Note: You can press on the image for close-up.
I am bored. I cannot sleep. It is very late. I found this in a box a while ago. Nobody knew why I liked this picture. In fact, the picture is bit shitty to start with -- it is because I copied from a microfilm. Then today, I used the scanner to copy the image from the paper -- evidently, the picture is not great.
Basically, the picture has been darkened more when I scanned it -- so some vital areas has been somewhat absent. If you look at LEE's #14, Sarah Mackey's shirt, it is evidently that she was knocked a bit by WHS's #20, Heidi Diefenthaler who raced in for a layup -- you could see Sarah's uniform in the air -- in fact, her bellybutton was exposed for the world to see as she stepped backward a little. Her response to the shoving off can be duly noted on her face.
Stuff like that, I like it. I noticed that women's basketball players tend to show facial expressions more than men's. Men tends to play with dead or macho looks. Totally uninterested for me to scope out the images and so on.
There are many images that made me compare things with my life. This could be one of them -- my life is full of obstacles, sometimes I got shoved by others and I reacted with my facial expression, just like Sarah Mackey did in this picture. But I did not expose my bellybutton, though. That would be hideous, right?
Cheers,
R-
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Friday, July 15, 2005
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Hillside Campgrounds
Three years ago, Jason and Gus invited me to visit the gay all-male campground in Gibson, Pennsylvania called Hillside Campgrounds. Ironically, Gibson, Pennsylvania is the backyard of Sen. Rick Santorum (R-PA)'s country.
I was completely blown away by the campground. It is different from any ordinary campground -- you know the cliche, gay men knew how to make anything desirable and suitable for one to come back. They did it very well at Hillside.
There are few places that your eyes would pop out after checking it out -- I recalled Gus telling me to go behind the dance hall/cafe for some activity. Indeed, my eyes popped out. There is a "secure and safe" area of more than 45-acres for men to "play", if you get the drift. Ugh. Not my thing.
OH, yeah, did I mention that this campgrounds is clothing optional? With gay men, when it comes with "clothing optional", there are activities that I seemed to enjoy being voyeuristic more than participate.
One time, Jason told me to look at this guy who was walking by our site, I saw him -- he was in his 50s or so. Jason shook me and said to LOOK CAREFULLY. I stared again -- at first, I thought he was wearing clothes. But he was not. He had his whole body tattooed from his neck to his feet. A major turn-off.
After leaving Hillside Campgrounds, I was impressed with the facility and all that stuff. I'm talking about the location, the service and the stuff -- they are certainly impressive. But men, that is another story, really. It has been a while since I get back to Gibson for another weekend of camping.
Jason and Gus told me that this weekend, we are off to Hillside. Gus gave me his infamous evil grin, "Guess what the theme is this weekend?!"
I checked the Hillside information sheet -- it reads:
Uh-oh.
R-
I was completely blown away by the campground. It is different from any ordinary campground -- you know the cliche, gay men knew how to make anything desirable and suitable for one to come back. They did it very well at Hillside.
There are few places that your eyes would pop out after checking it out -- I recalled Gus telling me to go behind the dance hall/cafe for some activity. Indeed, my eyes popped out. There is a "secure and safe" area of more than 45-acres for men to "play", if you get the drift. Ugh. Not my thing.
OH, yeah, did I mention that this campgrounds is clothing optional? With gay men, when it comes with "clothing optional", there are activities that I seemed to enjoy being voyeuristic more than participate.
One time, Jason told me to look at this guy who was walking by our site, I saw him -- he was in his 50s or so. Jason shook me and said to LOOK CAREFULLY. I stared again -- at first, I thought he was wearing clothes. But he was not. He had his whole body tattooed from his neck to his feet. A major turn-off.
After leaving Hillside Campgrounds, I was impressed with the facility and all that stuff. I'm talking about the location, the service and the stuff -- they are certainly impressive. But men, that is another story, really. It has been a while since I get back to Gibson for another weekend of camping.
Jason and Gus told me that this weekend, we are off to Hillside. Gus gave me his infamous evil grin, "Guess what the theme is this weekend?!"
I checked the Hillside information sheet -- it reads:
July 15-16: Fantasy / Fetish Weekend #1: Live out your fantasies on this special "excuse" weekend. Explore your fantasies in our unique 45-acre "play area."
Uh-oh.
R-
7.14.05 Tidbits
Culture of Life: Republicans, Xians and Conservatives maintained that their culture of life is being threatened by gays. I guess, this justified the murder, in their views. Come to think of this -- please try to place yourself in this murderer's position -- it is obvious that living in the environment where it is not good to be gay, the murderer turned on this unfortunate person and in the process, terminated his life. When I said "environment", I mean that being surrounded by hateful people like Republicans, Conservatives and Xians -- it encouraged people to do what is possible to harm a human being in order to conform to the society's ills. Ain't life great? Again, this is Jeb Bush's Country, what do I expect? Next!
Another Reason Not To Have Kids: More and more of my friends are either pregnant, breastfeeding or raising the kids. It is inevitable, though. I'm 31. I am expected to deal with my friends that already conform to the society's expectations -- GET PREGNANT! I knew of two ladies who asked me to "donate" -- I do not mind donating but raising one? Nah. I'm not good at it, never had, never has and never will. Like I told a friend of mine earlier, I can tolerate taking care of a kid for few hours, after that -- it is already in the garbage can. This article is another reason for me not to have kids at all.
This Is Bullshit! I grew up in The South where between mid-July through mid-November, I get to enjoy the treatments of hurricanes plowing through the South repeatedly. Media made it sound horrible as it is not. It takes common sense to weather the violent storm, simply put. When I grew up, when the hurricanes plowed the area, no oil prices were raised. Now the oil prices fluctuate based on the hurricanes' impact on the South -- that is rubbish. I am willing to bet that the oil companies wanted to capitalize the opportunity to raise the prices when the hurricanes comes their way -- then they can say, "It was their fault!" For years, the oil prices were not affected by hurricanes, now they do. Why? Spare me the excuses -- I know it is an opportunity for powerful companies to control the mass. Shameful.
A Woman Dreamed Of Being Man: Very weird.
Something Is Wrong With Capitalism: Look at this. Enron ripped a lot of people's lives. Enron ripped lots of people's money in California when they went on Energy Blackouts in order to hijack the prices. Then it was discovered that many excecutives amongst the company lavished upon themselves on greed. They inflated, cooked and decorated the accounting books to deceive lots of people. Suffice to say, the executives were purged. Many are still waiting to face the punishments in the courts. It is interesting to note that Martha Stewart, as a female, lied about the stocks, she was swiftly defiled, prosecuted and jailed in a short time.
And why is Kenneth Lay not in the prison? Why is Fastow still out? Why is Skillings still hanging out? Don't tell me that the Courts are still in session -- they are overdue for a long sentence in the prisons where they'll have to bend down for others to fuck them in the asses! Because they are caucasian men, it will take *years* to imprison them. How wonderful is it?
Oh, By The Way ... I had been cruising some Xanga links. There is no person that I came across as one of the most retarded blogsites ever ... his name is Ben Stromme -- after talking with some fellas from RIT where he attended, people said that Ben is "weird", "a guy to avoid as much as you can!" -- either way, that guy needs to be committed in a state hospital along with few others that I thought should be in.
We Are Not Afraid: On ABCNEWS' World News Tonight, it mentioned a website which touched the human spirit. I saw that particular website about a day after the London Blasts. I thought it was nice. I thought it was great that a website got mentioned on the national news. If you are curious about what the website is all about. Enjoy this link.
And to read that the Chairman of Enron Corp, John Ray III, will get 1 million dollars raise from $200K to $1.2 million dollars. Is it necessary? No. Many people can live on $200K per year. Enron damaged itself, let it remain damaged -- don't increase the pay raise. It was the workforce that makes the CEOs look good -- and the CEOs harvested the millions for themselves and left sparse money for the workforce -- obviously, something is wrong with capitalism.
Can You Identify Who Said This Quote? "Christianity is a religion for losers." This was a quote that was uttered by this person which pissed many nutty Xians out there. Can anyone guess who said it in 1980s?
R-
Another Reason Not To Have Kids: More and more of my friends are either pregnant, breastfeeding or raising the kids. It is inevitable, though. I'm 31. I am expected to deal with my friends that already conform to the society's expectations -- GET PREGNANT! I knew of two ladies who asked me to "donate" -- I do not mind donating but raising one? Nah. I'm not good at it, never had, never has and never will. Like I told a friend of mine earlier, I can tolerate taking care of a kid for few hours, after that -- it is already in the garbage can. This article is another reason for me not to have kids at all.
This Is Bullshit! I grew up in The South where between mid-July through mid-November, I get to enjoy the treatments of hurricanes plowing through the South repeatedly. Media made it sound horrible as it is not. It takes common sense to weather the violent storm, simply put. When I grew up, when the hurricanes plowed the area, no oil prices were raised. Now the oil prices fluctuate based on the hurricanes' impact on the South -- that is rubbish. I am willing to bet that the oil companies wanted to capitalize the opportunity to raise the prices when the hurricanes comes their way -- then they can say, "It was their fault!" For years, the oil prices were not affected by hurricanes, now they do. Why? Spare me the excuses -- I know it is an opportunity for powerful companies to control the mass. Shameful.
A Woman Dreamed Of Being Man: Very weird.
Something Is Wrong With Capitalism: Look at this. Enron ripped a lot of people's lives. Enron ripped lots of people's money in California when they went on Energy Blackouts in order to hijack the prices. Then it was discovered that many excecutives amongst the company lavished upon themselves on greed. They inflated, cooked and decorated the accounting books to deceive lots of people. Suffice to say, the executives were purged. Many are still waiting to face the punishments in the courts. It is interesting to note that Martha Stewart, as a female, lied about the stocks, she was swiftly defiled, prosecuted and jailed in a short time.
And why is Kenneth Lay not in the prison? Why is Fastow still out? Why is Skillings still hanging out? Don't tell me that the Courts are still in session -- they are overdue for a long sentence in the prisons where they'll have to bend down for others to fuck them in the asses! Because they are caucasian men, it will take *years* to imprison them. How wonderful is it?
Oh, By The Way ... I had been cruising some Xanga links. There is no person that I came across as one of the most retarded blogsites ever ... his name is Ben Stromme -- after talking with some fellas from RIT where he attended, people said that Ben is "weird", "a guy to avoid as much as you can!" -- either way, that guy needs to be committed in a state hospital along with few others that I thought should be in.
We Are Not Afraid: On ABCNEWS' World News Tonight, it mentioned a website which touched the human spirit. I saw that particular website about a day after the London Blasts. I thought it was nice. I thought it was great that a website got mentioned on the national news. If you are curious about what the website is all about. Enjoy this link.
And to read that the Chairman of Enron Corp, John Ray III, will get 1 million dollars raise from $200K to $1.2 million dollars. Is it necessary? No. Many people can live on $200K per year. Enron damaged itself, let it remain damaged -- don't increase the pay raise. It was the workforce that makes the CEOs look good -- and the CEOs harvested the millions for themselves and left sparse money for the workforce -- obviously, something is wrong with capitalism.
Can You Identify Who Said This Quote? "Christianity is a religion for losers." This was a quote that was uttered by this person which pissed many nutty Xians out there. Can anyone guess who said it in 1980s?
R-
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Let's Run Back to ... 1990!
15 years ago. The Summer of 1990 altered the way I live my life. It was the summer that made me leap to the "national level" from the "local level" in terms of knowing who's who. In other words, gossip about people. Never mind, I still blamed the state of Oregon for activating my dormant allergies in 1990 which still drives me nuts from time to time.
Today, I can find information about what's happening with my friends, acquaintenances and enemies in Melbourne, London, Seattle, Los Angeles and Johannesburg, really. Of course, I exaggerate but that is not the issue here. The point is that this summer was the first time I realized that there is life outside of Virginia. And ever since, I was not able to close things out on my own. People just fed me tidbits -- perhaps in hoping to see that I'll blab about it in retaliation. Sometimes I did. Sometimes I did not care.
What influenced me the most during the Summer of 1990? Youth Leadership Camp.
There were so many instances that shook the foundations of my mind and soul during my stay at YLC' 90 in Stayton, Oregon.
I learned that you could hate a person with a passion -- thanks a lot, Mike Anderson.
I learned that you can make fun of people using derogatory signs, thanks to Adele Ann Eberwein.
I learned that you can laugh at people's misery and get away with it, thanks to Len Gonzales.
I learned that you can lie your way out and play along with it, thanks to Earl Parks and Kimberly Spurgis.
I learned that you can set up your own clique among the group which is ridiculous to start with, thanks to Lucy Wooten and Nola Schriver.
I learned that many leaders are not perfect, thanks to Tim Rarus and Hector Brual.
I learned that you can distort the fact and make it the "truth", thanks to Sean Virnig.
I learned that you can bullshit your way around just to get on the top of the world, thanks to Melissa Draganac.
Not all of my experiences in YLC '90 is bad, there are many good things -- but it seemed to me that many things that blew my mind away is about how people treated each other in order to elevate themselves. I see how they make fun of each other in very brutal manner. Shortly, they turned it on me. I licked my wounds -- I learned how to survive by retaliating.
But there are few good campers that I appreciated getting to know through the month at Stayton, Oregon -- Duane Kinner, Richie Moses, Kevin Souhrada, Jennifer Philips, Jaime Marshall, Ryan Reins, Heather Herzig and Wanda Riddle. For staff, they are Paula Ayers, Lisa Gonzales, Nancy Moore, George Boyd, Phyllis Brooks and Allen Hamilton. These staff are interesting, fun and easy for me to talk with during some difficult moments.
The rest of 'em are appalling to a point where I rarely talk to them after my stay in YLC. Maybe I'm from the South, I feel certain behaviors are to be duly noted. But when I first arrived and observed the behaviors, they pretty much shattered my illusion of how people should treat each other. I realized that it is up to people to decide whether if they want to shit on someone else or not.
Do I treasure my moments in YLC? Yes, of course. I would not trade it anyway. I was told by a certain Hatrak sister that the staff on '90 was one of the worst in the history of YLC. I was not even surprised. I was told by some campers who woke up in the middle of night and saw the staff running amok in the swimming pool ... drunk. Too bad, I was heavy sleeper back then. There are moments that I noticed something odd, I saw many kegs sitting behind the office. I smell alcoholic on some staff. Even worse, some 'good' staff warned some of us to steer clear of certain staff ones because they were "drunk" and "violent".
When I completed the month-long stay at YLC, I realized that I got the status quo. Once you attended YLC, many envied you. You are pretty much elevated to a level where people wished they went to YLC. To me, it was amusing and rather ... silly thing to hold the status quo.
This year is the first time that YLC came back to Stayton, Oregon after moving around the nation for a while. I heard that in the last few years, the YLC has strict guidelines to follow and of course, certain behaviors are not tolerated to a point where some staff and campers were expelled. That is good.
Too bad, I was pretty blown away back then. So you saw how I can be abrasive, rude, hilarious and all that words you wanted to describe me, YLC helped me with that.
R-
Today, I can find information about what's happening with my friends, acquaintenances and enemies in Melbourne, London, Seattle, Los Angeles and Johannesburg, really. Of course, I exaggerate but that is not the issue here. The point is that this summer was the first time I realized that there is life outside of Virginia. And ever since, I was not able to close things out on my own. People just fed me tidbits -- perhaps in hoping to see that I'll blab about it in retaliation. Sometimes I did. Sometimes I did not care.
What influenced me the most during the Summer of 1990? Youth Leadership Camp.
There were so many instances that shook the foundations of my mind and soul during my stay at YLC' 90 in Stayton, Oregon.
I learned that you could hate a person with a passion -- thanks a lot, Mike Anderson.
I learned that you can make fun of people using derogatory signs, thanks to Adele Ann Eberwein.
I learned that you can laugh at people's misery and get away with it, thanks to Len Gonzales.
I learned that you can lie your way out and play along with it, thanks to Earl Parks and Kimberly Spurgis.
I learned that you can set up your own clique among the group which is ridiculous to start with, thanks to Lucy Wooten and Nola Schriver.
I learned that many leaders are not perfect, thanks to Tim Rarus and Hector Brual.
I learned that you can distort the fact and make it the "truth", thanks to Sean Virnig.
I learned that you can bullshit your way around just to get on the top of the world, thanks to Melissa Draganac.
Not all of my experiences in YLC '90 is bad, there are many good things -- but it seemed to me that many things that blew my mind away is about how people treated each other in order to elevate themselves. I see how they make fun of each other in very brutal manner. Shortly, they turned it on me. I licked my wounds -- I learned how to survive by retaliating.
But there are few good campers that I appreciated getting to know through the month at Stayton, Oregon -- Duane Kinner, Richie Moses, Kevin Souhrada, Jennifer Philips, Jaime Marshall, Ryan Reins, Heather Herzig and Wanda Riddle. For staff, they are Paula Ayers, Lisa Gonzales, Nancy Moore, George Boyd, Phyllis Brooks and Allen Hamilton. These staff are interesting, fun and easy for me to talk with during some difficult moments.
The rest of 'em are appalling to a point where I rarely talk to them after my stay in YLC. Maybe I'm from the South, I feel certain behaviors are to be duly noted. But when I first arrived and observed the behaviors, they pretty much shattered my illusion of how people should treat each other. I realized that it is up to people to decide whether if they want to shit on someone else or not.
Do I treasure my moments in YLC? Yes, of course. I would not trade it anyway. I was told by a certain Hatrak sister that the staff on '90 was one of the worst in the history of YLC. I was not even surprised. I was told by some campers who woke up in the middle of night and saw the staff running amok in the swimming pool ... drunk. Too bad, I was heavy sleeper back then. There are moments that I noticed something odd, I saw many kegs sitting behind the office. I smell alcoholic on some staff. Even worse, some 'good' staff warned some of us to steer clear of certain staff ones because they were "drunk" and "violent".
When I completed the month-long stay at YLC, I realized that I got the status quo. Once you attended YLC, many envied you. You are pretty much elevated to a level where people wished they went to YLC. To me, it was amusing and rather ... silly thing to hold the status quo.
This year is the first time that YLC came back to Stayton, Oregon after moving around the nation for a while. I heard that in the last few years, the YLC has strict guidelines to follow and of course, certain behaviors are not tolerated to a point where some staff and campers were expelled. That is good.
Too bad, I was pretty blown away back then. So you saw how I can be abrasive, rude, hilarious and all that words you wanted to describe me, YLC helped me with that.
R-
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Remember The Tattoo?
After swimming at someone's pool, I get to revamp my bedroom -- for a while, it has been somewhat an eyesore for the time being. So I decided to fix things up as much as can be.
Of course, when you fix things up in your bedroom, you are bound to find some stuff that you thought you'd find things that might amuse you a little. It is no secret that I have a photo album devoted only to postcards all over the world. Just postcards.
I also have a photo album devoted to newspaper clippings that I liked -- none related ot me.
I also have shoeboxes that are filled with old newspaper clippings related to me, photographs related to me and my friends and friends. Basically, it is junk. Sentimental value but nonetheless, it is still junk.
I found this hidden in a box -- I thought it is appropriate that I write the entry to compare the tattoo on my left calf that I mentioned last month on this blog with the original artwork, done by Stuart Immonen.
If you look carefully at both pictures, you'll see that the artwork does not have the statue's left hand whereas my tattoo does -- it is because I asked Roger Desmarais to improvise and add it for my tattoo. Not bad, eh?
Cheers,
R-
Of course, when you fix things up in your bedroom, you are bound to find some stuff that you thought you'd find things that might amuse you a little. It is no secret that I have a photo album devoted only to postcards all over the world. Just postcards.
I also have a photo album devoted to newspaper clippings that I liked -- none related ot me.
I also have shoeboxes that are filled with old newspaper clippings related to me, photographs related to me and my friends and friends. Basically, it is junk. Sentimental value but nonetheless, it is still junk.
I found this hidden in a box -- I thought it is appropriate that I write the entry to compare the tattoo on my left calf that I mentioned last month on this blog with the original artwork, done by Stuart Immonen.
If you look carefully at both pictures, you'll see that the artwork does not have the statue's left hand whereas my tattoo does -- it is because I asked Roger Desmarais to improvise and add it for my tattoo. Not bad, eh?
Cheers,
R-
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