and appalling. At first, he greeted me when I first entered the hotel lobby, he even asked for a hug which I was set back. Then he had the gall to ask me about my sister's whereabouts. Ed then said, "You had the nerve to show up here at the conference after what you wrote about us!"

I told him that it is not personal animosity as he would like it to be. It is professionalism, simply put. Ed nervously grinned and said, "But we are small organization, you have to expect that!"

I told him that it is not an excuse -- they made a bid to win the 2005 Conference, they had to uphold the professionalism or let some organization take over! He tried to shush me and grimace nervously -- before I met the hotel security officers which many of you knew what happened afterwards.

I found this guy's name much later at a gathering, one person mentioned that Ed Martin is the kind of person you'd find at the dark corner of the gay bar at the age of 70, looking for love in wrong places -- but I digress, that is who he is. He had the nerve to ask for a hug and tell me that I'm such a nerve to come to the conference.

Ed, Ed, Ed -- that is why you are idiot. This is America. You can stand up for something you believe in -- I feel that the RAD is in dire need of changes, I reserve the right to criticize the organization -- whether if you like it or not. Fuck you, Ed Martin -- this is not China, dickwad. Oh, I forgot, you're just another mindless puppet in the organization's controls to subjugate people's rights.

Get a life, Ed.

Larry Gray Said I'm Bitter: When you stand up for something you feel is right, and people trampled on your rights. And you fight back to defend your turf, you are called a bitter person? That is what Larry Gray figured. Such a delusional mind, as usual.

Well, well, people needs to understand that I already made concessions to the RAD Board and the Chairmen for information -- they chose to retaliate back. When I defended myself, I am branded as a bitter one. What about them? Bill Terrell, Bob Donaldson and Ricky Drake are three incredibly bitter persons who chose not to work with the interested patrons of the conference. I warned them that I would blog about their hostile approach, mainly because I heard from many patrons who expressed a concern that when they asked for information, they also retaliated at them as well. One word: Subjugation.

No, my dear Larry Gray preferred to ignore the whole controversy by turning it on me that I was merely bitter one. I think people needs to know the truth about its corrupted system and if I can expose it to the world -- then by all means, I shall!

R-

Blog-ebrity

Bitch Session's Disclaimer: Must I repeat what it is all about? It was written by MANY PEOPLE who sent the comments to me. Then I copied and pasted the comments on the entry. After that, I deleted the emails. I do not know nor remember whose comments it came from. So drop the threatening antics on me in person and via emails. It is so old. And so far, confidentiality has not been breached.

RAD's Mess: I was told by a certain lecturer for a certain workshop at RAD Conference that the Committee has done an appalling of organizing everything else. In fact, one person said the CMRA has the gall to ask the person to give a workshop for free. Not only that, no gift for such a generous effort and time to host one. Goes on to say how good they plan this conference. Does not surprise me at all. In fact, I expect that RAD and CMRA intends to inflate the numbers of RAD's participants in order to save their faces.

Manny As Missy Taken in RAD Pageant: As expected, Missy Taken plowed through and grabbed the crown of Miss RAD 2005. I hope they change the name to Miss Deaf Gay North America, not Miss RAD -- that is so retard, is it?

Domino Effect: I am constantly in touch with many people who bribed me information about the RAD mess for me to blog. If not for them, this would not be possible. I was appalled to learn that some committee went around and asked some people if they are friends with me -- when they say 'yes', the folks insisted that my friends terminate the association wtih me. Childish? Of course. For Barbara Hathaway, Chris Brawner, Bill Terrell, Timo Worthylake, Ricky Drake, Karen Rosenthal and Bob Donaldson, it is just another day of bickering comments about me. In fact, my presence makes them nervous.

Incendiary Threat? I was alarmed to learn the exact information about the accusation levied upon me by the RAD Board and CMRA Committee. They said that I had an "incendiary threat" on RAD Conference! Incendiary means what? A firebomb. Is this ridiculous idea of their attempts to discredit me? This goes on to prove that they are so desperate to do something about me because I exploited their corruptions.

A Plan For National Organization? Last night, I had a good discussion with 4 friends of mine and we are going to work on a plan to set up the national organization that caters to Deaf GLBTIQ's needs -- this time, this organization should focus on the well-beings of an individual's needs which the RAD has consistently, for the last 30 years, failed miserably. This organization is not going to compete against RAD -- why should we? We are going to be better than them, one way or other. Stay tuned for further information.

Blog-ebrity: Yes, few people hated me. They are merely misguided retards to start with. Do I care about 'em? No. I noticed something interesting when I'm on the campus at Gallaudet, for one person who said s/he hated my blogsite, 5 persons already told me they loved it. So you can see ... the numbers multiplied. I was humbled to learn that many professionals and professors in this university has been following my blog on a consistent manner. In fact, I asked a friend of mine to watch out when I approached one staff just to say hello. The person was quick to mention that she reads my blog everyday with a smirk on her face. I turned to my friend who snickered. Such a life for a blog-ebrity. Thanks for reading my blog, enjoy your stay.

And always remember this: I write the way I think, not as what you wanted me to.

R-

Total Destruction

Iranian Gay Teens Croaked: According to this, two 18 years old gay guys raped 13 years old boy at a gunpoint as well as theft and disturbing the peace in eastern Iran. For that, they were hanged up.

Beam Me Up, Scotty! James Doohan, famously known as Montgomery Scott on Star Trek where everyone did not ask him to beam them up -- only ordered him to which Scott gladly did his duties, has died at the age of 85. It was reported that he wanted his ashes to be blasted into the outer space, like Star Trek creator Gene Roddenberry did.

Cesspool! Last night, Ricky and I had laughed so hard when this particular animated German told us of an incident in Berlin -- he mentioned that he saw the "scat party" and was intrigued by it -- then he saw a cesspool filled with feces which people swam in it. He was sickened by the sight of that and was stunned by that -- he went on to describe the details to me and Ricky -- we could not believe it but laughed so hard. Like a friend of mine told me, only gay men would think like this.

Fahrenheit 911: I finally saw it last night after leaving DC Eagle. I was baffled to learn some stuff -- why is that the Bush Administration approving sending the Secret Service to guard the Saudi Arabia Embassy, at the expense of taxpayers? There are many questions that makes you wonder what is going on with the Bush Administration but the Conservatives, Republicans and Xians would not want to talk about it but to fight Moore because he is volatile -- but let's focus on these issues, can you? No, you can't, Xians, Conservatives and Republican pricks.

Lazy Bear Weekend: I heard a lot about the camping for Bears in Guerneville, California by Russian River. It is very popular one. I gotta plan for this next year -- anyone wanna go with me? Ring me up. I know Keith would love to go as well.

Scared Of Me? Last night, a certain fellow told me that the main reason why I was barred from registering at RAD Conference is that the RAD Board and CMRA members viewed me as a threat to their hierarchy. He told me that I should take it as a compliment. He said, "They are afraid of you and your stuff, that's all. That is why they retaliated in order to protect what is left with them."

International Deaf leather & Deaf Bears/Cubs: I have no problem with these groups -- they are well-organized, reasonable, cordial, thoughtful and laid-back group of all. They had the common sense to follow the economy impulses and provide the necessary prices to meet its profits and entertain the participants/visitors of all ages/genders et al. I want to emphasize that I admire the IDL & DBCO organizations for its efforts. But certainly not with CMRA and RAD! Try to keep it separate -- don't try to mix it altogether.

I Am Amused: I was alerted by a close friend of mine who was annoyed that few members of CMRA found out that he was close bud with me and he paged him to question him of his association with me and that he should terminate his friendship with me. My friend responded back in kind via the pager: Fuck off! You do not know RT like I do.

What can I describe CMRA in general? Childish. Petty. Vicious. Bitter. Crybabies.

Total Destruction: I'm all for reforming the bylaws of Rainbow Alliance of the Deaf to improve its relationship between the RAD organization and its chapters across the nation as well its approach with Deaf GLBTIQ in general. So much is very appalling and disgusting. Why do you think NWRAD decided to break the ties with RAD? More and more chapters need to stand up and tell the national organization, RAD, to reform to meet the interests of Deaf GLBTIQ, not for their own interests!

If they refused to reform and change the way they acted, it is time to implode the organization as whole and establish a new, centralized and democractic organization that served the best interests of Deaf GLBTIQ in general.

As soon as I get things together to sue the organization(s) as well as four persons, I am hoping that the other chapters can scramble and join a new organization, abandoning the corrupted RAD in the process.

In the last 30 years, RAD has not done such a progress in the best interests of Deaf GLBTIQ! Name one! I dare you to name one! I dare you to list them! Because there are NONE.

Did you notice that when a host organization hosted the RAD Conference then the next year around, these organizations went bankrupt or did not make a profit, thus its chapters folded in Los Angeles, Kansas City, Montreal (they revived back) and Seattle (was left with small profit enough to even the defict!). What was the RAD's response to this? "Tough shit", that is what they did.

Enough is enough. Somebody has to stand up and take the shots at the fucked-up organization for what it is all about. NWRAD did by cutting the ties with RAD. The new organization, ORAD, in Canada is fresh and new, I am hopeful about that -- but I am bit cautious that the RAD will abuse it to its advantages.

I'm all for meaningful dialogues on this subject, but the whole point is that RAD refused to have one. They just accused, bickered and set up its shield when people questioned them of their goals/antics. They needed to reform big-time to get with the program ... or get dust away.

When they cried that I exploited them on my blogsite for the world to see, they decided to issue false information to get me in trouble with the security officers (death threats!) which I was cleared -- it goes on to prove that they are afraid of me. I had been only to one RAD Conference, organized by the best -- NWRAD, in my lifetime but I can see how corruptive RAD were to the members of NWRAD -- that was four years ago.

So I attempted to register with courtesy, manners and all that, I expected some kind of backlashes regarding the comments I issued on the blogsite. But what they did was appalling and despicable. It sends the message that they are truly afraid of me and my comments on this blogsite that thousands of people read each week. of course, it killed them to know that I wield such power to enforce them to improve itself or be destroyed.

Reform or face the total destruction. In the last 30 years, the annual membership of RAD is appallingly low in 400s. They could easily attract more than 5,000 or so. But they chose to retaliate everyone else in the process. Improve by reforming or face the total destruction.

I think I already said my piece, folks.

I'm out for the day.

R-

Aww! Fuck RAD Crybabies

Last night, I went out to dine with Travis and Irvine, had many good, hearty laughs about almost everything else. Including the old geezers with the RAD Board -- it is no secret that many of us have our own disdain for Bob Donaldson, Barbara Hathaway, Bill Terrell and Ricky Drake -- I mean, just take a good look at them. They are rather scary and old farts to start with. So bitter, so angry, so retarded!

It is no secret that what helped me tremendeously is the video feed that I enjoyed watching in the security office. It is quite a blessing that everyone else used ASL because it is much easier to read and follow the conversations of ones that backstabbed me. I got a lot of support via emails who urged me to do something about the old geezers.

I went to DuPont Circle as scheduled to meet old friends whom I was delighted to see: Mikey and Toby for a short time. Then I headed off to Cobalt to meet Rico, my close bud from The Netherlands. It was good to see Rico! We had a thousand and one of heavy guffaws.

I was delighted to see many faces at Cobalt who abandoned the RAD's ballyhooed party, Flamingo Ball for Cobalt -- among them are: Ricky, Casey, Wade, Lars, Duva, Wittig, Lee, Masa, Kettering, Todd and many more whom I cannot really remember their names. Many expressed their disdain at the antics the RAD Board has done on me.

It was nice to be surrounded by true friends. One friend remarked that many people were very upset at RAD for many reasons including their antics on me. In fact, one person confided in me that he was appalled that RAD Board members snickered like children when the security officers escorted me out -- he was appalled to a point where he approached Bill and told him to act his own age. Of course, my friend, Bill does not act like 70s, he acted like 5.

I introduced Rico to the legendary figures whom I am quite fond of: Ricky, Wade and Casey. Let's say, we had a blast time.

I was bit sad to let Rico go when we split in our cabs because he's heading off to Kansas today and to Argentina (!) afterwards. I promised Rico that it is my turn to head off to The Netherlands within a year. I swear, Rico. I promise, okay?

The sun rose across the dampy District of Columbia, it is a new day. I'm out to have a dinner with two secretive friends then I shall be at HALO Bar to act as the Hostess(es) of Deaf GLBTIQ gathering.

Hope to see you all.

Cheers,

R-

RAD & CMRA Did This!

It did not surprise me at all. In fact, I expected this. I heard the rumors that the RAD Board and the CMRA Committee planned to ban me from registering at the conference.

But what they did was despicable.

I have the necessary information in order to register at the conference. If they do not want to permit me to register, then by all means, I reserve the right to mingle with the peers in the hotel. But guess what they did? They told a lie to the Hotel Security that I made several threats on RAD Board Members and CMRA Committee!

I was apprehended by the Hotel Security and was escorted to their office where they told me that Bob Donaldson, Barbara Hathaway, Bill Terrell and Ricky Drake claiming that I threatened them with death via my blogsite.

I pulled up the blogsite to prove that it is not true. I also followed up on all information which the security officers realized that these guys wanted to punish me because I criticized their progress with the conference. They apologized profusely and in the process, called Bob Donaldson to notify him that I never issued a death threat and that they cannot tell the hotel to ban me from mingling in the hotel with my friends.

Apparently, Bob Donaldson retracted the words about "death threats" and requested that I do not register at all. I gracefully accepted this and I told the security officers that in addition to the registration, I shall voluntarily leave the hotel because I do not want to deal with people who wanted to control the organization undemocratically.

In fact, one officer wrote on a note which I have it with me, it reads: "They should not ban you just because they do not like your comments about themselves. But it is their wish. Even I agreed with you, just screw it."

It was not surprising that it turned out like this -- in fact, the RAD Board and CMRA Board should expect something very soon from me -- I'm going to sue them in the court. Why? Defamation of character by telling a lie to the hotel that I made death threats, especially in the age of terrorism in the nation's capitol -- that is despicable and childish ploy on their part in order to discredit me.

In fact, when I criticized their progress in handling with the conference planning stages two months ago, I got a lot of emails who agreed with me but were afraid to speak out because the RAD Board and CMRA Committees retaliated against the peers. I took this as a way to sacrifice myself for the good of Deaf lesbians, gays and bisexuals.

I guess, you all can see how corrupted the organization(s) can be at this point. They are not democractic by any means, it is totalitarianism, ruled by chosen few. When I stood up for something that is questionable at its best, they chose to attack me in an appalling manner.

You know, when I was sitting in the security office, joked with the security officers and MPD officers who laughed and snickered after reading my blog entries about RAD Conference, I turned to watch the circuit video feeds on 16 TV-sets -- I saw David Anderson and Chris Brawner talking in a hallway, David asked Chris if it is done? Chris smiled and said, "YES! RT was taken away!" David snickered and chatted with Chris. Chris, you're pitiful character who claimed to have a boyfriend -- but actually only an imaginary one -- that's why you amount to nothing. You're more than 45 years old and yet, you're still behaving like a child!

David Anderson, your excitement did not surprise me at all. In fact, I suspected it all long. Thanks to the circuit videos, I saw it all. At least, I know the true colors -- I hope that people will see what kind of person you can be, especially when you are not stoned all the time.

Bill Terrell looked very aged. Which is good. All I can say at this point, I am hoping that his age catches up with him in time for the best interests of Deaf GLBTIQ in general. He is corruptive along wtih Bob Donaldson.

Cheers,

R-

Tuesday the 19th

In few minutes, I'll head off to Grand Hyatt Hotel and will come back home as late as can be. I do not know whether if RAD 2005 Conference will be successful or a flop -- I'm hoping for the best but I cannot vouch for it.

It'll be nice to see old friends -- I already did last night with few ones on the campus. Among the fellas that I saw walking around on the campus: Dorian Yanke. One word: Ew.

On another subject, a friend and I discussed about my sex life last night. I told her that it seemed to me that in 9 years between 20 to 29, I rarely have sex. But after I turned 30, I already scored many persons, surpassed the numbers that I did between 20 to 29! And I'm only 31! So in other words, I like being thirtysomething in that decade.

Time to go and cause drama.

Confidential to Adrian: Thanks so much. Love you lots!

R-

Bitch Session VIII

Disclaimer: This was written by many readers. You may defend your turf by firing back. As always, names and email addresses will be removed. Only comments will be posted. Enjoy! You can compliment or offend anything or anyone else.

Cheers,

R-

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Cody Hanes is an 8 year old with a very angry fagina.

Katie Roberts - stop going through other people in order to get yourself invited to events or gatherings. Contact that person directly yourself or get to know that person on an acquaintance level. You have so much to offer. Refraining from resorting to secondhand invitations and contacts would help you and your social life.

EEEK! Bill Terrell was Miss RAD?! What drugs did the Judges do?!

Melissa March - you SUCK!

Snorting Meth does not make you hot or sexy, AJ! That's why you got boil infection and all that nasty look you have on your face and teeth -- you are slowly killing yourself at 21! You're not cute anymore. You're just so an eyesore for us to watch at!

Spring Ridge in Frederick is so overrated. Trust me, I know. I learned the hard way.

What is it with you, MARRIED men? "til death do us apart" does that mean something to you married men? I caught a married man planning a night going to hotel with a woman behind his wife and denies it! GROW UP YOU ALL. You got married, STICK TO THE VOWS!! "Once you cheated, you are bound to cheat again" Geez!

Melissa has a great taste in fashion and accessories. I always look forward to see what she is wearing. It shows her happiness from the inside out, and she presents well.

Steve Farmer in Knoxville, do not proselytize your religion at TSD!

Mark - please stop drinking too much. You are turning into an alcoholic.

David Simmons is hot as he aged a little. But smoking negated everything else. As usual.

Jade - Your films rock! You will make it big someday for sure. Shame to those in the deaf community who are crabs and try to pull her down instead of supporting a fellow deaf filmmaker who is accomplished and on her way to the top.

RT fucked someone else in a sling? True biz, I understand why Hell froze last weekend.

Mazel tov and L'chaim to your sweet precious daughter's naming ceremony, Shane & Julie.

Shame on you interpreters who prey on deaf consumers for sex and use your jobs as ways to meet people to fuck. Stick with socializing in the deaf community to meet people for sex.

Gee whiz! Bill Terrell posted the fucking informatino on workshops and exhibits FOUR DAYS before the conference starts. What a smart move, dumbfuck!

Prez Bush is one fucked-up piece of shit who cannot lead the country. He claims to be a Christian. God will make the final judgement. In the Bible, it is stated that good and bad seeds are sown together, and it is not up to us to oppress or judge others. Don't fight evil with evil. Prez Bush did this by invading Iraq and using our soldiers needlessly to "fight the war on terrorism." Please read the Bible, Bush, for better guidance and decision-making if you are to use your faith as a source of guidance in decision-making as the President of the United States of America.


Kaybee is a wonderful person with a great sense of humor and good head on her shoulder.

Dawn Seremeth.....get a life!! Nobody likes you because you are one lying bitch. You think you are all that....you cant play softball, flag football or any other sports for shit......I am glad Bobby left you!!

Tabitha Jacques is gorgeous and articulate. Not many women at Gallaudet can beat her in terms of intelligence, experience and looks. Way to go, Tabitha!

RAD Board & CMRA Committees: Follow Deaf Women United's example -- they posted all of their information in ADVANCE on the website. Of course, men thinks with their penises, dickwads.

Tsk tsk to all you men who have brains in your penises! Why cannot you control yourselves and your horniness? Y'all need a condom implant if you keep on fucking the way you have been. Yes, the condom implant would have a way to drain your yucky fluids. Fuck away, you testerone-driven sexual beasts!

7.18.05 Tidbits

Too Little, Too Late: RAD 2005 Conference will begin tomorrow morning at Grand Hyatt Hotel. Bill Terrell, RAD 2005 Chairman, finally distributed the list of workshops/presenters/exhibitors via the email distributiion list. I'll copy and paste for you to read it -- I personally thought it was unprofessional and pathetic way to post it up. It looks like it was done in a rush.

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1:00 pm – 2:30 pm                    Eliza Greenwoo d                                     Wilson

                                               “Are You Gender-Queer?”

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1:00 pm – 2:30 pm                    Irvine Stewart                                           Roosevelt

                                               “Perspective on Diversity”

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2:30 pm – 4:00 pm                    Philip Rubin                                               Cabin John

                                               “Palm Springs – Alternative Lifestyle

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2:30 pm – 4:00 pm                    Debbie Fink                                              Arlington

                                               “What is the Breast Cancer Genetic

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4:15 pm – 5:45 pm                    Special Interests Group (SIG)

                                               Deaf Senior Citizens                                 Constitution C

                                               Deaf Womyn                                             Constitution D

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1:00 pm – 2:30 pm                    Eric Eldtrich                                             Constitution C

                                               “Not Religion, Spiritulaity”

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1:00 pm – 2:30 pm                    Eliza Greenwood                                      Constitution D

                                               “So, You Think You Can Make

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2:30 pm – 4:00 pm                    Maria Herndenz/ Jim Maloney                  Constitution C

                                               “Deaf Perspective on the Gay Games

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2:30 pm – 4:00 pm                    Bryan Loyd                                            Constitution E

                                               “Let’s Welcome College LGBTIQ

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2:30 pm – 4:00 pm                    Phil Rubin                                               Wilson/Roosevelt

                                               “31 Flavors of Sex”

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1:00 pm – 2:30 pm                    Louis Schwarz                                         Constitution C

                                               “Step to Financial Security for

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1:00 pm – 2:30 pm                    Rene Vargas (Youth Coordinator)             Constitution D

                                               “Come Out and Celebrate”

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2:30 pm – 4:00 pm                    Sharon Duchesneau/Candace McCullough  Constitution C

                                               “Discussion Group on LGBT Parenting

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2:30 pm – 4:00 pm                    Bryan Lloyd/Steve Lovi                            Constitution E

                                               “What Me Worry? I am ALLY,

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I look forward to seeing you all soon.

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Bill Terrell
RAD2005 Chairperson

Note: The errors that you just saw is not my own but Bill Terrell's shoddy job of delivering the message to the readers and RAD participants. Grand, is it?

Tyrone Giordano! Saw the picture of Tyrone sitting along with Sarah Jessica Parker and Craig T. Nelson, Diane Keaton and Luke Wilson in TIME Magazine, July 18, 2005, page 81. Ty certainly is going somewhere else.

Be Amused Or Not To Be Amused? I was riding on the Amtrak train to Washington, DC today. I stumbled upon an article about Denis Leahy's life. It was mentioned that Denis, like me, gets off on using f-bombs in conversations, mainly because he grew up hanging out at a corner in Worcester, Massachusetts where he learned the art of shooting people down with rapid manner of words in the process. Just like me. He mentioned that he used to be annoyed by people doing pitiful things to each other, but he is learning how to turn from being annoyed into being amused with their antics.

That is the exact turf that I'm in. I am amused by many others' antics. Had been, has been and always will be. Yes, I'll be annoyed at one point but it quicky evolved into amusing mode for me. Why? Because they are pathetic.

I Was Amused. Today, I stopped by the RA office to ask for a specific person. I can tell that this particular worker is gay. I mean, he is so gay. I smiled. He asked me where I came from today? I said, "Philadelphia." He smiled and said, "Is that right Philadelphia is in Kentucky?"

I winced and said, "Are you kidding? Do you know where it is?"

He said he was not kidding.

I quickly muttered, "Wow, the quality of admission at Gallaudet fell. You are so twink."

He stood up and said, "What is a twink?"

I grinned and tried to explain, "Vain. You're vain. Obsessed with narcissism and infatuation."

He shrugged and said, "What is vain? Spell that two big words you just spelled?"

I muttered to myself, "My god."

I turned to tell him that I'm heading out to meet a certain person. He nodded as I left.

What a twink.

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Hillside Hedonism

Jason, Gus and I were supposed to leave at 1 PM to get to Hillside Campgrounds for the Fantasy/Fetish Weekend. But circumstances delayed our departure until 5 PM. Then Gus drove to Gibson in two hours, averaged more than 90 MPH in a frantic effort to reach the campgrounds before the darkness sets for the night.

Much to my chagrin and horrors, Gus succeeded.

We met Josh and Rob at the site that we rented for the weekend. It was great to be back in Hillside after a long period of absence. I was bit apprehensive about being nude in front of friends -- others were not modest about it. But in time, I managed to be nude when I am at the site and in the swimming pool.

The first night, I was heavily buzzed. Hillside Campgrounds is situated on a hill where people made their tents on steep 45-degree hill. The swimming pool, cafe, dancing hall, the gathering place is in the bottom of the hill. Where I stayed? On the fucking top of the hill.

We joked that if I lived in Hillside, I'd be thin already with massive calves to prove it. However, I was buzzed -- walking down the hill with alcoholic beverage in the darkness can be a formidable challenge at times. I have horrible sense of balance, especially in the darkness. At one point, I went back to the site to get more drinks, then walked down -- I slipped on the damned gravel -- I managed to keep my drink unspilled, but ended up getting scratches on my left calf. Act like a true Alcoholic -- more concerned about the drink than the body, do I?

I love to watch people -- Hillside is filled with men who came to the campgrounds for one purpose: To score. I got to sit on the hill just above the bonfire & Rec Hall where people mingled, danced and flirted. I VEE-VEE'ed excessively, along with Jason and Gus. We kept on snickering too many times at how men approached each other. Some would go to the back of the Rec Hall's building to ... play in the dark.

Not my thing. Totally creepy and unsafe. Ahh, someone converted their porch into a place where men comes in to play. There was a sling (Note: Link Not Work Safe!) in action -- I personally saw the sling equipment before but it was the first time that I get to see it in action.

The next day, I get to swim in the pool ... naked along with many men. I liked to swim naked but I feel that the pool was too cruisy for my taste -- eyes were hugely fixed on each other. You can see the lust among 'em. There is this 45-acre play area where you can see men doing stuff in front of others. I recently told a friend of mine that I feel the pool is like a pond for frogs where guys croaked and moved over when it is time for a change. That's it.

My friends and I noticed something repeatedly throughout the weekend -- so many men are into bareback sex. You can see the attitude that it is a matter of one's choice, people made it clear that it is their choice to bareback, despite the dangers -- I think it is complacency and the attitude amongst gay men that the virus is now "manageable chronic illness" like Andrew Sullivan wanted it to be. Andrew Sullivan wanted the attitudes on HIV to be akin to the ones that has diabetes -- not to stigmatize the virus but to make it manageable as can be. Only it is not.

On Saturday evening, I met a charming fella named Amos who bluntly told me that I am hot. I was set back by his comments and was flattered. He has a boyfriend who does not mind if he makes out with me -- he asked if he could kiss me. I told him he can if he wants to. Then he smothered me all over on the hill just above the bonfire for the world to see. Yeah, Greg was there. One thing led to the other, my friends and I were invited by Amos and Greg for afterhours party.

My friends and I managed to get few tablets of methylenedioxymethamphetamine then headed back to our site to get ready for the roll. It was powerful ... I was the first one of 4 that hits on a roll which lasted for several hours.

Later, throughout the campground, I get to 'observe but do not interfere in the midst of a heavy roll' -- let's say, there were lots of hedonistic activities all over the place. I headed up the hill to a private party that we were invited -- we were rolling so bad that I kept on grinning throughout the night. Made new friends, groped some hot guys, got groped by some as well. Blew someone else. Someone gave me a great blowjob. Fucked someone else. Yes, there! Amos and Greg were simply cool dudes -- I get to meet some interesting people (they are all hearing ones!). It was such an amazing experience for me. Of course, I aim to be safe in this kind of environment.

Oh, yeah, I get to fuck someone in a sling for the first time ever. And I like it.

I think the weekend would not be so great if not for Amos and Greg's assertive and invitation. All of us admitted that if not for Amos, it'd be rather downright boring as can be.

I think I'll go back again ... someday.

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The Republican Jihad on the American Voting Process

Guestblogger: McFly with Ridor

In the June 2005 article of The Sun, Crimes Against Democracy, Jim Guinness interviews author Thom Hartmann. Multi-talented Hartmann is an author of 14 books, including What Would Jefferson Do? and We the People: A Call to Take Back America. This interview left half of our brain matter on the walls. CSI was not successful in collecting all of our brain matter.

Hartmann grew up in a working class, conservative community in Lansing, Michigan. As a 13 year old boy, he campaigned door-to-door for the Republican presidential candidate Barry Goldwater.

Basically, this interview discusses voting irregularities in this country. Guinness asked Hartmann if he agreed with a number of, apparently, unbiased commentators who reported that the polls do not work. Hartmann nodded and said for more than 50 years, the polls have been 'fine-tuned'.

Hartmann went on to say there are aggressive disinformation machines in this country; right wing talk radio shows, the Murdoch media empire, the Moonie media of The Washington Times, United Press International and right-wing think tanks as well as the mainstream media that are fighting for survival?who holds the strings and the puppets? Republican owned Congress.

Voting machines/booths are designed, and operated by private corporations. These very companies mentioned that we as democratic voters, do not have the right (despite our constitution being founded on the principal of rights) to question or investigate how their computers program the voting process. In a nutshell, there is no proof to see whether if one votes for Cindy goes for Cindy-Does-Dallas, not McCock.

Who in their right of mind approved these private companies to molest the voting system? Our esteemed government approved the privatization of the voting system. Thomas Jefferson is rolling in his grave and upsetting the dirt.

Does this raise an alarm among Americans. Only 'certain' Americans.

Is this new? Not really. This has been an ongoing situation for the past 15 years to the point that Hartmann was deeply unsettled over the fact there is no concrete paper trail in the voting process. You can hack the system and alter the votes to fool the mass. No amount of Preparation-H is going to soothe this nasty rash.

Moving on...

Guinness asked if these private companies that are operated the voting machines are affiliated with Republicans. Hartmann responded, "not all of them, but certain high-visibility ones are." He cited one Republican Congressman Check Hagel, who ran a company that handles the voting machines. Hagel wont 83% of the vote which is unheard of in 2002. Oy vey.

Something stinks high heaven here. Republicans has the need to control not only through the media but with the voting machines and through the government, in turn successfully manipulating the mass to do their biddings.

For years, FDR (for those who were stoned during history class, Franklin Delano Roosevelt) knew he had to do something to empower the middle class out of its poverty by giving them leeway to unionize and set up social security. Today, the Bush Administration wants to water down the laws that strengthened the nation; weakening Social Security, trampling on the Americans with Disabilities Act, and quietly disabling the Sherman Anti-Trust Act and the Wagner Act of 1935. Honest man Karl Rove has publicity admired the McKinley Administration which was known for neglecting the working class, leaving them to mire in a quicksand. Hartmann: "The conservative agenda is about creating a similar, desperate, terrified, powerless, politically impotent working class that won't put up much of a fight and don?t have the time to become educated about politics."

Ho-hum, really!? *rimshot*

Hartmann: "Over the last twenty-five years, the conservatives have pulled off one of the greatest con jobs in the history of the United States. They?ve done it very methodically, with their money and their think tanks and their right wing talk radio machines."

In a different publication, we uncovered an interview with John Brakey, member of Americans United for Democracy Integrity & Transparency in Elections & Media. Brakey admits he was a Democratic Party poll watcher (in Pima County, Arizona) and was escorted from his own precinct. Brakey has stacks of election documents in which he has entered all of the data into a computer that allows him to track the voters. Brakey: "The county looks at numbers, but I looked at names. No way this was a gross error."

Guess what boys and girls!? The names and numbers didn't match and were not consistent!

To ensure an unbiased perspective, Brakey contacted David Griscom, an employee of the Naval Research Laboratory in Washington, D.C. Reviewing the precinct results, Griscom found the statistics and data to be consistent with Brakey's suspicions. There were four Republicans and three Democrats working at the polling place.

Griscom insisted there was fraud after trying to mathematically reconstruct what had occurred at the polling place. Griscom: "I think the poll workers arbitrarily picked some innocent people and were in cahoots with other voters." Griscom states, "It was methodically planned out. But if it was a gross error, we have a pretty bad system, and your vote is a joke."

This crooked voting process has destroyed one of the most ancient and fundamental rights of Anglo-Saxon jurisprudence, habeas corpus, which requires, in the words of the Magna Carta, of 1215, that "no free man shall be taken or imprisoned..except by the lawful judgment of his peers or by the law of the land."

We are prisoners and hostages of the Republican machine and the Republican jihad. The American lesson remains the same: We decide, you obey.

Just Arrived Home

Just got home from the weekend at Hillside Campgrounds. I shall share the experiences that I had at that hedonistic place. That is, right after, I take a long bath. I'll leave this particular strip for you to imagine what had transpired at Hillside. Note: Click on the image to enlarge the strip so that you can read what I wrote.


Suffice to say, I'll blog as soon as I am done with the bath. I have lots of stuff to blog tonight. Here are few tidbits for the readers to read:

Bitch Session VIII: Want to bitch or compliment someone else, something or whatever is on your mind? Email me at Ridor9th@gmail.com and I shall remove the name and email address then publish your comments for the world to read and laugh. The deadline is tomorrow night at midnight.

A Quote from McFly: Life is a comedy for those think...a tragedy for those who feel. -Jean de la Bruyère

Best Quote Out of Men's Restroom at Flying J's in Gibson, PA: On the wall next to the toilet papers, it reads: Turban Service Center

Double Jeers to Mark R. Downs, Jr.: Check the link for Mark's attempt to bribe $25 to another player to harm his teammate who is mentally disabled just to keep him off the team. Shameful.

405 The Movie: This was my favorite ifilm a long time ago, I used to show this to my friends when I worked in the computer lab at Gallaudet some years ago. Enjoy this.

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One More ...

Note: You can press on the image for close-up.

I am bored. I cannot sleep. It is very late. I found this in a box a while ago. Nobody knew why I liked this picture. In fact, the picture is bit shitty to start with -- it is because I copied from a microfilm. Then today, I used the scanner to copy the image from the paper -- evidently, the picture is not great.

Basically, the picture has been darkened more when I scanned it -- so some vital areas has been somewhat absent. If you look at LEE's #14, Sarah Mackey's shirt, it is evidently that she was knocked a bit by WHS's #20, Heidi Diefenthaler who raced in for a layup -- you could see Sarah's uniform in the air -- in fact, her bellybutton was exposed for the world to see as she stepped backward a little. Her response to the shoving off can be duly noted on her face.

Stuff like that, I like it. I noticed that women's basketball players tend to show facial expressions more than men's. Men tends to play with dead or macho looks. Totally uninterested for me to scope out the images and so on.

There are many images that made me compare things with my life. This could be one of them -- my life is full of obstacles, sometimes I got shoved by others and I reacted with my facial expression, just like Sarah Mackey did in this picture. But I did not expose my bellybutton, though. That would be hideous, right?

Cheers,

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Hillside Campgrounds

Three years ago, Jason and Gus invited me to visit the gay all-male campground in Gibson, Pennsylvania called Hillside Campgrounds. Ironically, Gibson, Pennsylvania is the backyard of Sen. Rick Santorum (R-PA)'s country.

I was completely blown away by the campground. It is different from any ordinary campground -- you know the cliche, gay men knew how to make anything desirable and suitable for one to come back. They did it very well at Hillside.

There are few places that your eyes would pop out after checking it out -- I recalled Gus telling me to go behind the dance hall/cafe for some activity. Indeed, my eyes popped out. There is a "secure and safe" area of more than 45-acres for men to "play", if you get the drift. Ugh. Not my thing.

OH, yeah, did I mention that this campgrounds is clothing optional? With gay men, when it comes with "clothing optional", there are activities that I seemed to enjoy being voyeuristic more than participate.

One time, Jason told me to look at this guy who was walking by our site, I saw him -- he was in his 50s or so. Jason shook me and said to LOOK CAREFULLY. I stared again -- at first, I thought he was wearing clothes. But he was not. He had his whole body tattooed from his neck to his feet. A major turn-off.

After leaving Hillside Campgrounds, I was impressed with the facility and all that stuff. I'm talking about the location, the service and the stuff -- they are certainly impressive. But men, that is another story, really. It has been a while since I get back to Gibson for another weekend of camping.

Jason and Gus told me that this weekend, we are off to Hillside. Gus gave me his infamous evil grin, "Guess what the theme is this weekend?!"

I checked the Hillside information sheet -- it reads:

July 15-16: Fantasy / Fetish Weekend #1: Live out your fantasies on this special "excuse" weekend. Explore your fantasies in our unique 45-acre "play area."

Uh-oh.

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7.14.05 Tidbits

Culture of Life: Republicans, Xians and Conservatives maintained that their culture of life is being threatened by gays. I guess, this justified the murder, in their views. Come to think of this -- please try to place yourself in this murderer's position -- it is obvious that living in the environment where it is not good to be gay, the murderer turned on this unfortunate person and in the process, terminated his life. When I said "environment", I mean that being surrounded by hateful people like Republicans, Conservatives and Xians -- it encouraged people to do what is possible to harm a human being in order to conform to the society's ills. Ain't life great? Again, this is Jeb Bush's Country, what do I expect? Next!

Another Reason Not To Have Kids: More and more of my friends are either pregnant, breastfeeding or raising the kids. It is inevitable, though. I'm 31. I am expected to deal with my friends that already conform to the society's expectations -- GET PREGNANT! I knew of two ladies who asked me to "donate" -- I do not mind donating but raising one? Nah. I'm not good at it, never had, never has and never will. Like I told a friend of mine earlier, I can tolerate taking care of a kid for few hours, after that -- it is already in the garbage can. This article is another reason for me not to have kids at all.

This Is Bullshit! I grew up in The South where between mid-July through mid-November, I get to enjoy the treatments of hurricanes plowing through the South repeatedly. Media made it sound horrible as it is not. It takes common sense to weather the violent storm, simply put. When I grew up, when the hurricanes plowed the area, no oil prices were raised. Now the oil prices fluctuate based on the hurricanes' impact on the South -- that is rubbish. I am willing to bet that the oil companies wanted to capitalize the opportunity to raise the prices when the hurricanes comes their way -- then they can say, "It was their fault!" For years, the oil prices were not affected by hurricanes, now they do. Why? Spare me the excuses -- I know it is an opportunity for powerful companies to control the mass. Shameful.

A Woman Dreamed Of Being Man: Very weird.

Something Is Wrong With Capitalism: Look at this. Enron ripped a lot of people's lives. Enron ripped lots of people's money in California when they went on Energy Blackouts in order to hijack the prices. Then it was discovered that many excecutives amongst the company lavished upon themselves on greed. They inflated, cooked and decorated the accounting books to deceive lots of people. Suffice to say, the executives were purged. Many are still waiting to face the punishments in the courts. It is interesting to note that Martha Stewart, as a female, lied about the stocks, she was swiftly defiled, prosecuted and jailed in a short time.

And why is Kenneth Lay not in the prison? Why is Fastow still out? Why is Skillings still hanging out? Don't tell me that the Courts are still in session -- they are overdue for a long sentence in the prisons where they'll have to bend down for others to fuck them in the asses! Because they are caucasian men, it will take *years* to imprison them. How wonderful is it?

Oh, By The Way ... I had been cruising some Xanga links. There is no person that I came across as one of the most retarded blogsites ever ... his name is Ben Stromme -- after talking with some fellas from RIT where he attended, people said that Ben is "weird", "a guy to avoid as much as you can!" -- either way, that guy needs to be committed in a state hospital along with few others that I thought should be in.

We Are Not Afraid: On ABCNEWS' World News Tonight, it mentioned a website which touched the human spirit. I saw that particular website about a day after the London Blasts. I thought it was nice. I thought it was great that a website got mentioned on the national news. If you are curious about what the website is all about. Enjoy this link.

And to read that the Chairman of Enron Corp, John Ray III, will get 1 million dollars raise from $200K to $1.2 million dollars. Is it necessary? No. Many people can live on $200K per year. Enron damaged itself, let it remain damaged -- don't increase the pay raise. It was the workforce that makes the CEOs look good -- and the CEOs harvested the millions for themselves and left sparse money for the workforce -- obviously, something is wrong with capitalism.

Can You Identify Who Said This Quote? "Christianity is a religion for losers." This was a quote that was uttered by this person which pissed many nutty Xians out there. Can anyone guess who said it in 1980s?

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Let's Run Back to ... 1990!

15 years ago. The Summer of 1990 altered the way I live my life. It was the summer that made me leap to the "national level" from the "local level" in terms of knowing who's who. In other words, gossip about people. Never mind, I still blamed the state of Oregon for activating my dormant allergies in 1990 which still drives me nuts from time to time.

Today, I can find information about what's happening with my friends, acquaintenances and enemies in Melbourne, London, Seattle, Los Angeles and Johannesburg, really. Of course, I exaggerate but that is not the issue here. The point is that this summer was the first time I realized that there is life outside of Virginia. And ever since, I was not able to close things out on my own. People just fed me tidbits -- perhaps in hoping to see that I'll blab about it in retaliation. Sometimes I did. Sometimes I did not care.

What influenced me the most during the Summer of 1990? Youth Leadership Camp.

There were so many instances that shook the foundations of my mind and soul during my stay at YLC' 90 in Stayton, Oregon.

I learned that you could hate a person with a passion -- thanks a lot, Mike Anderson.

I learned that you can make fun of people using derogatory signs, thanks to Adele Ann Eberwein.

I learned that you can laugh at people's misery and get away with it, thanks to Len Gonzales.

I learned that you can lie your way out and play along with it, thanks to Earl Parks and Kimberly Spurgis.

I learned that you can set up your own clique among the group which is ridiculous to start with, thanks to Lucy Wooten and Nola Schriver.

I learned that many leaders are not perfect, thanks to Tim Rarus and Hector Brual.

I learned that you can distort the fact and make it the "truth", thanks to Sean Virnig.

I learned that you can bullshit your way around just to get on the top of the world, thanks to Melissa Draganac.

Not all of my experiences in YLC '90 is bad, there are many good things -- but it seemed to me that many things that blew my mind away is about how people treated each other in order to elevate themselves. I see how they make fun of each other in very brutal manner. Shortly, they turned it on me. I licked my wounds -- I learned how to survive by retaliating.

But there are few good campers that I appreciated getting to know through the month at Stayton, Oregon -- Duane Kinner, Richie Moses, Kevin Souhrada, Jennifer Philips, Jaime Marshall, Ryan Reins, Heather Herzig and Wanda Riddle. For staff, they are Paula Ayers, Lisa Gonzales, Nancy Moore, George Boyd, Phyllis Brooks and Allen Hamilton. These staff are interesting, fun and easy for me to talk with during some difficult moments.

The rest of 'em are appalling to a point where I rarely talk to them after my stay in YLC. Maybe I'm from the South, I feel certain behaviors are to be duly noted. But when I first arrived and observed the behaviors, they pretty much shattered my illusion of how people should treat each other. I realized that it is up to people to decide whether if they want to shit on someone else or not.

Do I treasure my moments in YLC? Yes, of course. I would not trade it anyway. I was told by a certain Hatrak sister that the staff on '90 was one of the worst in the history of YLC. I was not even surprised. I was told by some campers who woke up in the middle of night and saw the staff running amok in the swimming pool ... drunk. Too bad, I was heavy sleeper back then. There are moments that I noticed something odd, I saw many kegs sitting behind the office. I smell alcoholic on some staff. Even worse, some 'good' staff warned some of us to steer clear of certain staff ones because they were "drunk" and "violent".

When I completed the month-long stay at YLC, I realized that I got the status quo. Once you attended YLC, many envied you. You are pretty much elevated to a level where people wished they went to YLC. To me, it was amusing and rather ... silly thing to hold the status quo.

This year is the first time that YLC came back to Stayton, Oregon after moving around the nation for a while. I heard that in the last few years, the YLC has strict guidelines to follow and of course, certain behaviors are not tolerated to a point where some staff and campers were expelled. That is good.

Too bad, I was pretty blown away back then. So you saw how I can be abrasive, rude, hilarious and all that words you wanted to describe me, YLC helped me with that.

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A Message for Toronto

On another note, is Panasuik good at this?!

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Remember The Tattoo?

After swimming at someone's pool, I get to revamp my bedroom -- for a while, it has been somewhat an eyesore for the time being. So I decided to fix things up as much as can be.

Of course, when you fix things up in your bedroom, you are bound to find some stuff that you thought you'd find things that might amuse you a little. It is no secret that I have a photo album devoted only to postcards all over the world. Just postcards.

I also have a photo album devoted to newspaper clippings that I liked -- none related ot me.

I also have shoeboxes that are filled with old newspaper clippings related to me, photographs related to me and my friends and friends. Basically, it is junk. Sentimental value but nonetheless, it is still junk.

I found this hidden in a box -- I thought it is appropriate that I write the entry to compare the tattoo on my left calf that I mentioned last month on this blog with the original artwork, done by Stuart Immonen.

If you look carefully at both pictures, you'll see that the artwork does not have the statue's left hand whereas my tattoo does -- it is because I asked Roger Desmarais to improvise and add it for my tattoo. Not bad, eh?

Cheers,

R-

Somebody Call The PETA!

"Kitty! C'mere, kitty! Now you can hear!"
(P.S. Somewhere outside of this picture, a mice is snickering...)

Gotta love hearing people for trying to make us be like them.

Hat tip to Deaf258 for this picture.

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Only A Week To Go

Next week on Tuesday, July 19, the RAD 2005 Conference will begin in Washington, DC. I will be there to greet old friends, perhaps make new friends. Oh, yeah, probably will lose some friends as well. And yeah, some will antagonize me.

My greatest concern is that the conference seemed to destine for a so-so event or a flop one. I heard that there is a small turnout for RAD 2005 registration, but a large numbers of attendees who will only select few ones. I plan to be one of attendees that will select few ones. That's it.

The CMRA Committee, especially with Chairman Bill Terrell and Co-Chairman Ricky Drake did an outstanding job in alienating and antagonizing many people who asked for information on different things such as workshops, art & film shows, booths, parties, change of hotel and the counter numbers of RAD participants.

The whole purpose of the conference is to market and get everyone who is Deaf (insert Hard of Hearing if you want to go PC on me, hon) GLBTs and interested hearing people to come to the conference. It is clear that the RAD 2005 Conference decidedly failed at this when they decided to berate, challenge, criticize and attacked the people that tried to bring up the questions regarding the conference.

It is only 7 days left, there is no information on what kind of workshops and SIGs for the week. These are stuff that I am interested in but too bad, they fucked it up.

It was reported that several persons are boycotting the conference and is planning to encourage the attendees to boycott as well. It was said that some CMRA members already accused me of ruining the conference. Of course, they realized that they truly fucked it, they decided to point at me who stood up for the ones that got victimized by their antics.

Let's see how it turns out next week. Of course, I shall live-blog each night with tidbits of what is happening at the conference. Of course, pictures are guaranteed.

I'll reunite with some old friends like Rico from The Netherlands, Adrian from Toronto, Alex Young, Jennifer Furlano (that girl better be there or else!), Ricky Dockter and his Company from Tacoma, Washington. That is not all, they are one of few ones that I expect to see in the District by then.

Oh, yeah, look at the picture, it is travesty to know that Bill Terrell once competed in Miss RAD Pageant as Miss Billie Tara in 1995 and *actually* won the competition.

This Is Priceless: Check this out.

Hat tip to Magatsu for this.

Cheers,

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Republican & Conservative Bloggers ... Silent

When it was exposed that Karl Rove was the culrpit who leaked the identity of Valerie Plame which Judith Miller was willing to uphold her journalistic beliefs.

Let's hold this a second, please. It was GW Bush who said that he will fire anyone in White House who leaked the identity to the media.

It was also GW Bush and his cronies who heckled John Kerry for "flip-flopping".

This time, it turned out that GW Bush's top advisor was the one who leaked the identity to the media. GW Bush "flip-flopped" the whole thing and went mum on the subject. Scott McCLellan, the stupid guy at White House, is stammering around the reporters who are killing him on the spot.

It is interesting to note that Republicans & Conservative (some libertarians who defended GW Bush as well) bloggers has been silent on this subject:

LimeShit: Nothing
FagPatriot: Nothing
Instapundit: Nothing (bits but did not make a comment)
BoiFromTroy: Nothing, if not for WannaBeALeader who hijacked and put the entry in it
McWeenie: Nothing
Rhymes With Right: Nothing
AnotherFagRepublican: Nothing
A Stitch In Haste: Nothing
North Dallas Thirty: Nothing

They made a big deal about Kerry's flip-floppings -- but what about themselves? You know what? The Conservatives and Republicans loved to accuse, accuse and accuse. But when they fucked it up, they try to bury, ignore or stammer their way out.

Goes on to tell what kind of person they can be.

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I Daresay ...

I dare to say that I will never be punk'd by Ashton Kutcher -- I really loved his creativity -- but too bad, I'm not famous enough to qualify. One day, it won't surprise me that Ashton would pull this on Tyrone Giordano! If they do, GET ME. I'd love to do it to him. It'd be hysterical.

And wanna read how dumbfuck hearing people can be? Check this out! This reminded me of a hearing acquaintenance that lives several blocks from my home back in high school days. He was shocked that I had a driver's license. He said, "YOU CAN'T DRIVE! YOU CAN'T HEAR!"

I was pissed off and I grabbed his newspapers and covered it on his car's windshield -- then shoved him in the driver's seat. Then I joined him as well. I told him to drive. He refused. I told him, "USE YOUR EARS TO DRIVE! DO IT! I DARE YOU!" He got the message but he was shaken when I provoked him. He profusely apologized afterwards.

Hat tip to Wham Bam for this. I nearly pissed in my pants reading this!

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Deaf Schools = Hogwarts?

I once took a course under Dr. Arlene B. Kelly and the course was DST 201 Deaf Culture. It was stimulating course with lots of questions (dumb and intelligent, of course) from the students regarding the "cultural issues".

It was fun. Then one time, between me and Dr. Kelly, she mentioned that she is quite fond of Harry Potter series. Of course, in few days, J.K. Rowlings will unveil her sixth book of Harry Potter series, I thought it is time that I revealed what Dr. Arlene Kelly and I talked about it ... related to Deaf Culture.

She said that there are many comparisons that can be compared between deaf schools and Harry Potter's Hogwarts School. I never thought of that. Dr. Kelly said, if you look at Muggles and non-Muggles ... you can translate that into hearing people and Deaf people. There are non-Muggles living with Muggles, just like Deaf living with hearing parents. Many sent their non-Muggles to Hogwarts, just like many sent to Deaf schools.

If you recall the first movie of Harry Potter when the boats took the students on to Hogwarts School, the students were set back when they saw the massive campus of Hogwarts. This happened to me when I was first thrusted to VSDB when I was 5, I was set back by its massive campus when I saw the campus when Dad drove down the hill on Route 250.

We drove around the campus, I stared on my left side at the sheer size of VSDB sitting on the hill as Dad drove on Lee Highway, I could not believe that I was going to that place, away from hearing world ... for the next 12 years.

Yet, people who graduated from Hogwarts School thought highly of the school, few do not. Just like many Deaf schools across the nation. Many Muggles do not understand what it is like to be non-Muggles but do they give a fuck? No, not really. They often said things sarcastically or dealt with it. Just like we do with hearing people.

There are words, slangs, customes that we embraced that many hearing people do not understand, just like the Muggles fail to understand or accept non-Muggles. Even better, did you notice that the competition between Deaf schools tend to be very fierce at its best whereas when a Deaf team plays hearing team, the Deaf players do not care enough to win some? The non-Muggles played Quidditch fiercely against each other but they won't play against the Muggles. Same thing applies to Deaf schools, they preferred playing against each other but goes ewww against hearing teams.

Then Dad pulled the van to a slow stop by Lee Highway then turned left onto New Hope Road that led us to open view of VSDB sitting on the hill. Then the van went up the hill, Dad pointed to the building on the right side, "Ricky and Gary, your dorm is over there. Hedy and Lily, your dorm is right there."

That's how I was indoctrinated into Hogwarts, really. And you're so jealous ... you have to read in order to fantasize while I *already* lived the way it did for Harry Potter. *flick my hair behind*

R-

Some Old Things Do Not Change In Cruisy Bars

I had a good laugh with my friend, Spillers, now living in Knoxville. He told me that he went to New Orleans last week just to see what is up on Bourbon Street. Spillers and his friends went to different bars and he ended up having a blast time.

Then it was mentioned that they should check out the bar called The Phoenix / Eagle, the infamous cruising spot where you can see things in its unnatural occurences upstairs, especially in the bathroom. So off to that bar they went!

Spillers said that he was astonished to see a complete blackout on the whole floor upstairs. He went on to mention that it was nearly impossible to do this, that and there. Shortly, he realized that his wallet was missing. He groaned. Again, it was too dark in the bar to crawl around on the floor.

So it was already missing. He was so disappointed. I asked if he lost a lot of cash, he said no. It was about $30 plus four credit cards.

Shortly, he went to the bathroom to piss -- he mentioned that unlike the bar itself, the bathroom is not dark because it has red bulb brightening. He went to the stainless urinal tub only to find his driver's license, one credit card and hotel access card lying in the middle of stainless urinal tub. He had to pick these piss-drenched cards out of the tub!

Yes, he washed it. He said, "Why did not they take this credit card as well?"

This reminded me of a situation with Erik in '94 at Green Lantern in DC. I warned Erik to be aware of his wallet because the upstairs floor is notorious for wallets being pickpocketed, especially in the dark corner at the back of the bar.

Shortly, Erik wandered away from me as I was busy with a friend. Then I looked for Erik. He was drunk so bad -- I asked him where his wallet is. He realized that it was taken. We crawled on the floor searching -- so many penises hits on my forehead. Erik, Anderson, Schledt and I searched for his wallet -- Erik had to crunch some men's penises to get it out of our way. We could not find his wallet. But we found so many cum-filled dollars. We went to the bathroom to haul the trash bin onto the sink and went through it. Erik was crying hysterically.

It was such a drama. It was so dramatic.

Then we went to McDonalds to get us food. Yes, we paid it with cum-filled money. The look on the cashier's face was priceless as Erik splatted the money on the counter. After all, it is legitimate currency, honey.

Then we had to console Erik who said, "Fuck, I have to call Mom to cancel the credit cards! I have to get the driver's license! I have to get Gallaudet ID! I have to get fucking health insurance card from Mom! I have to call bank to secure the account! What a fucking hassle."

Anderson, Schledt and I listened and supported him.

It was 4 AM that we arrived at Erik's dormitory room in Benson Hall. As Erik entered the bedroom, he started to sob as three of us were perplexed and asked him why. Erik jumped and said, "LOOK! LOOK! ON THE BED!"

His wallet was there the whole time.

Gee! Thanks a lot, Erik, for making us to crawl on the floor for your fucking wallet!

Cheers,

R-

Nicolae Carpathia

Damn Jerry B. Jenkins and Tim LaHaye for doing a shitty job on Desceration and The Remnant. They have yet to make Nicolae Carpathia, as the Devil Incarnate, to terrify the people with his wondrous powers that God permitted him to have during the 7-year tribulations.

He *still* needs the gun to kill people. If I was the Devil Incarnate, I'd use my supernatural powers to slay people. Common sense dictates that you do not *use* handguns to terminate people. It is so low class to use the guns.

And when people got their heads chopped off, Nicolae acted like a sinister child guffawing at it. Lucifer Morningstar would not do that. He used to be the angel, for God's sake! He has the class. He is supposed to be cunning, beautiful, sly, evil but not like a fucking petty child who whined when the seas turned into blood!

C'mon, Lucifer Morningstar, also known as Satan, was God's first and trusted angel until he questioned God's position and fell out of His favor. From there, he knew the prophecies, and it is his job to fuck it up and ruin God's plans, using whatever is necessary -- but using people's guns, missiles and bombs to kill others? What a rip-off.

When the missile hits Petra and suddenly, a mile-long geyser of cold water exploded into the sky, Nicolae was horrified then became a drama queen. C'mon, that is not what Lucifer would have done, he would say in a calm but sinister tone, "So it is true, God ... perhaps, the next time, I shall make an incentive to ruin this." Nicolae *knew* the prophecies, it was his job to fuck up His Plan. But Jerry B. Jenkins and Tim LaHaye managed to downplay the Antichrist's character into a petty prick who cannot rely on his cohorts to do a decent thing. Perhaps, both authors aspired to be the bona-fide Xians to a point where they cannot imagine what it is like to be evil. They should get in touch with ... me for further explanations in the darkness' common sense. Their loss!

I'm done with two books, up next is Armageddon and Glorious Appearing. Ain't this picture cool? I wish I could find a picture of me bowing a little with that sinister smile.

Cheers,

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For Your Amusement

This picture was taken last April by kaybee -- she delayed for many months before sending it to me. I am still wondering why someone had their hands in my face when I was inebriated with kaybee.

Whose hands does it belongs to? Perlis or Regan? And why?

This picture should disprove Antiridor's mythical thesis that I'm evil-consuming, full of rage and anal retentive.

A Gift For Me 3 Weeks Ago: Someone emailed me to check his entry for a small gift that would amuse me. And it did. I thought I should share this with you but for some reasons, I got busy and fell behind with email correspondences. But now I'm catching up. So here is the link!

Cheers,

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This Is Funny ... and Absurd!

If you like this stuff ...



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Then visit this cool guy's archives so you can laugh out of your mind.

Stupid ... or fascinating website? Check this out. Your thoughts?

R-

I So Want Him!

OMG! Emergency! SVRS Operator #3210 is so HOT. If you call Sorenson Video Relay Service, try to ask for #3210. I told him that I'll blog about him. He smiled and said, "What is a blog?"

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Amazing Editorial

This is utterly amazing, coming from a place that is littered with Xians and conservatives in Staunton and Shenandoah Valley.

The blistering editorial by Staunton's local papers, Staunton News-Leader, regarding the homophobia attack on United Church of Christ in Middlebrook, Virginia was a tone that I did not expect from Staunton News-Leader. The United Church of Christ voted to endorse the same-sex marriage last July 4, 2005 -- setting off the hateful people to attack the church with graffiti and arson.

Cheers to Staunton News-Leader for doing the right thing. Hopefully, it sends a message to the people that hate is not a fixture we should live with.

For further information on the fire on the church, you can read few articles by Staunton News-Leader.

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People Who Lives In Glass Houses Should Not ...

Evangelist Graham Is ...: Billy Graham once admitted that he fucked a whore in Louisiana some years ago and begged the public for forgiveness. Bet you a dollar that he did it more afterwards, this time, he is more discrete than ever. You say, he's 86! Viagra! Levitra! Cialis!

Anyway, he preached about this, that and there. And his daughter was arrested in Florida for beating and choking her husband at Wal-Mart. I love this stuff. Made me smile to know that there are plenty of hypocrites out there. Maybe Billy did not spend enough time with his daughter -- on second thought, he probably fingered her -- eeww!

Don't Trust The Cops! Living in NYC, DC, VA, MD and PA -- I've seen enough. Do not trust the cops. They manipulated the reports, they berated the same people that they are supposed to protect and to serve. They are simply pigs. And I love this article as well.

Don't Let Lance Win! Go over the cliffs, Lance! I cannot stand you, you steroid freak!! I do not want you to win 7th straight Tour De France competition -- of course, I'm rooting for someone to toss the pipe into your wheel just to see you flip over. That would be so hilarious -- somebody stop him from winning this one. I do not want him to go out on a bang. I wanted him to go out with a whimper!! Don't tell me that Lance is hero -- he had the resources and money to take care of his Testicular Cancer while my good friend never had a chance at all, he had the gall to say that it is a miracle?! What a fucking joke. The best part is that his ex wife took care of him when he was sick, then when he got better -- he dumped her just like that for Sherry Crow. That slut. Drop dead -- if I see you in Austin, I'll give you the death stare! I cannot stand you, Lance Armstrong! Please die!

Launched Another Worthless Operation: The United States Armed Forces just announced that they launched an operation to sweep the insurgents. *yawn*. Was that Dickie Cheney saying that the insurgents are at its end few weeks ago? Suicide bombings still go off. An operation after an operation, it is not working at all. Get a clue, please.

Be Wary of CODA: Last night, I went to the local pub for a drink before visiting a friend. I ended up staying more than 2 hours. I got hit on by two women -- which is bit freaky, to say the least. Both gave me phone numbers and wrote a note, "YOU MUST CALL ME ASAP!" They are not ugly fellas, you'd be shocked if you saw them. I do not know why they hit on me. I'm just a receding hairline husky guy with a goatee, for God's sake!

Anyway, when I was done with my third drink and heavily buzzed, a guy on another table next to me signed, "Hi. Me Jake. I watch you talk with two gals. My parents deaf."

I was surprised, but I did not like it. In my opinion, it is rude for a person who knew ASL or is part of Deaf Community to sit back and mute for two hours, just to cruise our conversations in the process -- it is insulting.

I smiled and asked his last name, he smiled sheepishly and spelled it -- my eyes popped out. I knew the family -- in fact, Jake has a younger brother who graduated from Gallaudet, is member of Kappa Gamma fraternity -- I won't name names -- but you knew him to be infatuated with one athletic, bisexual woman from Florida. I forgot her name. Jake is older than this guy we knew at Gallaudet. Jake acted shameful to spell the family name.

You know, it is very common amongst the CODAs to resent Deaf parents or something like that. Off to therapy sessions, please.

Remember The Cute Quarterback? Remember I talked about Wyatt Sexton, a cute Florida State Quarterback who were apprehended by the cops after finding him lying on the street, spewing that he's God. He was mental, sort like that few weeks ago? It was reported that he was infected with Lyme Disease. Guess that comes with trying to live in a "suburban" neighborhood where the deer dominated -- you know how it works, you intruded the mother nature, the nature will set its own defensive mechanisms to protect itself. Har har.

Anti-gay Graffiti in Staunton Area: Normally, I don't give a fuck about anti-gay graffiti because it does not kill me. But this caught my attention because it happened in Middlebrook, a small village just outside of Staunton, Virginia where I grew up ant attended the deaf school. If you drove up the hill on Route 250, approaching the minimum correctional facility, you'll go downhill, but if you glance on your right side, you'll see many church spires all over the valley -- sometimes it is beautiful, sometimes it is ridiculous. Since this arson and anti-gay graffiti happened to be stained on this particular because they passed the resolution endorsing the gay marriage, it says a lot about people who do not embrace change. Like one said in a book I read, "You either change or ... get dust."

R-

7.8.05 Tidbits

After London Blasts: Sadly, it is legal in capitalistic democracy. As long as people whined, they will do something about it. But if nobody whined, they will jack up the prices. It shall happen when all stores disappeared when Wal-Mart swallowed them up. It shall happen when the oil shortage begin.

After all, it is for the benefits of rich, not for everyone else.

Is Andrew Sullivan Idiot? He is not even American citizen. He had the gall to write articles and speak to us how to live our lives in this country. He did not surrender his British citizenship -- he needs to walk the walk, not talk the talk. Last time, I heard, if you're HIV positive, you cannot enter this country -- why is he here? Worst of all, he is a barebacker and he glorify the HIV virus -- I say, throw him back home and stay out of our American politics.

Hurricane Dennis: After bashing Gitmo Bay and the nation of Cuba, it is now walking in the open waters, plenty to choose the targets for Dennis. The fantasy is to steer Dennis northeast into Tampa to wreck that loony couple and its hideous children. But common sense has that it shall roll into the area between Pensacola, Florida to New Orleans, Louisiana. I love the sign in Key West that reads, "Dennis, don't be a menace."

The anticipation and to weather the violent storm and to sort things out in the end is what I aim to live for. Hurricanes are destructive storms but it has enormous benefits for the region, rains, winds and clean up the humidity for days at a time. It makes our soil soft and fertile enough.

Come home, Dennis. Let's kick some ass.

DowntownLad, I Wanna CheckMark That One! Check this out. Absolutely cool. Wittig, you have to find this out in Paris when you're there and share this with the readers!

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Kilimanjaro

Since Bush went to attend the G8 Summitt to blah about the problems across the world, Bono talked about giving the aid to Africa. Bush insisted that the Kyoto Treaty was wrong and unfair. And Bush and his cronies trimmed the Environmental Protection Agency's powers and falsified reports about the climate changes and global warming.

Perhaps it is time to look at Mt. Kilimanjaro. Kilimanjaro is located in northeast of Tanzania not far from Kenya's border, standing high above the hot savannah at 19,340 feet (5,895 meters). Kilimanjaro is the highest mountain in Africa, which is very remarkable considering the fact that the highest mountains on each continent belonged to a mountain chain or ridge, Kilimanjaro lacked one. In fact, it is an extinct volcano. When the Great Rift occurred in Africa that split the pantagonia into 7 continents, Kilimanjaro was erupting by then.

Over the time, the glaciers rested atop the craters for hundreds of thousands, if not millions, of years on the top of Kilimanjaro. Since the below on the savannah, it is pretty hot and wild animals rely on the mountains to feed them of nutrients from water and soil.

With the climate changes in the last 100 years, Kilimanjaro's glaciers has melted so dramatically that people can just hike all the way to the top without the proper equipment for mountain climbing expeditions!!!

My friend, Rico, told me that he was bit surprised to see few and smaller snow on the top of Kilimanjaro. He mentioned that he farted and took a crap and the thin air blew the stench to his group which got pissed off ... but I digress. 50 years ago, he would see plenty of glaciers surrounding the mountain.

In fact, NY POST mentioned last year that the scientists predicted that the glaciers will run out in 15 years, give or take. When it does, the wild animals in the savannah will be greatly decimated -- and they will migrate to the places where food are possible. In this snapshot, you can see the open crater which has been buried under the tons of glaciers for milleniums. It is an ominous warning that Bush Administration, conservatives and Xians refuse to listen and respect the mother nature.

Are Sheep Lemmings?: Check this out. Good thing, the wool helped some.

I Do Not Mind Her Being On The Bench:: Anyone want Judge Judy on the Supreme Court? I think she has common sense that many conservatives lacked.

Stop Calling It Holy Water!: The Priest probably got it from the tap water. And it did not burn anyone else when someone did this.

Cheers,

R-